OHMYGOD!

I knew this was coming.. I just felt it in my gut this morning when the first thing he said he is so looking forward to our date that night. I mean Kevin was making it painstakingly evident that he is gonna do something big but since its my Birthday eve the thought of him popping question came in my mind and I quickly dismissed it... He is not that stupid I thought but turns out he is that stupid. OHMYGOD! I am setting myself for a great embarrassment of life. Why? Why is this idiot proposing! things were going great.. we were having our moments.. great sex but why does he need to take this step.

"Babe.. Are you listening?" he said sipping his wine.

"I'm sorry, I was thinking about something.. what were you saying?"

"I was asking how do you like your steak?"

"It's okay." I replied cutting a little piece to eat. I could literally see his friends trying to hide behind the huge center piece.. If they are trying to be discreet they are doing a poor Job. This was a very badly planned proposal. why?

"Babe.. I keep loosing you.. Are you fine?"Kevin asked taking my hand into his.

"Yes Babe.. I am.. It's just..' before I could say something a waiter came and said," Sir, everything is Ready."

Kevin just thanked the waiter and dismissed him, he stood up from his chair and held his hand to take my hand. I slowly breathed out patted my lips of with the napkin and gave him my hand. He led me into the upper deck of the place which turned out to be this beautiful open roof area decorated with tiny fairy lights.. to say it looked beautiful was doing it injustice.. It looked breathtaking... The slow cool breeze brought me back to reality. Kevin was looking expectantly at me. I smiled at him ,"Kevin...This is beautiful."

"Not as beautiful as you.."

"Cheesy much?" I asked laughing.

"It's true... You look so beautiful in that dress."

I just replied with a smile and quick peck on his cheek dreading where all this flattery is leading too.

Just as cue slow music started playing and Kevin started to twirl me slowly... OHMYGOD! how do I get out of this? I was trying to come up with plans to avoid both of us from what is gonna come.

At the end of the song he twirled me one last time and pulled me close.. "I am gonna ask something, " he said taking my hands into his.

"Kevin.." I tried to stop him.. "shh.." he silenced me.

"My dear Amber! I love you.. the day you walked in to that cafe.. you had my heart. I was done.. and all this time with you was no less than a paradise and I want that for life.. I want you for life.. will you marry me?"

I tried to mask my face but it wasn't enough as I saw the smile from Kevin's face drop.

There was just a pause an undeniable silence...  I swallowed hard. Kevin pulled me close and gave me a feathery kiss on top my head. "It's okay if your answer is no."

But I knew it wasn't okay... "Kevin... I love you... you are a great man sometimes stupid but a really great man. You make me laugh. You make me wanna be around you... but marriage is a very big step and it's just not our destination yet."

Kevin just stood with that kissable face and there was something unexplainable in those eyes.

"There is no need for us to get married right away... we can wait for as long as it takes for you to be ready." He said running his thumbs on the back of my hand.

Never! I am never going to be ready. My heart screamed but all my lips could say was a small... "okay."

"Okay..?" His face lit up like a Christmas tree.

I just nodded my head into a yes.

"Yes..?" He asked again wondering if he is seeing things.

"Yes.." I said and I kissed him this time.

People flooded in from the sides cheering us on as he slipped the ring down my finger.

All his friends who were doing a bad job at hiding came with some balloons and champagne glasses as everyone toasted and celebrated.

The ring that lay on my finger was this beautiful tear drop shaped diamond with small diamonds around it. It was beautiful and very Dreamy.

"Congratulations," Posie my friend came rushing towards me with a hug, "show me the ring" she gushed while taking my hand into hers, "It is so pretty. Good job Kevin," she said while giving him a side hug.

I now saw that it was a group of six people two of his very close friends, his parents, posie and Jim.

Posie was one of my best friends and Jim was her husband.

"Congratulations Amber," Jim said giving me a hug.

I smiled at him as he tried to make some small talk, "Excuse me.." I said to the group.

"I'll just use the restroom and be back." I told Kevin as I took unsteady steps towards the exit from the rooftop.

"I am so happy for you son," I heard Jennifer, Kevin's mom.

OHMYGOD!
I said yes... I am stupid. I am the worlds greatest stupid. I don't want to marry him. Why did I even say yes. I have to get away from here. I can't... I just can't do this...

I said as I rushed towards the exit took a cab back to our place... my phone started ringing after 10 mins.. It took all my determination to not pick up the call. I ran into the house opened my suitcase dumped my clothes in a bag. Took my passport and all the essential documents dumped them in a bag. All this time my phone kept ringing crazily... I pulled out a notepad from the side of my bed table and scribbled a very quick 'I am sorry kevin.. I can't do this..' and placed my beautiful tear dropped ring on that paper.

I had to rush... pretty sure Kevin would be home any moment now. I dragged my 2 bags towards the door and looked around one last time.

When I was on my way to airport.. I called Kevin.. he picked up immediately but didn't say a word.. I knew he must be home by now.. I knew he saw my note.

"I am really sorry... I didn't mean to break your heart like this but marriage is a pretty big deal for me and I can't... I know you said we can get married when I want.. but I am not sure if I would want it at any point of time in my life and when I knew that, it would be really mean for me to give you hope that it going to happen anytime soon or if ever it's going to happen. I am sorry and I am going because I don't see a future for us... you are a great guy kevin.. you deserve all the happiness and I can't give you what you want. I hope one day you'll find it in you to forgive me."

I cut the call as soon as I was done.

"We are here," the driver said looking at my direction, pretty sure listening on to my conversation.

"Thankyou.." I said as I got down while he helped with my suitcases.

I stood in front of the airport and wondered where I wanted to go.. I for sure can't go home.

I walked towards the counter wondering where I should go. As I was  pondering on where I can start over again. I overheard two old people talking about the city Ducvine.

And with that in the mind I was now on the plane that takes me to Ducvine, a city whose name I have never even heard off... breaking off an engagement.. to start a new life... to have a new normal..

And this wasn't a new thing for me... First I ran away from home and then Lucas and Now Kevin.. I should really stop running away from the men in my life.