Just skip the chapter if you don't like this stuff. Don't hate.

I decided to be a nice person and upload all 3 of my stories today, because I'll be in Myrtle beach for my softball team for spring break, so I won't be on this account at all, or even on the app, for a good week or so. You're welcome for publishing new chapters, bc I'm procrastinating packing right now lol, I leave tomorrow.

Millie's pov

I wake up, with a smile on my face.

Why would I wake up with a smile on my face, you ask?

Well, I get to see Finn at school. We are making all of our friendships public to the school.

I get dressed by putting on some light washed jeans and a cute pink long-sleeve, and I keep my hair straight.

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I get to school, and I walk inside the school. I go to my locker and open it to grab some books to put in my book bag, and then I felt someone's hands on my waist from behind, and they kissed my cheek.

I smiled, and turned around to face Finn.

"I missed you." He said, and I smiled.

"It hasn't even been that long, you know." I said, and he smiled.

"It's been long enough." He said, tracing his hands down my arms, to reach my hands. We laced them together, and then he connected our lips for a couple seconds, then let go. I smiled at him, then looked around, to see everyone's jaws dropped. I just laughed to myself, then I heard someone running up to me.

"Millie!!" I heard Sadie yell down the hall, running toward me. I smiled at her, and she finally got over to Finn and I.

"Did you guys see what's happening??" She asked, looking really concerned.

"No, what?" I asked her, and she told us to follow her. We walked down the hallway with her, to see everyone surrounded by a billboard, that's pretty big. It's filled with paper after paper, right next to each other. It looks like a bunch of long paragraphs.

"What is it?" I asked her.

"Someone left their journal somewhere and I guess someone pinned all the pages up there. And the stuff in it is like, really bad." She said, over the crowd of talking people. I furrowed my eyebrows.

I lost my journal last week.

I let go of Finns hand and pushed through everyone, to look at the pages.

I got close to it, closer than anyone else was, and I read some of the papers.

Hey, it's me again, I'm back. I got back from a supposedly 'date' with J. It wasn't really a date, it was him, taking advantage of me, like he always does.

It was bad today, I don't even want to write about it, it was that bad.

I want someone to talk to, who gets me. I don't have any friends here, J is my only friend. But now we are dating, and I hate him. You know why I hate him, and what he does to me.

It's brutal.

I used to talk to him about everything, but I can't anymore, because all I want to talk about is the stuff that he's doing to me.

Let's hope I find a friend.

-M

My eyes widen, and my mouth opens a little.

I listen to the voices around me, saying "who's M??" And "there's only like 3 Jacobs in this school!!!". I blink, and I look to my right, and it's Finn, walking up to the bulletin board, next to me.

I take his hand, and pull him out of the circle surrounding the bulletin board, before he can read it.

"Why can't I read it?" He said, looking at me.

"Don't read it." I said, and he looked over to it, then back at me, then nodded.

"Let's just get to class." I said, and he nodded, as he held my hand, and walked with me to language class.

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We walked into language class, and everyone looked at us. Some of them whispered to their friend, and some of them had their jaw dropped.

I sat down, and Finn sat down across from me, and he smiled at me.

"People are taking this news very shockingly." He said, and I smiled.

"Of course they are, we haven't been nice to each other our whole lives." I said, trying not to think about those pages and pages of my secrets hanging up on the bulletin board.

-

It was lunch, and the guys came over and sat with us, and even more people were shocked. They all started whispering and talking, not surprised though.

"We should all hang out this weekend," Sadie said, grabbing her lunchbox.

"And do what?" Gaten said, eating some pudding.

"I don't know, something." Sadie said, and he shrugged his shoulders.

"So have you guys heard about that diary that's up on the bulletin board?" Gaten said, and I looked over to him, cautious about what he's gonna say next. Finn was sitting next to me, and Sadie was to my right.

"Yeah. Who do you think it is?" Noah asked, and I looked at all of them like they were stupid.

"I don't know, but it's obviously a girl, and her name starts with an M." Grace said.

Maddie's name starts with an M. My name starts with an M. There's a lot of girls names that start with an M. They won't guess that it's me.

"I just feel bad, you know? Her secret is out, who even put it on that bulletin board?" Maddie said.

