*Trigger Warning ⚠️ Please do not read if you have a history of self-harm, No I'm not condoning it with this chapter, but you have been warned.....*

Waverly POV

Finally he's gone.....

.................?

But now what? I just sit here and think about actually having a relationship with my brothers? We cant....that couldn't and wouldn't ever work. They are my family, what if things dont work out and things end badly? They are my brothers and when mom is gone they will be the only family I have. I'm not gonna lie, that night was amazing.

Feeling their hands on my body, their lips on mine. I could never regret that night, but that isnt the point. the point is that this is wrong and could never work out. Right?

Ugh......I dont know anymore. Could it work?........No of course not......Maybe?........No!!!!.......Ugh!!!!!!!!

(3 hours later)

Could this possibly in some way make me forget? This is what I deserve right? I mean it helped me before they found out, it could help me again.

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No One POV

Waverly stands looking at herself in the mirror.  Tears role down her warm cheek softly and she falls to the floor, not knowing what is best to do. She opens her far left cabinet and grabs out one of her razors. She thinks repeatedly to herself she deserves this, she hurt them and what she wants will only hurt them more.

She closes her eyes as more tears begin to fall, small sobs break from her voice as she hears someone jiggle the knob on her bathroom door. She hears Jacob knock on the door, and her sobs turn into screams and she slides the razor over her scarred skin in linear motions, again and again. His knocks turn to bangs as her screams become mix with cry of pure agony. She throws the razor at the door blood now running from her wounds, her tears burning with agony as her body becomes numb to any feeling at all. This is what she wanted she wanted to feel nothing, to be nothing and for the first time in a long time she finally got to feel it again.

Jacob busts through the door breaking the hinge. She cant look at him, he yells her name over and again unable to control his anger. He grabs her by her arms shaking her as he continues to yell at her. She cant bring herself respond all she can do is cry with cold grey eyes staring into his reddened face and darken eyes. As the blood runs done her skin, she blinks only to see Jacob in front of her and Robin panting heavily behind him pacing.

Waverly stares blankly at them, she cant even speak. Her entire body has becomes cold and lacks any movement whatsoever. She makes an attempt to say something but no words come out as if something is holding her back. She watches her youngest brother pace the bathroom back and forth as her brother yells for her to listen to him.

All she heard is blank ringing in her ears as the scene in front of her unfolds. Tears continue to role freshly from her dewed skin. Beads of sweat gather above her brow as her body begins to shake. She is longer in control of her own movements, her body spasms again and again in her brother's arms.

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Jacob POV

"Is this really all your going to give me?!?? A blank fucking stare, like you can't even hear me right now!!! Waverly I swear as god is my fucking witness, you better fucking speak....!!!!"

I can't fucking believe this, she asked me for space I gave her space and this is what I get? What am I going to fucking do? This shit can't start again, I won't let it start again. I look and her and feel my hands begin to move. "Waverly?.....Calm down.....Waverly please calm down!!!" I say in distress.

I don't know what to do. She has never done this before. Is this a panic attack? If she keeps spazzing like this she could get hurt. Maybe if I move her to her bed she will relax more. I pick her up and take her to her bed laying he done on her back, this doesn't calm her anymore then before. "Fuck. Robin go to our room and get my phone, if this gets any worse I'm gonna need you to call 911."

How am I supposed to calm her the fuck down? I watch Robin leave and I look back at her. I see her eyes rolling in the back of her head, I need to do something. I lean down and kiss her. It doesn't do much at first but I do it again holding her face still with my hands. I smile at her response to my touch, and continue the kiss watching her body slowly calm down.

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No One POV

Robin walks in, in the middle of their (let's face it) make our session and immediately stiffens. He clears his throat, lowering his head slightly to gather his brothers attention. On his way to get the the phone he gathered the supplies to bandage Waverly up as well.

He gives the gauss and tape, as well as Jacob's phone to Jacob and sit in a chair in the corner of the room by the door. Jacob's expression changes drastically seeing how what his brother just saw had effected him.  Jacob tries to explain but Robin shoots it down and sits quietly patiently for Waverly to regain effective able consciousness.

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Waverly POV

I see them both looking at eachother and than back at me. I don't know what to say to them, we all just look at eachother for what felt like an eternity, but in reality was only a couple of minutes. I lowered my head is disgrace. "I'm......I....I'm sorry...", that is literally all I can say......

I can see the rage blistering off Jacob but I can't blame him. I would be mad to if the only sister had locked herself in a bathroom and damaged herself just because she had to make a choice. "Im a terrible sister, I......I know this already so please don't remind me...." 

Jacob opened his mouth to speak but I stoped him before he could say anything. "......I love you both and you will always have a place in my heart, I just don't know if I can live with myself knowing I could ruin the great relationship we already have."

They both lowered their heads at my words, they already knew exactly what I meant. And I can already tell that what I've said has hurt them. Jacob nods, but Robin just sits. I can see the tears falling from his eyes as they land on his dark blue jeans.  I feel so bad for putting them through this but what else can I do?

I cant do anything to change our blood, I can't do anything to change the fact that I grew up with these two boys......I wish I could let them love me but I just can't for all of our own good....

This is.....this is the right thing to do...for all of us....

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Hey guys I'm so so so so sorry for the late post, I've just had so much writers block, I actually don't like the chapter that much....It doesn't feel complete to me but, this is what I came up with so here you go. Hope you guys like it, it's taken me so long to come create.........Happy Easter!!!!!!🐰🐰🐰