"Mom..." I whispered while looking at the still body of Mom lying on the floor in front of me.

I didn't want to believe It's true...

NO.

NO.

NO.

My eyes widened in shock and disbelief, my body trembled, and a wave of coldness and pain shot through My heart, a sense of emptiness and loss filled My soul.

I don't know why I couldn't gather tears in my eyes.

I don't know why I couldn't cry for her.

I don't know why I couldn't...

Even though a part of Me knew I should cry, and stay next to My mother's body, a strange feeling of numbness overwhelmed Me.

I didn't even know the proper meaning of death yet I knew that she is going away from me...leaving me behind.

"Mom...Mom..."

I snapped My eyes open, My breath was coming out ragged and shaky. My heart was racing as if it was trying to escape from My chest, and My whole body was drenched in sweat. I sat up in bed, trying to calm down the chaotic beating of My heart.

I shouldn't have slept in the first place. My eyes move to the wall clock hung on the wall. It's 4 A.M already...

I leave my bed and wear my Bathrobe. Yes, I sleep without Clothes at night.

I decided to go to my study and close the door behind me.

Jerzy was sitting on a couch in the next room, sipping on a chocolate shake that was his favorite and had headphones on his ears, the music playing loudly, making him unaware of the world around him as he was engulfed in his own little bubble.

why do humans like it so much sweet?

"What are you doing this early in the morning?"

"Oh? You knew I existed?" Jerzy responded without glancing at me.

"No. Those songs sound are annoying which reminded me you exist."

He frowns and focuses on the chocolate shake back.

It's surprising he didn't argue back and gave sarcastic answers for debate.

I drop the idea of studying and sit on the couch beside him. I remove his headphones.

He doesn't argue and stays quiet. It's something terrible I guess.

"If you have something to say then say. Sulking won't solve the problem."

He turns his head towards me in a jerk.

"Do you think I'm a joke?"

After some beats, I reply "Yes?"

"Ah! Come on Rin! You can't do this to me. I research for you the whole day and even make tablets and drugs so you can try to live the life you prefer. Yet You choose to ignore me like I'm nobody! It hurts man..." His voice turns low at the end.

"I pay you for that."

He frowns again.

"What's gotten into you suddenly?" I ask.

"I tested the syringe and liquid inside it for you and You just left That message on seen and even didn't discuss that shit with me!"

"What type of message are you talking about?" He stares at me for some min and realizes I'm not acting dumb.

"The message I sent you the day before yesterday."

I don't have a clue which type of message he was talking about so I take My phone out and open his chat. He sent me a message that day.

I didn't keep a lock on My phone, and I didn't believe anyone would have the audacity to check my phone. But then, as I checked the time of the message being seen, a chill ran down My spine, as I realized that during that time, I was unconscious. The only possibility was that someone had opened My phone while I was unconscious, and read the message...Someone who was with me during that time...

Elina.

And as I realized everything... that's why Elina suddenly changed her mind about moving into my house. If this was about her not knowing me enough and moving in with someone she met just some days ago would be illogical as she agreed at first.

She didn't reply to my texts and even tried to avoid me the whole day...

FUCK. 

The next day I approach Elina in the morning.

She hesitated at first but didn't argue.

"Did you somehow read Jerzy's messages from My phone?" I'm sure it was her but confirming won't harm.

"I'm...Sorry, Dr. Rin. I didn't intend to check it. It's just...My name appeared on the lock screen and I got curious..."

"Should I assume your curiosity didn't give you the best results you wished?"

She shook her head slowly. I don't need to give her an explanation or do I?

"So you believe everything?"

"It's...hard. I mean how is this even possible."

"I have no idea if you believe it or not but..." I moved forward, taking steady steps towards Elina. With every step I took, Elina instinctively took a step back, her body trying to keep a distance from Me. Our body almost touching.

But the wall behind her cut off anyway to escape further, trapping her in place as I continued to close the gap between us and eyes locked on her.

If I can't erase her memory then I have to scare her.

"I suggest you not to tell this to anyone. Or the consequences may not be appropriate for you, Ms. Elina." She stood and stared at me with those wide eyes that I wanted to push her inside the ward next door and erase her memory by Fucking her so hard that she will not even remember her own name.

But I leave her behind not looking back or Who knows I'll let my intrusive thoughts win.

I should have kept My boundaries clear from the beginning, maintaining Our relationship as merely professional.

But instead, I had found myself entangled in a dangerous dance with her, caught up in a web of emotions and desires that I couldn't seem to escape from. I had let My guard down, and now I was at risk of losing control, strangling Myself with the intensity of their connection.

I should've just left without answering her any questions.

Denying that I never saved her.

But Still, It's not too late yet. I realized that if I allowed Myself to get too involved with her, to let her crawl beneath My skin, there would be no turning back.

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Since that day,

I've been totally professional with Elina.

Message and calling aren't even a part of our interaction now.

She greets me and I nod.

whenever I needed something during surgery, I would deliberately extend My hand further than necessary. This was different from before when I would always steal glances in her direction.

Though My dark thoughts about her still occupy me. I keep them inside me.

But yes I stay here until Elina leaves the hospital before me.

I keep watch on her without making it obvious because there are still chances that she will be attacked.

I Take Eternam-G48 tablets So I won't suffer terrible headaches and transform.

I follow her every night Till she reaches her home. Once she almost caught me following her. OKAY, I mean stalking her.

Even during meetings with other women for sexual needs. I only imagine Elina.

While fucking other women only Elina is the person I still desire.

 I always made clear with those women who never cared about My identity or Why My skin is always cold.

Until I slept with them and gave them the best orgasms, they never complained.

They were clear with My rules during sex.

No kissing.

No exchanging of names.

No staying overnight. Though I mostly prefer hotels But sometimes their places too with no staying over. Bringing them to my place is a terrible idea.

Yet you brought Elina to your place My inner voice reminds me which I totally ignore.

My phone rings with an unknown caller ID.

It's 11 P.M who would be calling me this late? I don't give it much thought and answer it.

There was something about the tone and inflection that was immediately familiar to Me. Without a doubt, I knew who it was immediately. I recognized him the way he addressed me.

"Hello, My dear son."

"Why did you call me?" I ask after being silent for some seconds as I needed some time to process.

"Aw, I didn't expect this question from you when We talked after so long."

Rage coursed through My veins as I clenched My teeth. The sound of this man's voice stirred up a storm of negative emotions within Me, and the anger inside Me flared fiercely.

I hang up. Why is he coming back into My life?

I desperately wanted some respite from the pain and memories that haunted Me. I knew it was impossible to erase My experiences entirely, but I also knew that I didn't want to add any more traumatic memories to My already heavy burden.

And if he, My Dad, is coming back...It means something wrong...something dangerous will take place soon.

Jerzy barged into My room unannounced

"I told you to knock before you enter." I turn and notice him huffing with a shocking look.

Before I ask him about what happened.

he starts and tells me everything. I froze in shock too.

NO...It shouldn't be like this.

I knew after this call something wrong would happen...But this soon?

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