Chapter 5 Part 25: Aches, Pains, and Hunger

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    It felt like an eternity since Maki left the window and I was back on the floor where I was before. My face was pressed against the hard tile of the bathroom floor as I thought of conserving my energy in every conceivable way I could. My arms were aching, as well as my legs. The uncomfortable coldness of the floor was enough to somehow feel slightly painful to me.
That wasn't the only thing that was painful to me though. I was used to eating meals at least once a day with the others who were here, but I obviously couldn't do that in my situation. I could tell somehow that it was past breakfast time, and my body started to show signs of hunger. My stomach growled and burned from the feeling of having no food or anything to drink, and that in itself was also painful to me.
I was trying not to let it get to me. Being handcuffed like this in an area where I couldn't even do anything, seconds felt like an eternity. I had nothing to get my mind off of every single painful thing I was feeling right now. Part of me was hoping that my arms and legs would fall asleep, so I wouldn't have to feel the aching pains of my handcuffed arms.
My mind also wandered on when Kokichi would be back. It was only a matter of time before he would come back to taunt me again, but I didn't even know if I would be able to stay strong with even more of what could come from his mouth. I knew he probably wouldn't want to leave me alone for too long, but I still felt...scared for what he was going to do. I realized I had no true idea on what he was planning to do with me here. The only things I knew were what he taunted me about.
To try and attempt to calm myself down, I closed my eyes and started to take deep breaths. I knew it wouldn't help me if I panicked right now, and it felt like I was constantly on the urge of panicking. I was trying to clear my mind of every thing that was stressing me out. The words Kokichi told me. I was trying to push those words out of my mind to calm down.
I had to think about what everyone else would do in a situation like this. A good part of them would try to keep themselves calm and lay in wait. It was hard for someone who panicked easily to do that, but I didn't have much of a choice right now. I continued to take deep breaths, allowing my heart rate to lower.
Surprisingly, it did start to work after a little bit. The slow breaths I was taking was further helping me to calm down and conserve energy in the process. Hopefully nothing would happen to get my heart rate up once more. At least, that was was what I was hoping for.
    It felt like my whole body was soon melting into a static feeling. It was like every nerve was dancing in an uncomfortable way on my body. I didn't fight the feeling while some others would. I just laid there, letting the static feeling take over, soon fading into nothingness as my body fell asleep. While my consciousness was aware, the ability to move my body faded.
    Another short while went by as I continued breathing. Somehow it felt like time was going by so slow, yet fast at the same time. I felt more relaxed than I was before, but somehow... I knew this wouldn't last long. It couldn't last too long, and I knew that. Kokichi would no longer let me help anyone else out, it was obvious that was why. He wouldn't leave me alone for too long in hopes that no one would rescue me.
    It was completely silent in the bathroom as I laid there in wait. There was something different I started to hear. My eyes were closed in order to help me relax, but they snapped open as soon as I heard it. It sounded like it came from the electric barrier. My guess was that Kokichi was back, and the thought of that wrenched my heart.
    My suspicions were confirmed when I heard the sound of slow footsteps echoing from outside the bathroom. Considering the hanger had metal walls, it made sense why everything echoed this way. It was ominous and slow, as if he was somehow taking his time.
    In hearing those slow footsteps, my heart began to beat faster as if it was on a crescendo. It started to race faster and faster as the echoes of footsteps were both muffled and coming closer. I heard the footsteps halting for a moment. I could hear something happen from the Exisal Hanger. It was some sort of muffled conversation.
    "Finally you got here," I heard Monokuma's voice say, "I was beginning to wonder when you were going to show up after you asked me to do this for you."
    "Nee-hee-hee, I was just taking my time," I heard Kokichi's voice reply, "after all, I couldn't get spotted, and I liiiive for more suspense for my little hostage."
    My eyes widened when I heard Kokichi's voice. He was openly talking to Monokuma about something, and I had no idea why Monokuma was even in the hanger. The fact that Kokichi was openly talking to him proved that he was without a doubt the mastermind. That was the part that made it without a doubt.
    "Puhuhuhu~" I heard Monokuma laugh, "you really do have ways of making others wait for you. I have other jobs you have given me, and you taking your *sweet* time to get here keeps me from those other responsibilities."
    "I guess you're gonna have to learn to deal with that, won't you?" Kokichi asked in response, "nee-heehee... it's your only job, y'know?"
