charlotte willard

nothing hurt more than the sunburn that cascaded on my back. i lifted my black bikini, showing the difference from my red burnt skin and my soft pale skin. i winced as i set my bikini strap back over, not happy about the restless sleep i would get tonight because of this sunburn. i heard a snicker coming from my right, seeing madelyn cline recording me.

i rolled my eyes as she laughed at me, setting her phone down. maddy and i become friends as soon as i got the role for Knives Out 2. i was a nervous wreck that day and she shared the same nerves as me, deeming us best friends from the start.

two months into filming and we have spent almost every day together.

"not funny." i smiled at her, grabbing a loose shirt to throw over my sunburn. i wasn't risking my skin anymore for a good tan. once the redness fades i think i'll be just fine with the golden bronze skin.

"it so is." she giggled, getting up from the couch in my trailer. i watched her make herself a drink as i slipped some jean shorts on. it was incredibly hot in Greece, the sun soaking up all my energy once again. it was tough adjusting to it all, the time change and the demanding schedule being the worst of it but two months in and i don't think i ever want to leave.

she poured another glass, this time with ice cold water.

"well i'm drained from today." she said, topping off the water and handing it to me. i grabbed it with a small thankful smile. "i say we go to dinner and then movie marathon aka sleep." i chugged my water, needing it after feeling like all the water i've drank today was sucked up by the sun.

"i was thinking the same thing!" she said, going over to her clothes that were sitting on the couch she was previously at. we tend to share everything now, i hated being alone and she felt the same way. we combined our hotel room and upgraded it to the suite.

it was nice to have someone, especially after my "break" with timothée. it was also nice because she never prodded about it, she knew it wasn't her business and she stayed out of it. i'm glad she did because any mention of him made me want to jump off a cliff. either that or collapse in a puddle of my own tears.

it was a sensitive subject let's just say that.

"twilight marathon?" she suggested and i almost wanted to shake my head no. any idea of love, especially seeing it on screen with such passion made me want to vomit. instead of declining i just nodded my head. i'll fall asleep in the first twenty minutes anyways.

"i'll order some pizza!" maddie cheered, now getting excited. her excitement made me feel giddy as we left the trailer. she dialed a random number, ordering us two pizza's while we walked out of my set trailer.

Greece was beautiful during sunset so while we walked i quickly snapped a picture of the sky. i wanted to remember this journey as much as i could. i knew once this film came out it will change peoples perspective on my acting abilities.

the only other thing i've done was Euphoria and i play Charlie, i silly character that romanticized a life she could never have. her best friend was Rue, who was played by my dear friend Zendaya. Charlie and Rue get along because they both are addicts, doing drugs for different reasons.

that's the only thing people think i'm capable of doing so i'm excited to show that i can do more. it was important to me to not get comfortable, i wanted to branch out and try different styles of acting.

"alright pizza will be there in thirty minutes."

"cherry?"

i blinked out of a trance i was in, stopping in front of the car that is supposed to take us back to the hotel.

"oh that's great mads thanks." i grabbed the handle, hiding my rosy cheeks. ever since timothée and i called it quits, i've been zoning out a lot. my whole body keeps moving and acting normal but my brain stops and i can only focus on one thing. it's like i can't feel my body— i'm stuck in my head. i'm sure it's nothing to do with the break up, it just started happening after we broke up.

i sat in the seat, maddy sitting next to me. i tried to get out of my head quickly before i zoned out again.

"you know if you ever just wanted to talk.. about whatever goes on up there." she taps my head like it's glass, "i'm all ears." i turned to her, giving a reassuring smile. i didn't say anything, just looked out the window watching the scenery as we drove to the hotel.

it wasn't that i didn't want to open up to maddy, i truly couldn't. i'm afraid i'll fall apart and everything that had happened in the last couple months will come crashing down on me. i was terrified of the truth, what timothée said to me really struck a nerve. i cant let him be right.

"it's going to be even hotter tomorrow." madelyn says, still sipping on her drink. i forgot i still had my water clenched in my palm. the class had water droplets falling down the side. my hand was wet but also cold, i've been holding onto this drink for awhile now.

