Narration: 3rd Person.
Main Protagonists: Shivaay Singh Oberoi x Annika Shivvay Singh Oberoi.
Other Characters: Aditya Rathore x Meghna Rathore x Omkara Singh Oberoi.
Status: Highly Unedited.

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Sitting in one of the executive restaurant of mumbai with his bussiness partner waiting for the client to come and sign the deal,Shivaay sat with his glass of renish wine,the ruby colour compared to that of his bleeding heart which was tore apart by a certain lady whom he had loved the most.A low growl escaped his mouth as he clucth on the crystalline glass,his eyes spitting fire but his heart screaming her name over and over again,but he had long before shut it down,doesn't he?Yes he did and he is bend upon to never let it open to some randon girl because,he knew the consiquences and he for the first time though to kill himself for doing this to himself.,letting her touch his soul through the great wall.

It's been three months but still he can't forget her.The grip tighten more as his heart scream"You Love her".he just wanted to scream out loud at this "No Damn it I don't love that lady"but he can't because he know how much he lie to others but he can't lie to himself.No he can't fool his own heart,Involentarily the grip loosened a bit and his shoulder dropped making a sigh escape his mouth.he lifted his eyes from his glass to see aditya,his bussiness partner looking at his phone,was he moved a little to the left he saw Meghna,Aditya's sister too doing the same thing,well he was glad that no one is disturbing him at this very moment.

He don't know how come he started to think of her all of a sudden "You always think about her shivaay don't lie" his heart reply.he had a sip of his wine and kept his head at the back closing his eyes to calm himself,taping his legs continuosly.How much he tried to hate her the love for her overpower him.How much times he says he hate that women but deep down his heart say the opposite.he don't know after all this,Omru still miss her still cry for her.Well not in front of him but when he is away but he also their brother he see everything when he is away,they think he cannot make out what they are doing but little did they know that he always listen to their talks.hiding from them.

Watever she did, they still love her.Like really?Don't they feel angry with her?Well he should question himself this.But everytime he dared to do this he failed miserably,because he know that what the answer will be.He really tried hard to not to love her but everywhere he go,every little thing made him think of her,remember her and the same thing happened now.Why can't you stop chanting her name? he asked his heart and always the answer come in return"I Love her and I know she can never do this"--- he wished that he could also believe this but his mind always overpower him letting him not to listen to his heart.

Every night when he sits at the pool side dipping his legs in the cold water to touch his burning soul,he tried to listen to his heart,yes he tried,he always tried,because being alone at night never let him sleep,her fragnence,her smile,her laughter seemed to linger around his room making it difficult for him to sleep.He missed her in his arms,still! Yeah,after all this,he still misses her,she was like a drug to him,being in her arms was the last thing he ever wanted before his death.He sometimes come into conclusion that may be maybe there is something which she was hiding from him,yes because whenever he tried to read her eyes she didn't met his,this is the act which always make him trouble thinking that he had done wrong,yes maybe he had done something terribly wrong not looking in to the matter,but alas,his mind never agreed to it.

"Oh damn it!"the shrill sound of aditya made him come out of his thoughts eyes being hazy it took him few seconds to steady his view and fight back the tears which were going to spill any moment "What happend adi?"Meghna asked on behalf of him"The dealer can't come today as he had some work and is now apologizing like a fool wasting our time"Aditya was in full rage while shivaay was not in a sense to say something right now,He don't know what to say,what had suddenly seeped into him? he wondered.He wanted to stay there for sometime. "let's go" aditya said and stood up when Meghna stopped him"Adi can't we wait for sometime?As I have heard the live music here is really good,let's listen to it and then go shall we?"she asjked softly and looked at shivaay asking him too for this"Okay I don't have any problem what say Shivaay?"Adi said making himself confortable on the chair once again"Yeah why not let's stay for sometime"he said having his liquor.

The soft music hit his eardrum calming his raging heart,he was glad that he stayed here,well the person who is going to sing was not coming in his veiw but he stayed uneffected,he waited for the person's voice ,well there was a little restlessness gripping his heart and the one minute seeemd to squeezed his heart he don't know why?

[Hurts Like Hell by Fleurie]

How can I say this without breaking?
How can I say this without taking over?
How can I put it down into words
When it's almost too much for my soul alone.

The voice seemed to be somewhat fimiliar.Yeah it was fimiliar,he can hear Meghna say that the voice was really beautiful! and aditya agreeing to it.He gulped down the left over content and stood up,a feeling of seeing the person's face gripped his heart."hey shivaay were are you going?"he heard Meghna asking him"to the bar"he said eyeing his empty glass."Okay!"she said as he moved towards the bar and also in an attemp to see the person's face.The voice was really attracting,he felt his feet dragging him towards the small stage where a lady is singing,dew to the dim light he wasn't able to make out her face.

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell.

The voice held some kind of pain,the pain was truely visible,there was hurt helplessness and what not. A heartwhelming voice he must say.As he moved towards the bar counter,asking for a glass of wine,he waited and continue to look at the person's side waiting for the spot light to falll over her and he could see her and it seems god had taken his wish and the light fell making his heart stop.As there she was sitting on the chair with the mike close to her mouth as she sang.Her eyes closed and it seemed she was in her own world.