I knew I was growing anxious in response to the conversation I could hear. It was muffled, yet it echoed at the same time. I had no idea when Kokichi was going to enter the bathroom where I was, but I knew it was going to be soon. The thing that was so anxiety inducing was the fact that I couldn't do anything about what I was hearing. All I could do was sit here in wait.
"Yeah, yeah, I know," I heard Monokuma say, his voice muffled yet dejected sounding, "anyway, I did what you asked me to, so now I have to do another thing you asked me to do, so I do have to leave."
"O-kay~!" I heard Kokichi's voice respond, "I guess I'll pay my little guest a visit now, so you go."
"Alright, I'll go now, so place nice with your little *guest*," I heard Monokuma's voice respond.
It was silent for a moment after that. Through their muffled voices, I knew they were talking about me. There was no other person they could be referencing as a guest aside from me, and I knew that. That fact wasn't helping the anxiety that was welling up in every part of my body.
My heart beat was all I could hear now. My ears were starting to hear a dull ring, but aside from that, all I could hear was my growing heartbeat. It was an indicator of an incoming sinking feeling that would grow in my stomach. A feeling of dread filled my mind and soul as I waited silently for the person that was the cause of this impending dread.
As if it were on cue, the door to the bathroom hanger slowly opened. I could hear the creaking sound that was the door opening. Upon my lower judgement, I lifted my head to make sure I knew who was coming in, and my heart sank when I saw Kokichi standing there. He had a plate of what looked like a few Onigiri on a plate, and in his other hand there was a glass of what looked like water.
"Take a look at you on the floor just like before I left," Kokichi laughed, "I wonder if you were there the whole time, but right now, that doesn't matter."
When Kokichi wondered if I was there the whole time, I didn't say anything. I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I promised Maki that I wouldn't tell him that we talked, so I had to sell that I was still very upset, which wasn't a lie. I just didn't know how long he could try and make me talk before I said something I would regret saying.
Kokichi seemed to notice my silence. In response to that said silence, he walked closer to me before sitting down on the bathroom floor. He still had that cheerful smile on his face, surrounded by dread and malice. I saw that he placed the plate of food onto the floor, followed by the glass. He was silent as he did this, and the smile never left his face. It was freaky as I saw this, and the fact that he wasn't speaking to me yet seemed to terrify me more.
    My stare seemed to blank out as I saw Kokichi finish putting the dishes down onto the floor. He wasn't making any eye contact with me, and that for some reason caused me to zone out slightly.  In my momentary zoned out state, I barely noticed Kokichi staring at me as his face seemed to bring itself in front of mine. That motion though it felt slow brought me out of my zoned out state. As I stiffened up in response to his gaze.
    "Nee-heehee~!" Kokichi laughed, "I wasn't gone for too long, was I?"
    Like before he left me alone for what felt like awhile, I stayed silent. I had to at least act in some way that I had given up. Partially it was true because no one was trying to save me yet. I had to at least be hopeful that someone would come help me eventually.
    A few moments of silence went by, and Kokichi's smile still didn't fade. He seemed to not be phased by my silence, instead dismissing it slightly. The fact that he was once again so close to me made me feel very unsteady.
    "It's rude to ignore your generous host when he brings you something to eat," Kokichi finally said in a slightly mocking tone, "you must be soooooo hungry right? I even brought one of your faaaaaaavorites~!"
    Kokichi was obviously mocking me with similar lines he told me when I first woke up. Every terrifying situation I've had with him was mostly caused by staying silent. He may have been acting like he was dismissing my silence, there was a good chance he was getting irritated. He was also mocking me with the fact that he brought one of my favorite foods to enjoy. Just seeing that made hunger seethe into my body even more than it did before. I knew it's probably been about a day since I've actually had anything to eat due to stress and depression.
    The realization of this combined with seeing the food and glass of water made my insides burn with the ache of needing to eat. Of course Kokichi knew that about me. He knew everything about me and all of those who were here. He would know all of our habits and our schedules. He would know what our morning routines were as well as how we spent our free time. He knew everything, and he was taunting me on what he knew about me.
    I was visibly wincing from the hunger pains I was feeling. It was so painful for me, and it wasn't fading away. Through wincing, I could make out Kokichi smirking in response to my expression. It was like he knew what he was doing.