"wow it is." my voice barley came out.

it's been two months charlotte.

i quickly switched the cup to my other hand, wiping my hand on my shorts. maddy didn't say anything the rest of the car ride. i used that time to gather myself, trying to ignore the pit in my stomach. my brain was screaming at me while we pulled up to the hotel.

i tried to erase his image from my mind. each time i think of him i get overwhelmed with a heart crushing ache. it's like my heart is shattering all over again and i can't stop it. it was almost annoying because i know he wasn't thinking of me.

we haven't spoken in two months.

he was done with me and i needed to move on. it sounds as impossible as it feels.

"are you coming?" maddy stood in front of me. i didn't even realize she opened my car door. i looked up at her suddenly, "yeah sorry." i blinked, stepping out of the car. she grabbed my hand, closing the car door behind me.

"it's okay, let's go eat some pizza." her arm slung around my shoulder, leading me up the grand staircase to the hotel. i was thankfully for maddy, more than she will ever know. anytime i get like this she never makes me feel stupid or silly. she changed the subject not because she doesn't care about my feelings, she just knows i don't want to talk about them.

"sounds great." i said as the doors opened for us. we entered the beautiful hotel, it's interior a gold and white marble. it always smelled refreshing in here, almost making me feel a bit better.

she led me to the elevators pressing the button quickly.

as we entered the elevator my phone buzzed. i reached into my back pocket, pulling out my phone. a part of me hoped to see his name on the screen but when i read zendaya's name i let out a shaky breath. this happens everytime i get a text now.

the elevator started moving as i read her text.

zendaya
euphoria season two premier
in two weeks!!
hope you can make it!! miss u

cherry
of course<3 miss u

i shut my phone off as the door opened to our floor. maddy walked me to the door, unwrapping her arm to grab the hotel key. "i forgot i go back to la in two weeks." i shook my head. i completely forgot about the premier to be honest. my mind was filled with this movie and another thing. i couldn't believe i forgot about it.

"oh for the euphoria premier?" maddy asked and she finally found the key. she inserted it into the slot, waiting for the green light. "yeah.." i mumbled, watching her tug on the handle of the door, pushing it open.

"why do you sound... kind of sad?" she walked into the room, setting her empty cup down on the small kitchen we shared. "i don't know.. i don't really want to go alone.. i'm not ready to leave Greece." i dumped out the water from my half full cup into the sink. maddy was in the living room, trying to find the twilight movies.

the sun was completely set now, making it a nice movie night.

"i'd go with you but.." she trailed off, eyes staying on the screen. i thought for a moment, it would be really nice if she came with me. i didn't like flying alone, let alone staying in la.

"i mean you could." i smiled, making my way over to the couch. i stopped and grabbed two blankets, setting one on her lap as i approached. "really?" she perked up, taking her eyes off the tv.

"yeah maybe i can meet some of your friends." i smiled at her, knowing how badly she wanted me to meet her close friends. "um yes!" she practically screamed, jumping up and down on the white couch. i laughed, "okay let me add you to my flight!" i was excited now, my nerves calming down.

she continued to search for a movie while i messed with my flight on my phone. i made sure to add her in the seat closest to me. i was relieved that i wasn't traveling alone, i was also excited to be able to actually go out meet new people. i haven't really talked to anyone in two months let alone went out and had a drink or had a nice dinner with people.

there was a loud knock on the door making me jump slightly. maddy shot up from the couch, throwing the remote down. "pizza!" she yelled, swinging the hotel door open. i finished adding her to my flight and once i set my phone down she was back with the large box of pizza.

she set it on the small coffee table in front of us, wrapping herself in the big blanket i brought over for her.

"we're all set." i smiled at her, reaching to grab a slice of pizza. she sqeauled with excitement, copying my actions and grabbing a slice for herself. "i cant wait! i'm gonna let some friends know we'll be back soon!" she took a bite as she grabbed her phone.

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A/N
first chapter wooo
it will definitely get more intense but i wanted
to show what cherry has been up to!
and also show that it's been two months since
the break up:(

so many exciting things to come!