WED AT 09:00 PM

Marcus : Hi! :)

Marcus : How's your day?

En : Hi...

En : :)

En : Okay lang. Nag-test kami kanina. Tapos, may mga tinapos sa lab bago umuwi.

Marcus : Pagod ka?

En : E..? Sakto lang.

Marcus : Kumain ka na?

En : Opo. Ikaw?

Marcus : Yes, tapos na. Nagpa-deliver na lang ako ng pagkain galing sa resto ng kakilala ni Jeric.

En : A...

En : Hindi ka busy tonight?

Marcus : Halfway through my school papers. Pero oras natin to e. So, don't hold back. Haha. ^__^

Marcus : How about you? May mga gagawin ka pa?

En : Meron pa. Pinag-aaralan yung procedure at illustrations para sa dissection bukas.

Marcus : Hm...

Marcus : Is everything okay?

En : Ha? Bakit?

Marcus : Para kasing may problema. I don't know. Are you feeling okay?

En : A...

En : Pagod lang... :)

Marcus : Do you want to rest? Or maybe take a nap?

En : Ay, hindi. Hindi...

Marcus : If there's something wrong, I want you to tell me, okay?

En : Walang problema. :)

09:11pm

En : Sorry a. Medyo wala ako sa hulog kausap.

Marcus : Hm...

En : Wait lang po. May gagawin saglit. 5 minutes. :)

Marcus : Okay. :)

09:17pm

En : Yan. Medyo okay na ko. #TopicPlease

Marcus : #AskAnything

En : Teka...

En : Ilan na naging girlfriends mo?

Marcus : Awts. Plural? Girlfriends talaga? Haha.

En : E..? Bakit? Si Laurice pa lang ba?

Marcus : May ka-M.U. ako nung freshman pa lang. Pero, nakatutok ako sa swimming nun e. Kaya, wala ring nangyari.

En : A... M.U.

En : What's she like?

Marcus : Huh? Talagang ito ang gusto mong topic?

En : Bakit? Kinakabahan ka? (∩_∩)

En : May mga pinaiyak kang babae? (*^^)v

Marcus : Hindi mo pa naimbestigahan? Hahahaha!

En : Hindi a!!!

Marcus : Haha. Wala akong pinaiyak.

Marcus : Hindi ako kukuha ng girlfriend kung hindi ako seryoso. :)

Marcus : Kaya seryoso ako, En.

En : Hala!

Marcus : May ka-M.U. ako dati. Liligawan ko na sana... kaso... ewan ko. Bigla lang nawalan ng communication. Tapos, iniwasan ako.

Marcus : Hindi ko na rin pinursue kasi yung atensyon ko nga nun, nasa swimming at adjustment sa course.

En : A. What's she like?

Marcus : Cute?

En : Bakit question mark? Hihi.

Marcus : Medyo awkward ikwento e. Haha. #PahirapSiEn

En : Ikukuwento mo lang naman.

Marcus : Okay. She's cute. Brainy. Masarap kausap.

En : A... Tapos? Sinong sunod?

Marcus : Walang sunod a!

Marcus : After her, si Laurice. You already know what she looks like.

En : Oo. Maganda. Matangkad. Kamukha ni Julia Barretto.

Marcus : Yes.

En : Mahilig ka sa maganda?

Marcus : Not really.

En : Pero maganda sila pareho?

Marcus : Yes.

En : A...

09:23pm

Marcus : Do you really want to talk about this? Why do I get the feeling that you don't like it?

En : Siyempre, gusto kong pag-usapan. Tinanong ko nga, di ba?

Marcus : Is there something wrong, En?

Marcus : You can tell me.

En : Hindi kasi ako maganda.

Marcus : A! Hahahaha!

En : BAKIT KA TUMATAWA?!!! ಠ~ಠ

Marcus : Hahahaha!

Marcus : Hindi ka maganda? Are you sure?

En : Ano???

Marcus : Are you sure na hindi ka maganda?

En : Siyempre! Nakakainis ka!

Marcus : You know the thing about beauty?

En : Ewan ko. Ano?

Marcus : Beauty is just a concept.

En : Sabi mo lang yan. But at the end of the day, people prefer the beautiful.

En : Nasa tv ads. Nasa magazine. Nasa mga stories. You need to be beautiful to be worthy of a story.

Marcus : I don't think so.

Marcus : You need a personality to be worthy of a story. You need a beating heart and a soul.

Marcus : You are beautiful.

Marcus : Baka mali ka lang ng tingin sa salamin.

En : No, I'm not.

Marcus : Sino ba nagsabi sayong hindi ka maganda? Isi-sedate ko.

En : Walang nagsabi...

En : I just know... that being plain has its disadvantages. Being awkward, too. Being timid, too. Being myself...

Marcus : Do you know how I learned about beauty being a concept?

En : Hm? Saan?

Marcus : Kay Mommy.

En : E..?

Marcus : She was a very beautiful woman. She used to go to the gym. She was a swimmer. It was weekend tradition to have her nails done sa nearby salon. Her hair was always party-ready.