"Nee-heehee~!" Kokichi laughed, "you sure look like you're in a lot of pain, huh? Perhaps it's because you haven't had anything to eat in over twenty four hours, right? Well I knew that, so I took it upon myself to bring you some food."
After Kokichi said those words, he leaned over to where he placed the plate of food and glass of water before picking the plate of Onigiri up. He brought the plate closer to me so it would be a lot closer than it was before. It was making it harder to ignore the pain with Kokichi constantly mocking me with the food he brought.
"I know you want it, riiiiiight, my beloved~?" Kokichi asked, "but the question you should be asking is how you're going to eat those rice balls without using your hands. After all, they are behind your back."
Kokichi knew I wanted to eat, that much was obvious to me. But I felt an impending sense of uncomfortableness as Kokichi asked how I was even going to eat the food without my hands. He was the one who handcuffed me like this, so it was another thing he was using to mock me, but I didn't exactly like where he was going with this conversation. As much as I felt I needed to respond, I couldn't bring myself to do so.
"Nee-heehee, it looks like I'm going to have to feed you, huh?" Kokichi asked, "I mean how else are you going to eat?"
I could feel myself grow even more uncomfortable when he said that he was going to have to feed me. For some reason, I knew this was what Kokichi would say, but that was still something that made my stomach sink.
Kokichi didn't seem to care about the impact his words had on me because he decided to grab one of the rice balls, and he held it up to my face in a somewhat taunting way. He had a smile on his face as he did so.
Despite him holding the rice ball in front of my face I didn't do anything despite the fact my body was aching to take a bite of the said rice ball. Thoughts were going through my mind such as the suspicion that he did something to the rice ball. If there was any chance that he did something to the food, I wouldn't want to have any part in eating it...even if I so desperately wanted to.
Kokichi seemed to notice I wasn't doing anything despite knowing that I was hungry. He continued to hold the rice ball in my face, but his expression was changing into one that was more irritated.
"You probably think I drugged this, don't you?" Kokichi asked, "to ease your mind, my beloved, I didn't even touch this plate before entering the bathroom, so there's no way I could've done anything to it. Using drugs is so old school these days, y'know?"
    Kokichi knew exactly what I was thinking. He knew I thought that he drugged the food, even making a statement as of why. Kokichi telling me that he didn't even touch the plate of food before he entered where I was. That explained why Kokichi was talking to Monokuma. He probably sent him there to drop it off, and they had a conversation when Kokichi got there.
    It connected, but there was still a chance that the food could've been drugged by Monokuma. Even if Kokichi was saying that he wouldn't drug the food, he could use Monokuma as faulty proof for that. I couldn't risk that. I couldn't trust his words. He was a liar after all.
    "So eat it," Kokichi said, "there's no possible reason you could think that I drugged these. So you're going to eat them whether you like it or not."
    "B-But Monokuma could have drugged them—" I tried to say before...
    Before I could say any more, Kokichi's hand that held the rice ball shot forwards, and I saw as Kokichi forcefully shoved the rice ball into my mouth. I was startled by this, because I was trying to say why I didn't want it, but he took that as an opportunity to force feed me the food.
    "Isn't it rude to talk with your mouth full?" Kokichi asked in a mocking tone, "why don't you eat this first and then we can talk. I won't take my hand away unless you start eating it."
    Kokichi was mocking me once more. He wasn't moving his hand away from the rice ball that was now in my mouth. He didn't even leave any room for negotiations. That was how he played, and I had no choice but to eat now.
    That was how Kokichi was able to force feed me the rice balls he had on that plate. I felt uncomfortable every single moment of it. I tried to blank every moment out, but it was weird and uncomfortable.
    When it was finally, over, I had a sick looking expression on my face, nausea over flooding my system. Kokichi seemed to be pleased in getting me to do what he wanted, and after the whole ordeal, he patted my head as if I were a little puppy. It made me flinch slightly when he did that, and it basically felt like I wasn't being taken seriously.
    "There we go, that's a good girl," Kokichi said mockingly, "now that wasn't so hard, was it?"
    I didn't respond to his words out of sheer spite. I didn't even think I could even manage to glare at him like I was right now. I didn't even think it was possible to spite someone so much for the mocking and taunting. It didn't help that he was comparing me to some sort of pet he was housing, and I didn't like how it felt.
Kokichi seemed to notice the expression I was giving him, and yet he didn't seem very shocked at all due to that. He was acting like he was amused by everything I did.
