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Felix walked down the hall with his hands behind his back after leaving you sleeping in his mother's room.

Through the window he can see the crowd of drunk teenagers in his back yard, he sighed feeling his social battery drain instantly, after all he only threw this party so you and Adrien could have a normal couple time but it only made him lose his hopes on you two.

Annoyed he watched Adrien with his head down outside talking to Marinette and Nino.

You just can't disobey, can you cousin?

This was all his uncle's fault, Felix couldn't stand to see him controlling people's lives like that. Even you were being hurt now.

I would like to do more for you (Y/n)

I can't stand to see you sad.

You stubborn little troublemaker...

Felix remembers the kiss you started earlier, his heart races and he is entranced remembering how it felt to have your body so close to his before the voice of reason spoke in his mind.

Damn, not this way Felix....

He shook his head to dispel the forbidden thoughts and his gaze roamed the garden until he found Kagami's lone figure staring at Adrien adoringly as if he were an unreachable and endearing object. It was like looking at the stars

He blinked in surprise, he knew that look.

He chuckled and went down to the ground floor in the back yard going to Kagami and leaning against the wall next to her.

"Came here for another rematch?" She said looking away from Adrien while Felix shrugged keeping his eyes on his cousin with a smug little smile.

"Another time maybe, I just wanted to give you some good news, well... Maybe it's good for just the two of us."

"What could it be?" Kagami asked curiously.

"Adrien just broke up with (Y/n). It's really a shame, isn't it?" Kagami put a hand over her mouth trying to process the news and looked back towards Adrien understanding now why his gaze was distant and how hard he seemed to struggle to smile.

"I don't understand, he didn't tell me anything." She glared at Felix suddenly angry. "What did (Y/n) do this time-" He glared the same way.

"She has nothing to do with it. He was the one who gave up on her. Just 'cause he can't disobey any orders his father tells him to do." Felix looked away in frustration. Kagami looked back at Adrien wondering how she could handle this.

"You must now be thinking about how to resolve this, because he's your friend and you want to see him happy, but believe me, it's better to let things resolve themselves." Felix advised looking now at his mother's bedroom window where you slept.

"If it wasn't for you they wouldn't have reconciled before, why don't you want to help now?" She asked blankly.

" 'Cause no one is being blackmailed this time. What could I do? Kill my uncle?" Felix smiled at the idea. Kagami lowered his head feeling sorry for both of them.

"Look on the bright side, now you're free to make a move." Felix grinned in amusement.

"Speak for yourself, are you not ashamed or aware of the situation? They must be devastated." She crossed her arms. Felix shrugged in mock innocence.

"Relax, I'm just kidding. Are you always so serious?" Kagami just ignores him and unconsciously rubs her ring thinking of a natural way to comfort Adrien.

"Nice ring, family heirloom?" Felix asks genuinely curious waking her from her thoughts. They both spent a long time talking until he decided to end the party. Everyone was already starting to make too much mess and it was getting late.

Felix showed everyone the way out, when he thought that there was no one else besides the waiters and servants cleaning up the mess of the party, he heard a familiar voice calling him.

"It seems like you just don't know how to end a party properly, but it was kind of fun." Lila smiles at the blonde as he turns to her.

He just gestures to the door in response.

"I couldn't help but overhear your conversation with Kagami... It's a shame they broke up, isn't it?" She continues.

"You need a life Lila, so you're not snooping around." Felix rolls his eyes. She just keeps talking as if she hadn't heard him.

"It's your chance to get everything you want most... Together we can achieve anything." The blonde couldn't help but laugh in response.

"This chat again? You're so desperate, I even feel sorry for you. I already told you that we don't look alike, we have nothing in common, you don't know me. You just want to use me to harm (Y/n). Get the fuck out." Felix points to the door.

"I haven't been interested in your precious little thing for a long time. I just want some things your uncle has in his possession. We can share it." Lila whispered and smiled confidently at his change in posture when she talks about his uncle.

Felix quickly dismisses the people he's hired until he's sure he's alone with Lila.

"What are you planning?" He pretended to be interested to find out at once.

"A move to steal his magic jewels. I'll tell you everything if you're my partner. Deal?" She curved her lips as she held her hand out to the blonde.

He looked at her hand and then back at her with a sneer.

"Why would I join you? I can do everything myself if I wanted to." He questioned mockingly.

"Because you need someone to take the blame and not let your precious little thing down. I can see in your eyes how much you want to get this over with it so that she and your cousin are free..." Her words made Felix think for the first time and your words came soon after in his mind.

"You're not going to make me any better by playing cupid or whatever!"

Trust me just this once, (Y/n).

Felix looks at Lila's hand again after thinking about all the possibilities in less than seconds.

"Deal." He squeezes her hand.

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Bright daylight slammed into your closed eyelids as you slowly woke up to a terrific headache.

"Isn't she adorable..." You startled when you heard a familiar female voice whisper and opened your eyes quickly as you sat up in bed.

Then you saw Amelie right next to the bed making you pull away in surprise.

"Sorry, didn't mean to wake you up, I usually talk to myself." She giggled shyly and continued talking without you being able to answer.

"As you've grown up, Felix has been a lot more open since we moved here, I would never have imagined him asking me to throw a party, now I can understand the sudden change." She smirked. Your cheeks immediately burned as she spoke the name him, flashbacks of last night's memories flashed through his mind.