The emotions he was trying to hide from the last three months suddenly come crashing down him he don't know why? The mask slipping,his eyes were started to stink after seeing her here ,after whole three months he is eeing her again,she had vanishd from mumbai he thought as he havn't got any information about her in these months.But here he was seeing her singing her heart out in this well furnished restaurant.

His heart squeezed as he saw her open her yes,and he could see raw pain in that red flooded eyes,well no one would have noticed it but he did,after all she is his annika.She havn't change a bit,he thought as he ran his eyes on her face,the same eyes,the same smile everything was sam,'But the glow was lost"heis heart said and he knew that he was right,the sparkle in her eyes was lost.

I don't want them to know the secrets
I don't want them to know the way I loved you
I don't think they'd understand it, no
I don't think they would accept me, no

"Sir here's your drink"the bartender said but he didn't listened,his eyes not leaving her face"Anni sing beautifully doesn't she?"th man asked softly making him come out of the thoughts and look at him in an instant"What does he called her?Anni?like really?"he thought and looked amused at him,seeing him like this h was a little embarressed"I mean the girl sings beautiful doesn't she?"he said in a soft voice hading him the glass"Yeah she does"he said involanterily making the other guy smile brightly"I know she is the best,her voice alwys is soothing,it's like she had a lot of pain stored in her heart,she is just phenominal and a very caring lady"he said loking at annika with an admired look,shivaay felt a surg to punch him as he looked at her like this,How dare he look at her like this?he had the only right to see ehr like this and one else"she never get rid of her habits making anyone her frnd"he though angrily gritting his teeths.

"How do you know her?"he asked eyeing her while sipping his glass"she had come here from last month and sings really good,and after every song she used to come here and eventually we become good frnds"he said smiling to himself while shivaay just hummed in response while inside there was a volcano to erupt.

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell!

"People say that when a person can't express her inner tumoil,it is beat expressed in her voice and the same thing happened with anni,she had that burning pain in her heart that it clearly comes out in her voice"the bartender said with a sad smile,making Shivaay wonder for sometime but the word anni on the other side made him burn wih jealousy,How much he say but if anyother person say something like this about her he can't control his feelings."yeah"he said as he gulped the half content in one go looking at her with blood shot red eyes.This had made him think over the matter once again,maybe she had a big reason doing all this but why she did this?She doesn't find him worthy to know about her problems?does she thought that he would not be able to help her?He just waited for her to look at im,he waited patiently and when it hapned the room seemd to be empty,only these two were there and no one.

Dreams fight with machines
Inside my head like adversaries
Come wrestle me free
Clean from the war

Shivaay could see the unshed tears in her eyes as well as the cracking of her voice as she sang looking straight in his eyes,the words were as if she was telling this to him.For once the mask which was at the verge of sliping,slipped and the shivaay which was hiden behind that facade came,came into the view but for a few seconda though.but the mind had it's own game,seeing her he went back into the past and realized what she did,she was a gold digger and nothing much,he shouldn't be affected by her,this is also a facade he thought and the mask came,making annika hitched her breathe as she continue to sing.

Your heart fits like a key
Into the lock on the wall
I turn it over, I turn it over
But I can't escape
I turn it over, I turn it over

She turned her eyesballs away from his hard accusing gaze and sang with eyes shut close as trying hard not to let the tears spill.He had one more glass and he thinks this was not enough,the bartender had saw the erxchange of these two person and thought that they know each other.Trying to clear his confusion he asked"Do you know her?"he asked filling the glass with the wine"More than herself"he replied looking at her while his heart screamed'No you don't know her shivaay,you never did"and gulped down the content in one go."Maybe I din't"he replied after a pause as her eyes met his once again.The man didn't said much more as he could see the vulnebrulity in his voice.

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell

annika sang the lines and with each word her voice staretd to crack but she didn't let it happen,As she said the lasst line the tears finally made it's way to her cheeks making her weak.Shivaay didn't did anything but took the whole botttle and stated having it.The man tried to stop him but who had the guts to stop Shivaay Singh Oberoi? he just slamped the rupees bundle on the counter making the man to stop protesting.As the song ended everyone clapped as annika smiled, a sad one though while shivaay made his way out of the restaurant having the bottle close to his mouth.He doidn't know what ihe was feeling?Does he should talk to her and ask her why she did all this or she is still acting?just to make him fall weak as she know he doesn't like tears in her eyes

yes it feels like hell,that he loved her this much but got nothing in return else he lost her.he tried very much but this liqiour had taken a toll over his being making him stumble as he walks on the road.He really wanted to go to her and embrace her promising not to leave her ever.But he can't ,how could he?how could h love this women who had tried to distanced him from his family?"Do you even think that your annika can do it?"his heart asked and he just throw the bottle on the road making hit crash into zillion pieces as everytime he got confused in this situation,he dodn't know what to do?Should he listen to his heart or to his mind?Aarrgghhh!he groan out loud holding his hair trying to gain some courage.When a stone come in his way and was going to fall,to feel the ground but nothing came in return,else a fimiliar hand was was helping him to stood straight.