Marcus : And then, she had breast cancer.

Marcus : Everything changed. Lalo na sa physical aspect.

Marcus : All of her time, napunta sa treatment. Or sa worrying.  Or trying to look less sick.

Marcus : I saw her changed from the vibrant, fit woman to a thin, dark-eyed patient. Nakita ko siyang mangulubot. Mangayayat. Magnipis ang buhok.

Marcus : Tinanggalan siya ng dibdib.

Marcus : But she remained beautiful.

Marcus : There were times sa ospital, after therapy, na nakatitig ako sa kanya habang tulog siya... and I used to wonder how she remained to be that beautiful.

Marcus : She was not the same physically. I could see all that. Pumayat siya, nangulubot, nahukot, halos makalbo... but I still find her beautiful.

Marcus : She had the sweetest smile. She had the sweetest voice.

Marcus : That's when I knew, when someone is beautiful to you, they remain beautiful no matter what happens to them.

Marcus : When you see someone's beautiful soul, you start to lose sight of the physical shell. You start to look into the raw beauty they have inside them. And it's not just an ideal or an inspirational BS.

Marcus : I saw it, En.

En : Sorry...

Marcus : Kaya kung sinasabi mo sa 'kin na hindi ka maganda, sabi ng salamin, I'm telling you the mirror's wrong.

Marcus : I just saw a glimpse of your soul and I knew that you are very beautiful.

Marcus : Pakialam ko sa salamin, sa tv at sa magazine.

Marcus : We interact without those prejudices. I'm not counting it in now.

En : Sorry...

En : E kasi...

En : Natatakot ako...

En : Kasi... kapag nakita mo ko, tapos hindi ako maganda...

En : Nakakatakot...

En : Sorry...

En : I feel so bad... about myself.

En : Lagi kong naiisip dati, why isn't it fair? Bakit may ipinapanganak na sobrang ganda, may average, may plain tapos may pangit?

En : Tapos, may mga hindi na nga pinalad sa physical beauty nang ipinanganak, ang mga tao pa, judgemental. Visual creatures. Kapag pangit ka, parang inferior ka na agad sa magaganda.

En : It's so unfair...

En : Tapos, parang kasalanan mo pa na hindi ka maganda.

En : Kung makakapili kami, hindi naman namin pipiliin na maging plain lang. Kaya bakit nako-condemn kapag hindi ganun kaganda?

En : It's so unfair.

Marcus : Hey. Are you crying?

En : Hindi ko lang kasi mapigilang ma-insecure...

En : Sorry.

Marcus : Hug baymax, please.

En : Yakap ko na...

Marcus : All I can tell you is that, if you try to conform into this world's superficial standards, then you will really grieve. The world's already like it is. It may not be fair but it doesn't mean that it isn't serving justice.

Marcus : Imagine if we are all born from the same mold, or if we all look the same... we will still find something to grieve upon. Mawawalan ng distinction, ng uniqueness, at ng sariling beauty ang bawat species.

Marcus : Imagine a world without variety. Kung lahat tayo, unicellular organisms. O kung lahat tayo, balyena. O kung lahat tayo, halaman. O kung hindi tayo nag-evolve at naging mga gorilya na lang.

Marcus : There would be no variety and the world will be plain. There would be nothing for the imagination nor the curiosity. There would be no wonders nor fascination.

Marcus : I would look at you and wouldn't think much because you look exactly like all the other creatures on Earth. There would be no point to interact or discover another living thing. There's no point because if we're of the same mold, we will all have the same organs, the same systems, the same form.

Marcus : What's the point of living, then?

Marcus : It's not the way we are created that's unfair. It's our mindset that's eager 'to please' or 'to belong'. And there's nothing wrong with that if it doesn't destroy you. It's the ideal and the hypocritical standards of beauty around us that pushes us to conform and makes us feel bad if we can't.

Marcus : If you're going to believe what the world tells you, if you're going to kill your own persona and soul for the standards the world sets for you, you're going to be dead inside.

Marcus : And I will grieve.

Marcus : Don't believe them, En.

Marcus : Believe me.

Marcus : For me, you are beautiful.

En : Hindi mo pa nga ako nakikita e.

Marcus : Then meet me so I can tell you face to face that you are beautiful.

En : (╥╯θ╰╥)

Marcus : Ang haba ng hugot ko a. Baka mangamote ako mamaya pagbalik ko sa papers na ginagawa ko.
Marcus : You should let me know if it's effective o kung kailangan ko pang humugot sa balon. Hahaha!

En : Sorry. Kasi e... nai-insecure lang ako.

Marcus : I don't want you insecure about anything.

En : Mukha nga. Ang lalim nga ng hugot mo e.

Marcus : Don't give anyone the power to make you feel bad about yourself. Okay?

En : Opo. Tatandaan ko. (￣^￣゜)

Marcus : You better remember, Invisible Girl.

En : Sorry na po talaga...

Marcus : Saka, wala pa bang nagsabi sayo?

En : Na?

