y'all i don't know where these ideas came from but they're here now. please judge freely :)

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float

all i do is float

i don't follow my own path
nor go my own way

it's fear that holds me, it's fear that drives me

i cannot be different, i cannot turn away

i must float and go with whatever comes my way

i am a jellyfish
floating in the sea, going wherever the tide may take me

this way and that
that's where i'll go
as to be normal i'll go with the flow

i'll do as you ask
i'll do as you please
just don't swim away from me

or i'll be floating alone in the sea

can't help it

i'm sorry, i really am

please don't let this taste bad

i just want to say three simple words

so please don't take it the wrong way
for this is just how i feel

here it comes, please don't run away

i love you

i'm sorry if it scares you, it's just the way i feel
i can't help it, nor stop it

i cannot persuade or convince myself that it is not true

because i think that i really do love you

free

there is chains all around me

i cannot escape and no one can set me free
i'm all alone and no one will save me
no one wishes to save a loner such as me

i'm an outcast, i'm a sore
no one wants to look at me

i'm delusional and crazy
that's what they all say

i cannot be a hero, for i am nothing nothing more than a mere child, still hallow and cold

oh i wish i could prove then wrong

but the chains you have set on me drag me along the icy shores of judgement

but mark my words when i break free
i will show the kind of hero i can be

flashback

i, like all, have my good days
where i laugh and smile, nothing can bother me

but sometimes i get these flashback
they take a hold of me
they show me all the times i did a wrong
they show me my mistakes and my outtakes

i huddle in a ball
determined to shut them out

i will not let the flashbacks get to me
for i am strong and refuse to fall down

i will conquer all my wrongs and a right

all you have to do, is watch me fight

fear

fear me
for i am not weak

i am everywhere, in your mind, even shining in your eyes

i will not go, you cannot make me leave

i see everything you do
the good and the bad, even the things that make you weep

i make you feel anxious, i make you jittery

i know what lies in the dark
i know what cannot be seen

i will protect you, but you should also be protected from me

because one day i will consume you
and there will be nothing left to hear

fear me, and never leave me behind

and you may just survive, until your time has arrived

happy

i am thrown around, i am used

but when i'm with you i feel something i haven't felt in a long time

happy is the word
the word i don't use
the feeling i never get

i don't want to be mean to you, i just wish for you to feel about me as i feel for you

you really brighten up my mood
and i hope i do the same for you

because i only feel this happy, when i am with you

charity

throw around your money
aim it at me

use me for fame and use me for glee
i see it all around me

i am not liked for being me
i am just charity

take me when you need me
deny me when you don't

i am nothing more than just a few coins
that you found in the dirt

wash me off and spend me again
take me back, right where i began

use me over and over 

just you wait until i become more than a penny
wait until i am no longer your charity

and you will be the one that i'm cleaning off

fantasy

over the hills we go
far and wide

the journey ahead is miles long
can you fake it, can you bare the harsh winds of reality

are you ready to brave the forest of judgement, the lake of hatred, the harsh hail of society, and the cold rain of humanity

all take make it to your fantasy

hush

it's all okay

stay quiet and go to play

all is well, there is nothing to fear

speak nothing about your worries or your fears

hush, hush unless you want them to silence you

they will take away your voice and hurdle it into the can

so hush, hush while you still can

don't let them hear and don't let them see

for they fear the change you seek

so keep it quiet, don't let them know

or they will take you out in one fatal blow

so hush, hush while you still can

or risk losing your plan
you will be thrown away, discarded

they will make you a villain
they will throw away your heroism

for you are just a grain of sand
and they are the mighty ocean

hush, hush or else they will hear

do not speak about your fears

.•♫•♬•lmao•♬•♫• thanks for listening to my poems .•♫•♬•i'll call you Gretta•♬•♫•. thanks Gretta

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i don't know where half of this came from, but hey it's here lmao

thanks for reading my shit i luv you 💕

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