The Shaphire red blood shot eyes met equally red cocoa honey orbs and everything went out of the window,everythin!every hatred,every accusaton and what was left was only Love,pure Love.

"Shivaay ye aap kya kar rahe hai?Koi aise hi road par chalta hai?Agar appko kuch ho gaya toh?"she asked worriedly as she saw him smiling at her.

"Toh kya hua mar jaata bas"he slurred out as she took his weight over herself and moved to the corner making them comfortable on the bench.

"Par marr ke bhi kya karta? Main toh marr hi gaya hoon bas jo raha hai wo hai Shivaay Singh Oberoi"he said as he ended it with a giggle,annika looked at him with tears brimming in her eyes.

"Aap ne abhut pee li hai so rukhiye main Om ko call kar ke bula deti hoon aap ko wo lene aa jayega"she said not giving any response to him blaberring.

"Kyu hamesh mujhe apne aapse door kar chahti ho annika?Kya main itna kharaab hoon?"he asked as she could sense the hurt in his orbs as tears spill out of it.

"tumhe pata hai main hamesha sochta rehta hoon ki tum itni acchi actor kaise ban gayi?itni accchi acting ki main samajh hi nahi paaya ki wo sabh jhoot tha"he said as he leaned over her while she kept her hand over his shoulder keeping him steady,she was shocked that he knew she was acting but how could he?Maybe the liqiour had made him say all this.

"Wo sabh sach tha"she replied not looking in his eyes,he held her chin with his palm and made him look at him

"Wahi toh wo sab ek naatak tha jo ke maine sach samajh liya"he said as a matter of fact.

"Q ki main ek number ka paagal hoon,natak ko sach maan liya maine"he said as he slapped himself "Main paagal hoon"saying so he again slapped himslef giggling,Annika just couldn't take it anymore,she held his hand and nodded her head negatively "Ye aisa q kar rahe hai aap shivaay please aisa mat kariye"she said as more tears spill out of her eyes.

"Wo sabh sach tha shivaay,q nhi maan lete aap"she said helplessly"haan Shivaay Singh Oberoi maanta hai,main nahi,tumhara shivaay nahi maanta annika?Kya karo main?Tum hi batao?"he said and took her into a tight hug."Kiase maan lun ye sabh?"

"Kaise?'he contiue to say this words while annika roam her hand in his hair,she felt heaven after being in his arms after a long time,but she know this is just for now as when he will be sober he will hate her,hate her the most.She clutch on his coat as she feared to let him go."Tumne aise q kiya annika?"he whispered and passed out.Annik could feel the hot breath and realize that he went unconcious,she took him out of the embrace and kissed his forehead tenderly while letting ehr lips linger there for a few seconds and wipe off his tears,rubbign her palm all over his face,when he half opened his eyes"Please come back annika"

Annika waited there for Om to come to them and take him as he leaned over her while she was hugging him.

"Bhabhi shivaay ko kya hua?"Om askjed as he came"he's being drunk and nothing much"she said softly while swaying her fingers in his hair and smiled softly"You take him home as he needs rest"she said as Om took the weight on himslef with a pity lok."Please tell everything to Sihivaay and come back bhabhi,we all need you and specially Shivaay"he said with tear filled eyes but she gave a curt negative approval"You know Om I can't do this"she sigh.

"So you will continue to have his hatred?"he asked looking straight in her eyes"If his hatred for me is keeping him happy than I can do this a million time without battling an eyelid"she said as took shivaay hand and gripped it tightly looked lovingly at their hand.

Om just smiled with tearful eye"Take care of yourself Bhabhi,Rudra had made a plan to come tonight at your place for stay over with Saumya"he said she smiled"yeah why not it will be great"she said wipping off her tears.

"Okay I think we should go"she replied with a smile as Om stood up as they helped him to the car ,as annika moved tried to move shivaay had already gripped her hands tightly making her stop,Om loooked helplessly at this "Please Bhabhi"

"I'm sorry Om,she said and took her hand away from his grip and kissed his forehead once again"Take care of your self shivaay"she said against his skin and moved out.Om hugged her tight as she too reciprocated it.

"We miss you Bhabhi"he said being in the hug"Me too"she said as she came out of the hug and smiled at him.

"take care"he said cuping her face while she just nodded and stood there as she saw Om going behind the wheel and with a small yet sad smile moved out from there while she stood there seeing Shivaay going away from her once again,unable to control herself she cried her heat out,sitting on her knee,cursing her faith for being so cruel to her.

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Hello Everyone again back with an on track Os,Well this Idea came when I was listening to this song,A heartfelt song! Just in love with this.and I felt that this song really suits their situation.Doesn't it? So here is the result and I hope you all like it althought it isn't a happy one,but still.

Do tell me how was it.

With Love,
-Anya <3