His heart fell to his knees seeing the text light up to his face, his vision blurry from tears already as he laid under his plush pink comforter, his neck pressed against the white bedframe.

"What the fuck did you say, Tucker?"

Well, crap. He found out. Rin spoke out and Pheniox knows now and he's gonna be angry--but again when is he isn't? It's always like this. This cycle never ends and..he just wished Rin listened to him once.

He settled the phone down and put it on his bedstand, letting the song play again as he balled up in the position he was in.

"I've learned to slam on the break,
Before I even turn the key-
Before I make the mistake
Before I leave with the worst of me."

Paethic.
Useless.
Why don't you just fucking kill yourself? Holy shit, all you're doing is taking up space and a lot of it!
I wonder how many lunches this kid already stole from everyone else today, hah!
Whale
Pig
Why are you crying? For fucking pity? No one cares!
I bet you that Rin kid just feels bad for him..I mean, who could fuck a cow like that?

"When you're falling in a forest,
And there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash?
Or even make a sound?
Did I even make a sound?"

He shouldn't of been crying this much. Everything was over, he should've moved on, everyone already forgot his name at school. When he gets back in a week, though...it's all gonna return.

It was so silly- so dumb. He was praying to a god that's probably too busy to deal with his issues, but his Ma always told him alongside with Mommy he should always hand his issues to him. Tell him what's the matter and you'll feel everything get lifted.

Well, he's been praying. He's been begging and praying and nothing's changed. He's still ugly, he's still...gross. He'll always be that way, though. He doesn't even understand why his boyfriend wants to even touch such a disgusting creature like him.

"On the outside always looking in
Well I
Ever be more then I've always been?
Cuz I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
Waving through a window!"

His phone lite up again, but the buzzing and ringtone of the old One Direction song still ran over and over m, the buzzing not going away.

He finaally wiped his eyes and tried his best to hold back his choking, his shaking hand picking up the phone to see the phone's screen lighting up.

Pheniox

He swiped to the right to answer, stopping the music from blaring from his speakers.

"Fucker, what the hell did you say?"
"I d-didn't tell Krys anything!" He spoke, his voice not going past a whisper tone.

"Well, you're obviously fucking lying because she's pissed at me for just joking with you!"

LT bit his lip, his body vibrating now and tears pricking the edges of his eyes.

"Well, aren't you gonna fucking speak, you pointless bag of lard?"

"I-I told Ri-"
"Exactly! You told your faggot boyfriend and he whined to my girlfriend."

LT wasn't angry anymore.
He was furious.

"Okay, f-fucking really? Did you just call my boyfriend a damn faggot? You're the person who took their time to print out a picture and tape it to my fucking locker! Rin is a better person then you'll ever be!"

"Look who's saying tthis--the one who's been 300 pounds since the eighth grade and the one who fucking sobbed over that picture! Jesus god damn christ, why don't you like, just do what I've been saying? Take a bullet to your fucking head!"

LT took in a heavy breathe and wiped his eyes, taking the phone from his ear and clicking the end button, placing the phone down.

He curled back up and just bawled. The silence killed his spirits beyond belief but he let it hang.

He sunk in what he said. He thought of the vile food that slouched around in his gut from Rin making sure he ate. He thought about how the fat and calories spread to his body, expanding his frame more then it is.

Rin

God, he wanted to hear his voice. He wanted him to kiss his chest and tummy and praise him and wipe away his tears, telling him he was his one and only baby boy. He wanted to cup his face and smash his lips on his own, feeling the taste of Mountain Dew and slight cigarette meander in his mouth.

He picked his phone back up, clicking on a heartwarming contact.

"Babydoll ❤❤❤"

He then texted it, quickly turning the phone screen off, holding his breath.