Oh my...

What have I done?

Shit

You covered your face with your hands, lowering your head feeling pitiful...

But as the details of that kiss filled your memories you didn't just feel ashamed, your stomach fluttered strangely, like butterflies but it wasn't like that. Guilt maybe?

You shook your head, not understanding how one person could feel so many things in such a short amount of time.

I'm so mess up now

"It must have been a fun party, I'll let you get ready. Felix and I'll wait for you downstairs for breakfast." Amelie leaves the room leaving you alone with some new clothes and your mind confused.

After you've taken a quick shower trying to wash off last night's embarrassments. You went downstairs not feeling very well, the maid guided you to the kitchen where there was a delicious smell but you didn't feel like eating anything.

As soon as you entered, you saw Amelie making pancakes and Felix was sitting at the kitchen island, you sat in front of him without having the courage to look him in the eye.

"Good morning party queen. Did you sleep well?" Felix's tone made you picture his smirk in your mind. No use running away by looking away.

"I'm really sorry about yesterday Felix, I didn't know what I was doing-" You started to apologize but he cut you off.

"I know (Y/n), no need to apologize, I didn't think I was going to have so much fun at this party. You're really funny drunk." He smiled, looking sideways thoughtfully, probably thinking of some embarrassing thing you've done. You wanted to bury your head in a hole, even his comforting words couldn't make that weird feeling go away.

Yesterday you were drunk but you knew what you were doing. You got really jealous of Kagami, you kissed Felix on purpose because you wanted to and you liked it, the drink just gave you the push you needed to do what you wanted.

You didn't understand if this was an impulse to kill the pain of your recent breakup or if you really don't see Felix as just a friend anymore.

But even though you did that, the pain was still very evident in your chest.

Your mind was a mess, the smell of pancakes was perfect but you didn't feel like eating at all, it wasn't just your stomach anymore, it was spreading throughout your body that strange feeling again.

While Amelie served the pancakes talking about something when she was a teenager. You were controlling yourself so they wouldn't notice your uneasiness because you were sure you were about to have an anxiety attack, your hands were shaking under the table and it was like you couldn't breathe right.

Not that now...

"Pardon me, I can't stay longer." You didn't give them time to respond and ran out of the kitchen, you went down the hall and entered the first room you saw and locked yourself. You sat with your back to the door to try to calm your heartbeat by taking a deep breath.

But when you realized this was the same room Adrien had dumped you in yesterday, it didn't help much, you fell apart.

You couldn't even control your sobs from crying. And you even threw up yesterday's drink in a bucket over there. At that point you didn't care anymore, you just wanted to cry in peace. Lucky for you, it's impossible for Hawk Moth to akumatize you.

"(Y/n)?! What happened? Are you okay?" You heard Felix's worried voice from the other side of the door.

"Please y-you don't have to see me like this. I-I want t-to be alone now..." Your voice cracked.

There was no response other than a helpless sigh and a rattling at the door.

"If I can do anything to make you feel better, please let me know. We've always had this weird rivalry friendship but I really care about you a lot. You don't always have to be strong around me, I already know you are. We're teenagers. It's hard to control some feelings... It really sucks."

Even crying you managed to smile weakly.

"You always do so much for me Felix. You always manage to see everything so clearly. I feel like I only bring you trouble. I haven't done anything for you. I'm a terrible friend." You heard a muffled chuckle from the other side of the door.

"Seriously (Y/n), what are you talking about? I'm surprised that you still my friend. Unlike friendly people, as my cousin, I don't do much of being liked by people, I don't care about anyone, I always get bored, I almost went crazy with this party. But you make me less numb. Your friendship has done a lot for me in the past... it must be why you're the only person I care. Can't you see? It can be troublesome to be friends with a bad guy." Listening to Felix talk made your anxiety symptoms go away without you even realizing it.

"Oh silly you're not a bad person. You're just the coolest person I know." You smiled shyly. Glad he's no able to see your flushed face.

"Good word choice, but I'm still a bad influence on you... Kisser Girl." He chuckled.

"Felix! Pleaseeee don't remind me of that! Forget what I said, you're really bad!" You had already kissed him before so why were you embarrassed this time?

"Ok sorry sorry, just kidding."

You still don't understand your feelings but after talking with him you realized that it's okay not to understand anything now. Your heart would guide you at the right time.

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At night you were in your room staring at the heart locket with the picture of you and Chat Noir. Wiping the tears that fall.

You looked at the closed sliding door that led to your balcony and sighed sadly imagining all the happy memories you had with a fun black cat.

Suddenly you heard a noise and a silhouette on your balcony.

"Chat Noir?!" You jumped out of bed and ran until you opened the sliding door but there was no one there except a cold breeze that hit your face and your heart too.

You closed the door and put the locket inside the drawer and went to sleep in the guest room where Luppus stayed.

Outside:

Chat Noir's Pov:

How can I explain to her if even I can't understand?

Why can't I disobey my father?

I need to at least try. As soon as I land on her balcony, I hear her call to me but I instinctively hide on the roof above.

I see her from up here, she look around and look disappointed.

I need to talk to her.

Adrien... Do not do it.

My father's voice keeps repeating in my head, I can't do it.

She walks back into the room making me lose sight of her.

I hope you can forgive me one day (Y/n)

"I'm still loving you so much..." Chat Noir let the words escape in a whisper on the cold wind.