04-22

Indiana Fontanilla

10:30 p.m.

Reinier:

Ida

Indiana:

Yes?

Reinier:

How was it?

Indiana:

Okay naman

Reinier:

I was about to ask you earlier but ang hirap kasi magkaiba tayo ng group

Tapos iba iba pa tables pag lunch

And walang phones

Indiana:

Hahahaha im okay naman

You don't have to check on me

Reinier:

Just want to make sure you're okay

And that you had fun

Siyempre pinilit kita na umattend even though you didn't like the idea

Indiana:

I had fun

I became closer to our blockmates

Nakaalis din ng heavy feeling

I feel like somehow it lessened the burden in my heart

Reinier:

Did you share something to the group?

Indiana:

Yeah

Reinier:

That's nice

I just remember what you told me sa bus kanina na you don't really like opening your heart or sharing things to others

I hope you're not pressured earlier

Indiana:

I'm not

Seeing my groupmates shares their experiences and problems freely makes me want to do it also

And hindi naman sila namimilit, kahit ano lang na gusto mo ishare either happy moments, sad or just random things you wanna share

It was freeing

It felt nice

Reinier:

Anyway, sa last activity

Yung sa letters from parents

You didn't receive one

If it's okay, can I ask why?

Indiana:

Ah yeah

I receive something naman

Our profs wrote letter for those who haven't receive from their parents

So yeah

I'm not that close to my parents

I barely see them

They weren't affectionate too

If ever I received letter from them, I'll bet all my fortune for the next years that all that's written will be "study hard"

"Work hard"

"2nd place is not good enough"

"Failing means you're not trying hard enough"

Those things

I rather not receive letter na lang

Reinier:

I'm sorry

Indiana:

Why are you saying sorry hahahaha

Reinier:

That's what you're going through pala

Indiana:

Yeah

I grew up not close to my parents

I also grew up not close to my sibling also

Because everything is competition sa aming magkakapatid I never talk to them na parang normal na kapatid lang, parang kapag kinausap mo sila akala agad nila balak mo silang talunin sa isang bagay

So I really grew up na walang pinagsasabihan ng kahit ano na nangyayari sa life ko

This is the first time that I feel like someone will listen to me

Kahit sila Viel and Ken they haven't really heard my story na detailed

Not that I don't feel na papakinggan nila ako

It's just that I'm not used to it.

Reinier:

All your feelings are valid, Indiana

I'm happy that you finally let out what's inside your heart

Opening up is not easy

You're brave

Thank you for telling me

Thank you that you trusted your story in me kahit di mo naman ako groupmate

Indiana:

You persuaded me to come here

And I am very thankful that you did