I'm sad so here, let me share my sadness:

This ball of sadness was rushed, because I'm writing it in an uncomfortable hospital chair.

I saw the part of you
That only when you're older you will see too
You will see too

As soon as Tony saw the kid in a video on YouTube he knew he was going to do something great.

I held the better cards
But every stroke of luck has got a bleed through

Tony did have a better life than Peter, even though it wasn't the best one. Tony still had a father and mother when he was Peter's age.

He did have an okay life, compared to Peter.

It's got a bleed through

But he should've known that he couldn't always have an okay life.

You held the balance of the time

Peter had made himself the sun of Tony's life by now.

He was always clearing things so he could spend time with Peter.

So he could just see Peter.

That only blindly I could read you

He didn't exactly know what that tingling in the back on his neck were, or the thoughts that came into his mind when he looked at the kid.

But I could read you

He figured out it was like a warning. A warning that something was wrong with Peter, and he could tell it just by his movements.

It's like you told me
Go forward slowly
It's not a race to the end

"Slow down Mr. Stark! It's not a race to get to the tower ya know. " Peter laughed as Tony gave him a side glance and slowed down every few seconds until he was going the speed limit.

Well you look like yourself

Peter came in the tower everyday smiling and laughing while talking your ears off.

But you're somebody else

But slowly over time, he changed.

Only it ain't on the surface

He still smiled and laughed while talking your ears off, but it was different.

He just didn't have that sparkle in his eyes anymore.

Well you talk like yourself

His voice is normal, his laugh is normal.

No, I hear someone else though

But every time the kid said something, it started out dull, lacking his usual happiness. But Peter quickly put in fake joy when he caught it.

Now you're making me nervous

How did he not see this sooner, that tingling thing on the back of his neck was telling him something.

That Peter, wasn't okay.

You were the better part
Of every bit of beating heart that I had

Peter somehow made himself a slot in Tony's stone cold heart, making himself comfortable.

Whatever I had

Tony's heart was impossible to get to, but Peter managed to find out a way.

I finally sat alone
Pitch black flesh and bone
Couldn't believe that you were gone

Peter was there, but not there. He was alive and walking, but be wasn't how he usually was.

He just vanished.

Flying away into the wind like a speck of dust.

Well you look like yourself

A happy smiling kid, always talking and having a good time.

But you're somebody else

But that wasn't the real Peter.

Only it ain't on the surface

The kid had it buried and locked deep down inside of him, only creeping out when he was alone.

Well you talk like yourself

He loves Peter's laugh.

No, I hear someone else though

But the laugh he's been hearing lately, that laugh isn't the one he's loved for so long.

Now you're making me nervous

Tony felt horrible.

What happened to his kid to change him?

Well you look like yourself
But you're somebody else

He wants Peter back.

The real Peter.

His Peter.

Only it ain't on the surface

Tony can only wish to hear Peter's real laugh, ever since his fake one has taken over.

Well you talk like yourself
No, I hear someone else though
Now you're making me nervous

Who did this to his kid?

Who changed his laugh? His smile?

Who changed Peter?

Where are we?
Where are we?

Was he not a father to the kid?

Is that why Peter didn't tell him?

Why he didn't ask for help?

Is this his fault?

Well you look like yourself

His beautiful brown curly hair, bright doe eyes, bright smile, making the kid look incredibly cute.

But you're somebody else

Peter still looked the same.

But his bright eyes were gone.

His bright smile disappeared.

Only it ain't on the surface

But Peter replaced those with this fake brightness, that looked incredibly real.

But once you saw it, incredibly fake.

Well you talk like yourself
No, I hear someone else though
Now you're making me nervous

His kids laugh lost it's innocence, his voice losing the purity.

Well you look like yourself
But you're somebody else
Only it ain't on the surface

Tony wished so badly that Peter would just walk in one day, his normal smile and laugh back.

His Peter back.

Well you talk like yourself
No, I hear someone else though
Now you're making me nervous

The patrols at four in the morning.

The texts the were deleted without a trace as soon as they were sent.

The ended calls as soon as Tony's phone would start to ring.

They were calls for help.

And he didn't see them.

I saw the part of you that only when you're older
You will see too, you will see too

But he will make sure, that every single day he will work in getting the happiness back, that innocence, that brightness.

So that when Peter becomes older, he can be the greatest superhero to ever live.

😔 I'm such a horrible author, I don't deserve all you wonderful Cucumbers.

❤

🥒 "oH mEh GoD, iTs A sAlTy CuCuMbEr"