Chapter 17-

Seconds later Shawn returns with his phone in his hand as he talks to who I'm assuming is Andrew. I give him what feels like the millionth smile this morning and continue to watch Netflix on my laptop, there was a limited number of things we could do on this bus but I wasn't complaining at all. Give me Netflix, something to cuddle and food and you would have an extremely happy girl. I am distracted from my thoughts when Shawn seats himself next to me.
"We're close to the hotel near the venue for today's show but I understand if you're not up to it an I can ring Andrew and we can always re-schedule." He says, his gaze burning holes into the side of my head. I give him a smile, truly grateful for his kindness and the gratification of course makes me throw myself at him with my arms wrapping around his neck and head placed on his chest. After hesitating for a second he wraps his strong arms around my waist making me feel safe and comforted. I giggle to myself at how fast his heart was beating, maybe because of me?
It's cute nonetheless.
"Thank you Shawn, but it's okay. I'm happy to perform." I reply, stepping out of the hug and giving Shawn a smile.
I feel something buzz in my pocket, the object being the phone, and take it out to see who was ringing me.
I feel a lump come back in my throat and as though the air was sucked out of my lungs upon seeing the caller ID.
It's Noah.
I look up at Shawn who has a look on his face that radiates confusion and concern. I tilt my phone towards Shawn so he can see what's going on.
"What do I do?" I ask, my heart beating fast as though I had just finished running a marathon.
"Answer it,"
"What? Are you sure Shawn."
"Answer it but put it on speaker,"

Obeying what Shawn said I swipe across answering the call and immediately put it on speaker remaining silent afraid to talk. I look over to Shawn and his lips are pressed in a thin line and his arms crossed over his chest waiting for something to happen. The line remains silent for a few painful seconds and just as I hesitate to end the call Noah breaks first

"Eva," he says, his voice hoarse as though he'd been crying.

"Noah," I reply in a soft voice sounding almost relieved, what was I doing?! I can't feel sorry for him, right?

"What are we?" He asks, his voice quieter almost a whisper. I could tell that he was struggling to get his words out but I didn't want to forgive him that easily. And I wouldn't let my sarcastic self slip away either...

"I don't know human?" And as soon as I say that I see Shawns hand clamp over his mouth and eyes shut, trying to contain his laughter.

Noah lets out a small chuckle, the one I had always loved. The chuckle I still love, I still love him...

"And I love you too Eva,"

"I said that out loud didn't I?" I glance over to Shawn and see any previous humour on his face has disappeared and had been replaced with another look. One that was unreadable to me.

"Well I heard it so yeah I guess you did,"

"Noah," I say again, at a loss for words.

"Eva, what you said yesterday did you mean it? About me now being your ex?"

"Honestly, I did at the time. Noah why did you do it, cheat on me I mean."

"Eva, honey I didn't!" I can hear the desperation in his voice and I want to believe him, I really do but something still seemed off.

"You were with another girl Noah,"

"And you're currently with another boy,"

"Touché," I simply reply looking over to Shawn, I catch his eye and try to smile at him but he ignores me. I guess someone has gone back to their normal selves.

"Tell me the truth Noah, what were you actually doing last night."

"Okay yes I had a girl over," upon hearing the seven words I feel my heart shatter even more and tears started to roll down my face. Just as I'm about to hang up he carries on talking. "It was someone named Lauren but I was hurt and I didn't know what to do so she just came over and we ordered a pizza and watched a movie,"

"So what we would do, you know as a couple?" I question.

"But that's the difference Eva, she's just a friend. You're so much more."

"I really want to believe you,"

"Then believe me. Please?" His voice is laced with sadness and desperation. I scrunch my eyes shut and all our memories are played in front of me and that's when I realise I don't want to let what we have go.

"Fine, but if this Lauren whatever her name is tries to make a move her hair will be chopped of trust me."

His laugh roars through the phone making me giggle alongside him.

"Lauren Ardenase, and trust me even if she does I will always see you in the back of my head holding a knife,"

"So fear of me would stop you?"

"Of course, you're the scariest person I know."

"Oh I'm terrifying I'm sure," my voice dripping with sarcasm.

"Enough to give me nightmares," he plays along

"Do you want me to break up with you?"

"You already have,"

"I'll do it again,"

"Eva you love me too much,"

"Sometimes too much,"

"Well I love you to,"

"I miss you," I whisper

"Hey Hun shhh, enjoy your time and we'll be back together before you know it,"

"Promise?"

"I promise, and hey Eva I have to go but we can FaceTime later if you're free okay?"

"Sure, I think we're here anyways so I'll speak to you later I guess, love you."

"Well good luck for the show, you'll rock it!! Love you more,"

I smile hoping he wouldn't hang up so we could do the whole cute couple thing where neither of us wants to hang up but I mean you can't have everything. I smile down at the phone forgetting Shawn was there until he clears his throat.

"Seriously?" He questions

"What?" I retort back

"You've forgiven him,"

"I was angry with him in the first place for something he didn't do. Of course I've forgiven him,"

"You're delusional, he was with Lauren!"

"Yes I am aware Shawn, but I trust Noah."

"No Eva, you trust his words. Which by the way are lies,"

The tour bus comes to a halt signalling that we are here

"Shawn how do you know he's lying? You've never even met the guy," my voice raises with every word to the point where I'm almost shouting.

"You know the Lauren that broke my heart? That's the same Lauren, and you know how are you else. I know that she doesn't go around to a guys house to just watch a movie. There's always something else going on,"

"Shut up,"

"Does the truth hurt?" He asks me menacingly and I start to wonder where the kind guy who held me has gone.

"I don't know you tell me, because heres a truth for you Shawn. You couldn't keep Lauren and now you're jealous,"

"I have nothing to be jealous of,"

"You're jealous of Noah, because he was hanging out with Lauren,"

"I'm not jealous of him hanging out with Lauren,"

"Then what are you jealous of?"

"It doesn't matter, we need to go get ready. I'll see you at the meet and greets,"

Shawn storms out of the tour bus leaving me more confused than ever. What on earth could he be jealous of? I push the thought aside and giddily head to go get ready.

Tonight was opening night...

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