Marcus : Na kapag in love na ang isang tao sa isa pang tao, lahat ng ideals sa beauty, nagiging biased.

En : Ha? Ano???

Marcus : All the love chemicals conspire to make the person in love more into the object of affection. So, all the standards gets even out.

En : Teka lang...

Marcus : And I'm already in 'like' with you. :P

En : Hala!!! Sabi ko teka lang... (╥╯θ╰╥)

Marcus : Hahahahahahaha!

Marcus : Why? Like naman yung sinabi ko a.

Marcus : Hahahahahahaha! (^ワ^＝)

En : Sandali lang kasi...

Marcus : Hahahaha!

Marcus : It's already late to worry about the little things. Walang-wala na kong laban sa mga chemicals, En.

Marcus : You should know. Magaling ka sa biochem.

En : E...

Marcus : Hm?

Marcus : You cannot go offline. (¯―¯٥)

Marcus : If you're really sorry about doubting yourself, you will stay with me. (¯―¯٥)

En : E di wag ka rin kadi magbanggit nubg mga chemicals! Hidni anamn sila dpaat kasali ngaun!

Marcus : Hahahaha!

Marcus : Hindi ko sila idadamay, if you're really sorry.

Marcus : Are you really sorry? (⇀↼‶)

En : Opo... (╥╯θ╰╥)

En : I just can't help but worry and be insecure sometimes.

En : Kasi... buong buhay ko, lumaki akong... wallpaper e.

En : No one notices me. No one thinks about me.

En : To suddenly be told beautiful and suddenly be needed is just like being thrown into someplace that's totally unreal.

Marcus : You have to start believing in yourself, En.

Marcus : You have to look past what people tell you and what they don't tell you. You have to start seeing and falling in love with yourself - all your good points, all your virtues and your experiences.

Marcus : I don't like anyone getting into your head. Ako lang dapat.

En : Ano yun?

Marcus : If there's someone else allowed in your head, ako lang dapat yun.

Marcus : I'll tell you everyday how much I like you. Until all the doubts disappear.

En : E...

Marcus : En?

En : Qait.

En : Wair

En : Waut

En : Wait

Marcus : Okay.

Marcus : Tahan na...

En : Opo.

Marcus : Don't cry, anymore. :)

En : Thank you. Sa hugot. At sa ano... encouragement.

Marcus : Seryoso ako.

Marcus : I don't want you scared in meeting me just because you think you're not beautiful 'enough'.

Marcus : Unfair yun, En.

Marcus : I'm eager to meet you. I'm fascinated by you.

Marcus : Please be kind to yourself, too.

Marcus : Don't give up on yourself.

Marcus : Okay?

En : Opo... Sorry na talaga...

Marcus : Wala kang kasalanan sa kin. Although... you're making me worry, too. :)

En : Sorry talaga. I'll try to be kinder to myself. Promise.

Marcus : Swear?

En : Swear. :)

Marcus : Good.

Marcus : Talk to me when you need someone to convince you out of your insecurities.

Marcus : Or better, date me. (^ワ^＝)

En : Hala!

Marcus : Hahahahaha! (^ワ^＝)

En : Pag bigla kang nagsisingit nf ganyan, para akong maha-heart attack! ಠ~ಠ

Marcus : But I really want to date you. ;)

En : Wag muna nating pag-usapan yan... (╥╯θ╰╥)

Marcus : Okay. Hahaha. ^__^

En : Ano...

En : Sorry sa kadramahan ko.

Marcus : It's okay. Tell me whenever it bothers you. :)

En : Thank you rin sa hugot. (∩_∩)

En : Tapos ano... kailangan ko nang bumalik sa ginagawa ko...

Marcus : Okay. Ako rin naman. :)

En : Pero ano... may pahabol ako...

En : Hypothetical lang na tanong.

Marcus : Hm? What?

En : Halimbawa... may nagsabi sa kin na wag nang mapalapit sayo or something along those lines... ano kayang... dapat kong sabihin?

Marcus : Hm...

Marcus : You'll do as I tell you?

En : Siyempre...

En : Pero hypothetical lang yun a.

Marcus : Okay.

Marcus : Hypothetically, when someone (anyone, I don't care who) told you to stay away from me, tell them to stop meddling.

Marcus : And tell them exactly that...

Marcus : I'm yours alone.

En : Hala!!!

Marcus : Tell them to back off.

En : Sasabihin ko tlaag yan???

Marcus : Yes, please. :)

Marcus : Okay?

En : Okay...

Marcus : Let's go back to studying?

En : Oo...

Marcus : Okay ka na, ha?

En : Okay na talaga. :)

Marcus : Haha! Good.

Marcus : Bug me if you're still feeling down.

En : Okay na talaga. Masarap kasi kayakap si baymax. :3

Marcus ; Mas masarap ako kayakap. (^ワ^＝)

En : ಠ~ಠ

Marcus : Pero wala talaga akong sinabi. Don't mind it. Hahahahaha!

Marcus : Study well, En. :)

En : Ikaw rin... (∩_∩)