It had taken me only a day to find a new house to move into, a few movers to move my shit, and a quick call to the schools and daycare, banning Casper from picking the kids up for any reason.

A day.

It took me a day to move into the new house and have to kids clueless to what was happening.

My parents were staying with me until things calmed down, helping me out... and I appreciated them for that.

It gave me time to think having them help.

My kids were a tad clueless, not expecting Casper home for another month. A month to make an excuse or write him out of the picture.

At that moment, my kids were asleep and I was on the couch, watching the news.

Then, I saw the video.

It was me and Casper's fight, me crying my ass off and him barely able to get a word in.

It was the video of him cheating.

It was a mess.

Of course, my guesses on their questions were right.

I expected nothing but...

Well...

They got to my editor. He seemed reluctant to say anything, but if they had tracked me down that far...

"Uh, yeah, I know him. We talk from time to time, why?"

So they hadn't figured out my job. I guess Ethan visiting was just us being friends, thank fucking god.

"Is it true, he can get pregnant?"

Ethan looked uncomfortable, and sighed, "fine, yes. I didn't know until his second kid. When I met him, he had one already."

"Do you know who the parent is?"

"Casper. It's always been Casper. I thought he was a good guy, but apparently he's just an asshole."

They got to Jeremy.

"We only we're told after he got pregnant with his second kid. I didn't even know Casper was the parent until the third. Apparently they wanted a relationship, but were scared about it. Then Gavin told us and well, I wish he and Casper never got together. Casper's an asshole to hurt Gavin."

They got to Issac.

"Do you know how in love Gavin was? Enough to hide his feelings for over ten years! I thought it was a misunderstanding and told Casper where Gavin was and I fucking regret it. It hurts to see him like he was. Gavin has always put others before himself... Casper can go fuck himself.

They got Tyler and Tina, who were well ready to crap on Casper.

"I have been by Gavin's side since he got pregnant! I watched his kid for him and hell! Tina and I were both in the delivery room when he gave birth to his first two kids. Seeing Casper go and throw all the love Gavin had for him down the drain pisses me the fuck off! I didn't try and help him just for Casper to be a dick! Gavin had dreams too! He wanted to sing and act and change the world, but because of Casper he's hidden himself away where he knows a fucking handful of people. So screw Casper."

"Amen," Tina hummed in agreement.

Icing on the cake, they even talked to his mom who looked so pissed.

"My own son... hurting Gavin like that? That man is the best god damn thing that ever happened in his life, and I'm more willing to stand by Gavin's side than Casper's."

I felt... happy knowing I had support.

But my secret was out.

So, why not respond on twitter.

"Hey guys... it's been... a week. I'm... I'm definitely not okay, but I'll get better. Even though I'm pissed and upset and angry and just, a mess, please don't take this out on him. I still love that idiot and don't want to see my own fears come to fucking life, where he regrets every affection towards me because I ruined his dream. And if you've been keeping with the news, yeah, I can give birth. A rare portion of the male population can do it and I'm one of the unlucky few. I love my kids and honestly, right now, that's all i want to think about. I'm probably going to be posting less on here, so I'm sorry. I'd post drafts of videos I have.... but it's too fucking painful. So yeah, I'm sorry guys." I uploaded it immediately, and just laid on my couch, looking at the news as they talk more about the whole thing.

Apparently the girl he was with, was a model who had frequently visited him. She just said she didn't know he was taken since she wasn't on social media. And she wasn't. She really disliked it.

Couldn't blame her, it was shit at times.

She was mad for my sake though, which was reassuring. It seemed that most people were on my side

I was... still coping.

I had trusted him with my heart and... I was an idiot for expecting anything.

It was my fault.

The signs were all there.

I needed a drink, but I couldn't have one. Especially if Heather woke up.

I cringed, realizing I cursed my second child with Casper's name, and forever, Heather would have his last name... or until I could legally change it myself.

My mind wandered back to twitter again. I was swarmed with kind comments and all of that made my heart melt. Then someone sent me a link.

I clicked it, getting directed to a video. It was a video Casper made.

I glared but watched it.

"I know everyone is mad at me. Fuck, I'm mad at myself for hurting Gavin. I know he'll never forgive me, even if it's all some stupid fucking misunderstanding. I can't blame him though." Casper sighed. "The video? That was from a couple years ago. It was after Gavin told me point blank we couldn't be together. I wanted to find someone, Get mind off things and I had a very brief relationship with a model. It didn't last long, but she did keep coming to visit me."

He sighed again.

"No one will believe me though. And I doubt anyone else will. So, I'll just say, I'm sorry. To my friends and to Gavin. I don't expect they'll forgive me, so... yeah. It's my fault. He's done so much for me and what do I do? I'm a massive dick. Just... I know he won't talk to me, probably find a way to write me out and I deserve it. I know I fucking deserve it."

I saw genuine sadness glint in his eyes, it made my heart clench.

"I'm sorry. I'm going to be off social media for awhile, so feel free to insult me all you want, goodbye."

Life just sucked, didn't it?