"Nee-heehee, why are you glaring at me like that?" Kokichi asked, "it's not like I actually drugged the food. Or maybe you're angry at me because I force fed you. It's not like it matters much though, it's too late, so just get over it."
Now that it was done and over with, Kokichi noticed my glare, saying that it was too late. It didn't matter to me whether it was too late or not. I was upset and that much was obvious. And it wasn't even just the fact that he force fed me. It was also the fact that he was treating me as some sort of pet afterwards. That's what was truly irritating me.
However, part of me couldn't deny that I felt a little bit better after I actually ate something, and despite what Kokichi was saying about the food not being drugged, I knew there was a chance that he actually died drug the food, so I had to wait for any affects the food could give me.
"You still look pretty upset with me, don't you (y/n)?" Kokichi asked, "I never thought I would see a burning glare like that from you. It looks like Maki rubbed off on you a bit, huh? Well about that topic...."
Kokichi trailed his words off as if he mentioned how Maki rubbed off on me. I could feel myself grow nervous at that topic because Kokichi seemed to have something to say about that said topic. Part of me thought he was serious when he said that he was going to talk to me after I ate.
    "Did anything happen while I was gone?" Kokichi asked, "did anyone visit you after I left for that short while?"
    As soon as the words came from Kokichi's mouth, internally, I was nervous. On the outside however, I was still glaring at Kokichi like I was before. I couldn't falter my expression in anyway or else he would know that I was lying to him. I couldn't tell him that Maki actually spoke with me. It would be very bad if he found out right now.
    Part of me just didn't know how to respond to Kokichi's words. He was asking me this question, and if I said no, he still wouldn't believe me. Every word he says has been used in his favor to try and tick me off and get me to slip up in someway. I couldn't let him know.
    "What am I saying?" Kokichi asked, "it's very hard to move in handcuffs when your hands are behind your back. It would even be the most difficult task to get up and walk with those tying you down. There was no way you could've moved like that with your resolve broken."
    I decided I was going to let Kokichi say what he wanted to say. If I acted like his words were the truth, hopefully he would believe that I wouldn't be able to have a conversation with Maki. I had to keep this from Kokichi, but I personally didn't know how long I could.
    "But I should probably look more into what the others are up to," Kokichi sighed, "but I also need to keep an eye on you, so no one tries to rescue you. If only I could do those tasks at the same time from here..."
    I found myself listening to what Kokichi was saying. Looking into what everyone else was up to, but also the need to watch me and keep me here. He apparently couldn't do those things at the same time. Not unless he had Monokuma keeping an eye on things and keeping him up to date. That was the only way Kokichi could know what was going on, and if he personally wanted to watch everyone, he would have to go where he would be able to do that.
    I found Kokichi's words as a piece of information to pass along the next chance I could. That was at least something I could do to help the others. I just didn't know the next chance I would be able to talk to Maki or even see the others. If Kokichi had a way to get the information he needed while he was here, then they would be in trouble.
    "I guess I'll have to find a way to work around that," Kokichi muttered, "but for now, I thought that a fun change in plans would be necessary to try to turn things back on track, and I bet you're curious on what it is. I will give you a hint, it does involve you."
    A change in plans. Those words somehow stuck me a feeling of dread. He was being illusive when he was saying that it would be necessary to put things back on track. That meant he was lying when he said he would spare the lives of the others. I somehow knew he would lie, but he forced me to tell him what he wanted to know when I first found myself in this predicament.
    I had to do something, but I had no idea how he would involve me in his plans to motivate this awful game. He knew I was the one behind everyone surviving, there was a chance he was going to use that to his advantage, and I was in a situation where I couldn't do anything about that. He told me that his plan involved me, but I didn't know what he was planning to do with me now. I needed to tell the others somehow about what he might try to pull. But there was a chance that I could only do so when he was asleep. It was a waiting game, and the fear of not knowing his true plans was frightening.


Hey guys, sorry this update was a little bit later. It's still Friday though, so I'm still in the clear ground. I've been a bit busy with volunteer work for school, so I've been a bit drained. Hopefully Kokichi force feeding reader a rice ball makes up for that. No? Okay....

Things have been getting pretty busy on my end with graduation soon, so I'm sorry if updates are more halted. I'm doing okay, so that's good, and I hope you all are too. I'm keeping things short for this A/N, so you all have an amazing weekend-yuki_no_fuyu

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