Here's the thing:

I know who my friends are, but I can't tell if I'm their friend. 

Like, I have no idea whether or not I'm just someone they know, their acquaintance, friend, or best friend, etc. 

I know this should be something that shouldn't be hard, but I just can't tell. 

This video explains how what it's like for me:

https://youtu.be/qf56LYWgXNk