Carter's POV Two Days Later

Me and Michael stepped off the last step of the staircase and onto the airport tarmac. We just got off of the flight coming back from Paris and I can honestly say, it feels good to be home.

We walked through the terminal into the airport. There were a bunch of fans waiting and also a bunch of paparazzi. I inwardly groaned at the thought of them seeing us. We just got off of a 12 hour flight and I had jet lag like a bitch so needless to say, I didn't feel like being bothered.

Michael spoke to one of the security guards about where the car was. I stood by his side, holding his hand with one hand and the other hand wrapped around his arm.

He finished speaking to the guard and looked down at me. "Comfortable?" He asked.

"Shut up," I groaned in annoyance.

He laughed at my attitude and tightened his hold on my hand. "What's wrong?"

"I'm just tired and ready to get home," I replied.

He leaned down and kissed my forehead. "We're on our way baby. Just give me a minute."

I nodded and just gazed around the airport. I saw an old couple greet a younger man, who must be their son, who was dressed in an army uniform. The older lady grabbed him and kissed his face probably a hundred times, making him laugh loudly. I smiled at the sight.

I turned to my left and saw a woman who looked to be around my age and a little boy. A young man walked through the terminal that they were standing in front of and the little boy ran up to him shouting, "Daddy! Daddy!" He chuckled and bent down, picking him up and swinging him. The young woman walked up to them and the man pulled her into a group hug.

The sight made me tear up. I missed our little girl that we lost. I had barely thought of her over the past couple of weeks but seeing that little family made me start to long for a baby. I took a deep breath, willing myself not to cry.

"Carter? Carter?" I heard Michael call my name, making me break my day dreaming and look at him.

"You didn't hear me talking to you?"

"No. Sorry Applehead. I was...just thinking. What'd you say?" I said.

"I said that the SUV is out front and we can go now. You sure you ok?" He raised an eyebrow at me.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I nodded. "Come on, let's go."

He looked at me again and reluctantly pulled me along with him towards the front door. We walked past where the fans and paparazzi were, causing them to start screaming.

"Michael, Carter, did you guys enjoy your vacation?!"

"Carter, look right over here!"

"Michael, when's the next album coming?!"

Michael waved at the fans, causing them to get even louder. We finally made it out of the front door and into the SUV. Our driver immediately sped off and we started off towards Neverland.

"I'm going to sleep as soon as we get home. I missed our bed," I said, turning to him.

"Mmm I did too baby girl," he smiled at me.

After about a 20 minute drive, we finally pulled into the gates of Neverland. The driver parked in front of the main house and I immediately hopped out, stretching my arms.

"Why don't you go ahead and go to bed babe?" Michael suggested as he walked around the car to me.

"Don't you need help with the bags?"

"No. Go ahead. I know you're tired."

I smiled and touched his cheek with my hand. "Thank you Applehead. You gonna come join me later?"

"Of course," he leaned down and kissed my lips softly. "Now, go." He kissed me one last time and playfully hit my ass.

I yelped in surprise, making him laugh loudly. I playfully rolled my eyes and walked inside the house. I climbed the stairs and walked into Michael's room. I kicked off my shoes and jumped into the bed. I pulled the covers over me and drifted off to sleep.

Two Hours Later

When I woke up, the sun was shining brightly through the curtains. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 8:14am. I looked over and Michael was awake, looking right back at me.

"Morning sleeping beauty," he said.

"Mmm, morning," I giggled. I took a deep breath and let it out again. "How long was I out?"

"Like two hours. Nothing major."

"And you've been watching me sleep?"

He chuckled and grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers. "Yep I have, for the past 20 minutes."

I laughed and scooted closer to him. He smiled and wrapped his arm around my waist.

"Carter, I wanted to talk to you about something," he said.

"What'd I do?"

"What do you mean?"

"You called me Carter," I explained. "You never say my actual name."

"I just wanna talk to you about that moment you had at the airport. When you were thinking about something but wouldn't tell me what it was."

"Michael, that was nothing. I was just bored and I zoned out."

"You know, its insulting that you think I don't know you better than that," he gave me a pointed look.

"What are you talking about?"

"I know you saw that little family that was at the airport, and I know what started to cross your mind."

I sighed and shook my head. I should know that Michael knows me too well.

"Baby, why couldn't you just tell me that you were thinking about the baby? I would've understood."

"Michael," I began. "I just....I feel like I should be past this by now. I hate feeling so weak and helpless too, you know that."

"Carter, we lost our daughter two months ago. Stop pushing yourself so much. We lost a baby, our child that we created together. Honestly, its probably never gonna get any easier but that's something that you have to come to terms with.

You need to stop holding things back from me, too. I'm your fiancée now. We're going to spend the rest of our lives together and I need to know that you trust me."

"Applehead, I do trust you. I've never been the best at expressing myself, though."

"I know baby but can you work on it please? For me?" He tilted his head to the side.

I laughed quietly and nodded my head. "Yeah. I'm sorry Michael."

"Its ok baby," he leaned in and kissed me softly. I smiled and relaxed into his arms.

"I love this feeling." I said.

"What feeling?"

"Being here, in your arms. I feel........safe."

"Well, good," he kissed my forehead. "Because its my job to keep you safe and I'm going to do that."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

I know its been awhile since I updated but a lot has been happening with me personally so I've been going crazy.

Also, I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to start setting goals for the number of comments and votes for a new update. This story has been lacking in votes lately, which sucks, so I think this is the best thing to do.

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