"I'm not sure, one of the seniors. They put it up there because it says that she should go to the office to talk to someone. Like she would actually show up, I wouldn't." Grace said, and I looked down.

"Hey, you okay?" I heard Finn ask me, in a low, soft voice.

"Uh, Yeah. Just tired." I said, and he smiled at me, and wrapped his arm around me.

-

Finns pov

I was walking the halls in study hall, and came across the bulletin board.

Millie told you not to read it, Finn.

Why would she even tell me not to read it? She can't control me.

Well, maybe she can.

But I have to read it.

I walk up to the bulletin board, and start from one of the middle pages.

It's day 352 of dating him, and it's getting worse and worse. I think I'm becoming depressed. I have scars. Well, maybe I already am depressed then. He changed on day 223. That's when he changed.

Today, it was kinda bad, but kinda okay. Not as bad as the other times.

He comes over every day, and it's even worse when my parents aren't home, which is most of the time.

My eyes scanned the rest of that page, then went to another one in the middle.

It's day 324. This is the day I lost my innocence.

To that fucking jerk.

I didn't want to lose my virginity. He forced it. So, you get the point. You know what happened.

I was raped.

I stopped reading that one, and look to one of the first ones.

This is day 21 of my diary logs, I don't know why I just did this, but I did.

I just cut myself.

I don't know why I'm doing this to myself. Do I hate myself? I know I'm ugly, but J just makes it worse on me.

I know what people say, 'no, you're beautiful!!!'

But I'm actually not.

I've only had one boyfriend in my whole life, and he's never told me I look beautiful. He tell me I look hot, or sexy.

Only when I wear what he wants me to wear.

I stop reading that one.

What kind of sick human being would do this to a girl???? In our grade??!!!

I tell Millie she's beautiful all the time, and she smiles every time. She probably doesn't think it's true, but it is.

I read one of the far middle ones.

It's M. I can't do it anymore. I'm thinking about killing myself.

I know that it's a selfish thing to do, but I don't know if I can do it anymore.

The only thing that's getting me through my days anymore is this one guy. Not saying who, Incase someone takes my journal. But his name starts with an F.

We didn't talk that much, but he started talking to me, and now he makes me happy. He's one of the only happy parts of me anymore.

Maybe I'll stick around, if something good happens.

-M.

I stop reading them, when I heard footsteps in the hallway. I turn to my left to see Millie walking down the hallway, and we both look at each other with wide eyes.

Shit. She told me not to read them, and I read them anyway.

"Finn, why are you reading those?" She asked me.

Why does she even care if I read them?

"I was just curious. Why don't you want me to read them? Why are you out here?" I asked her, and she hesitated before telling me her answer.

"I was going to my locker." She said.

"Your locker is two hallways away from this one." I said, and she sighed.

She walked up to me, and looked at me. She looked at the board, and leaned her head on my arm.

"Who do you think it is?" She asked me, looking at the board.

"I'm not sure, but whoever it is, I think she needs to go get help. What kind of guy would do that?" I asked her, and she left my side and faced me.

"I know one who would." She said, talking about Jacob.

"Sorry Millie." I said, and hugged her.

"What he did wasn't right, like it isn't with this girl and her boyfriend." I said, and she nodded.

Millie probably had it worse, even though she didn't tell me most of what happened with her and Jacob. All she's told me is that he raped her once, and that he would just do things. She didn't want to get into further detail about it.

"Did you write about what Jacob did?" I asked her, and she let go of the hug.

"Yeah." She said, not making eye contact with me.

"Uh, I should probably get back to study hall. See you later?" She asked me, and I nodded. She smiled, and walked away, turning the corner. I looked back at the board, and read one more.

I'm at the point where I'm sobbing while writing this. Jacob just left my house, and of course, my parents aren't home.

He kissed me today, but I didn't feel anything, no love, no romance.

He started making out with me, and touching me. I told him to stop, but it just made him angry and he did it even more.

I almost did I today. I almost killed myself. But I stopped, because my parents got home.

Please, someone just help me.

Jesus this chapter was so depressing, sorry if you're sensitive about this stuff, just don't hate. If you want to hate, message me. I'm not in the mood to see hate on my stories.