~Axel~

I was devastated, in pain, depressed, my back hurt like a bitch and my lungs burned like the water on my stove at home.

I nearly died in the flipping tundra only to find out that I was going to die quicker in two weeks!

I honestly felt crappier than I had before.

I knew it. It just had to be true. I know that these past few weeks I had been denying it but the fact that I was dying...it all seemed so real to me now.

I hid my shit from Chloe and I just wanted her not to worry but now that she knew, I guess our relationship did a 360 on me.

She was pissed, she cried a lot, threw some things at me before she was sedated by some nurses, otherwise she looked pretty fine.

We sat together in the large car as the driver drove us home. 

She never dared to look at me, speak to me or anything. This honestly hurt like a bitch and I didn't know just what to do.

She honestly was the first person that I had truly loved and since the accident nothing had ever been the same.

I get that she was upset because I kept this from her but she should've understood where I was coming from.

I was terrified of dying but I was more scared of losing her in the process. This relationship was a mistake.

Whatever this was...it was just something I did to feed my selfish beast.

I was going to die and she was going to feel terrible about it all because I didn't want to die alone.

All because I had intense feelings for her.

All because  I loved her.

~Chloe~

I felt uneasy, queezy, in pain, irritated and also just sad.

Sad because I had to get a shot in the butt to keep me asleep and far from hurting Axe Body Spray.

I wasn't going to hurt him I swear, I just wanted to get my emotions out. Maybe a chair wasn't the best way of doing things.

I felt queezy because all this time I had no idea what Axel had to go through all these years.

I almost lost him and this was what I was going to hear, that I only had two weeks left with him, that the cancer spread throughout his entire body.

He was suffering and he never told me.

No wonder he was losing weight. 

I felt guilty for not talking to him about this and here he was next to me, holding my hand desperately trying to get me to speak.

I was a massive douche bag, more massive than Jimin's Jibooty.

What was I supposed to say?

Hi?

We were in this car all day without saying a word to each other.

I thought of something and breathed out slowly.

"I have explosive diarrhea."I said seriously.

Axel laughed so hard at that, "What?" He asked wide-eyed letting go of my hand.

I joined in laughing with him feeling the atmosphere change.

"I knew that would clear the air." I said proudly smiling at him and he smiled back at me.

I felt at ease now knowing that what I said was funny. I hadn't made a joke in 72 hours dead-ass.

"Seriously though Axe, you shouldn't hide stuff like this from me."I said clasping his hand in mine on my lap.

He sighed his smile fading and his eyes shifting away from mine.

"I just don't want you to worry, that's all."He admitted shyly.

This was really painful but I had to admit that I got pregnant again from his freakin' dimples again.

"Well it's too late. I was worried about your sanity on day one."

He chuckled lowly before kissing my knuckles. He ran a hand through his hair; it was something that he did whenever he was stressed.

He furrowed his eyebrows looking hesitant.

"Chloe there's something else that I need to tell you."

Oh boy.

I sighed my heart already racing.

My chest felt like it was going to blow now. What now?

Why was this happening to me? To him. What could have possibly been worse than cancer?

He started reaching for his crown and I felt weird, maybe he was getting more stressed?I couldn't understand what was going on.

This was extremely difficult to process.

"This isn't. This isn't my real hair."

He pulled off his hair!

He flipping pulled off his hair!

The damn boy pulled off his hair!

How was that even possible?!

My jaw dropped as he placed the wig on his lap revealing a bald head.

I gasped quickly covering my mouth trying not to be rude but Jesus this was freaky!

I rubbed my eyes twice before almost accepting reality. This was unreal, this was....this....this was straight out of a circus.

I reached out my shaking hand still in disbelief to feel the smoothness of his skull.

It was so smooth.

I brought back my hand and put it on my lap quickly avoiding eye-contact.

I looked back at him and noticed that he was blushing. I started blushing and soon the car felt hot.

Like summer hot.

"How the-"

He sighed looking defeated, "And there's more."

Oh my heart couldn't take this!

I leaned back on the leather seats touching my forehead dramatically still trying to comprehend the first blow.

What on earth could he possibly be hiding?

He took out small circular fabrics and just started wiping his face and....I...eye-

Eye-

Eye-

Eyeeee-

My confusion intensified.

After he was done wiping his face, I saw the dark circles under his eyes, his pigmentation was so pale.

He really already looked dead.

"Makeup?"I asked gasping.

This was unfuckingbelievable!

He nodded slowly before looking away ashamed.

A tear went rogue and I didn't even try to catch it. This was so heartbreaking.

The silence that filled the vehicle was omnipresent, the tension was so thick that you could cut it with a kitchen scissors.

He looked so fragile, broken and just so raw.

But in all this he looked so beautiful.

"I'm revolting aren't I?"

EXCUIJI ME?!!!!!!!

Why was it that we were always contradicting each other?

It was kind of funny to say the least that we always had different views of ourselves. We were pretty much the acid to alkaline.

"Axel no. No!"I said.

He still wouldn't look at me and this was my chance y'all.

This was my opportunity to be Axel whenever I was not looking at him.

I squirmed in my seat excitedly before placing my index finger under his chin.

He was confused obviously but I on the other hand was loving this.

It was time to show my manns that I loved him no matter what.

"Don't you ever look away from me." I said interlocking our eyes.

I cupped his cheek and wiped away a falling tear with my thumb then I kissed him passionately.

I held the back of his head tears streaming down my cheeks kissing him harder. He held my waist tightly.

He let go to breathe and yeah I guess that cheered him up.

"Bish, you made me want you even more."I said before our lips crashed into each other.

Honestly. 

Some boys be way too insecure for their own good.

He let go again and looked relieved.

"I must confess..."He said trailing off.

I groaned, What now?

"Are you a virgin?A mob boss? A werewolf?"I asked not ready to hear the words that were going to come out of his mouth.

He chuckled lightly pulling on his 'wig'. Whoo! This was going to take a while to get used to.

"I have a bucket list."

I smiled shocked and relieved to hear that it wasn't something else terrifying.

"Well let's work on it then!"

AN/what'd you think?LET ME KNOW IN THE COMMENTS!!!!WELL AS FOR ME>>I'm BAWLING MY EYES OUT.