2 months later

Lillian PoV

It's been two months since I joined the band. Two months since my Sisters found out. Over those two months so much changed.

First of all Dani and I reconnected and I have to admit that eventhough all my siblings are really overprotective over me she's the worst. I think she still feels guilty for everything that happened and want's to make sure that nothing like this happens again. She sepends a lot of time with me and Lauren, Dani and I actually get along great. It is so great to spend so much time with mz sisters. I missed them so much. 

Second I became part of the band. A week after our talk I was introduced as band member and I love it. It is so much fun to sing with all my sisters and the fans were great and I was surprised of postive response I got. There's probably some negative one too but my sisters especially Lisa and Chrissy make sure to controll what i see on our chanel. They are scared of negative comments making me feel bad about myself again. 

Third I am homeschooled. I don't have to go to this awful place anymore. I can study at home. Mom decided that after the whole ordeal with the bullying I shouldn't go back there anymore. So now she teaches me at home like she did when we were little. Not only does it mean that I don't have to deal with the bullying anymore but it also means that I get the right of support in the subjects I am bad in, but challenge in my better subjects. For example I decided to learn french as well so now I am learning German and French. I love being homeschooled. 

After my sisters told my parents everything that's been going on with me they decided to get me to go a counseler. I am currently going three times a week and I think the women is really nice. She helped me to find ways to calm myself down during a panic attack and we talked about the bullying. My way of solving it and I have to say she knows what she's doing. Eventhough it's still really hard to eat all the time and some days I feel really bad about myself and eating I gained some weight. I still don't know how I feel about this, because everytime I look in the mirror I see fat and fat only. But my sisters are proud and everytime I am really struggling I tell them. 

"Lillian come on we have to shoot the next video!" Dani came in. I smile at her. "Hey Dan." "Come on except for Lisa and you everyone is ready." I nodded and got up quickly walking downstairs. "Hey guys." Lisa was still not down so it was just the six of us waiting for her. "So what are y'all doing to later." Dani asked. "Not much." Lauren answered. The others nodded in agreement. 

"Wanna go to the fair afterwards?" Dani asked. "I'm in." Lisa fianlly entered the living room. "Me too" I answered. In the end we planned on filming and all of us going to the fair afterwards. 

"Hey I'm Christina.""I'm Katherine.""I'm Lisa.""I'm Amy.""I'm Lauren.""I'm Dani.""I'm Lillian."
"And we're Cimorelli." Just as always Christina continued to talk. "We are seven sisters ages 30 to 16, We post covers, originals and other fun videos every single Cimorellisaturday." Lisa continued today we're singing a cover of 'High Hopes' by Panic! At the Disco."

(All)

High, high hopes

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Shooting for the stars when I couldn't make a killing
Didn't have a dime but I always had a vision
Always had high, high hopes (Dani)(high, high hopes)

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Didn't know how but I always had a feeling
I was gonna be that one in a million
Always had high, high hopes

(Amy)

Mama said, "Fulfill the prophecy
Be something greater, go make a legacy"
Manifest destiny back in the days
We wanted everything, wanted everything

(Dani)

Mama said, "Burn your biographies
Rewrite your history, light up your wildest dreams"
Museum victories everyday
We wanted everything, wanted everything

(Christina)

Mama said, "Don't give up, it's a little complicated
All tied up, no more love and I'd hate to see you waiting"

(All, Lisa high background)

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Shooting for the stars when I couldn't make a killing
Didn't have a dime but I always had a vision
Always had high, high hopes

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Didn't know how but I always had a feeling
I was gonna be that one in a million
Always had high, high hopes (high, high hopes)

(Katherine)

Mama said, "It's uphill for oddities
Stranger crusaders ain't ever wannabes"
The weird and the novelties don't ever change
We wanted everything, wanted everything

(Lauren |higher octave than original|)

Stay up on that rise
Stay up on that rise and never come down, oh
Stay up on that rise
Stay up on that rise and never come down

(Lillian)

Mama said, "Don't give up, it's a little complicated
All tied up, no more love and I'd hate to see you waiting"
They say it's all been done but they haven't seen the best of me
Eh, eh, eh
So I got one more run and it's gonna be a sight to see
Eh, eh, eh

(Christina lead, Lisa high background, Amz bassline)
Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Shooting for the stars when I couldn't make a killing
Didn't have a dime but I always had a vision
Always had high, high hopes (high, high hopes)

(All)

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Didn't know how but I always had a feeling
I was gonna be that one in a million
Always had high, high hopes (high, high hopes)

(All, Lauren and Lisa Adlips)

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Shooting for the stars when I couldn't make a killing
Didn't have a dime but I always had a vision
Always had high, high hopes

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Didn't know how but I always had a feeling
I was gonna be that one in a million
Always had high, high hopes 

"Well now it's time for question of the week. This weeks question comes from our twitter. They want to know what's our point one on our bucket list." 

Lauren and Lisa grinned at each other. "HOT AIR BALOONING" We all laughed at their silly antics. Before the question went to Dani. "I really want to go see the Northern Lights." "Me too" Lisa said. "I want to go to the holy land or the vatican" Kath said. "I don't know" "Amy you had so much time to think about it." Lauren laughed. "I know. Maybe Greece?" "Okay Greece. Chrissy what about you?" "I think I'd either go with Kath or Dani both are things I really want to see. What about you Lil?" "Uhm.." I took a deep breath "well I don't think have a number one thing I want to do as my dream is to travel as much as possible to meet as many people as possible. I think it's really important to grt to know new cultures." "Not the question Lil." Lisa said grinning at me. "I think I want to go to Tanzania. I want to climb Mount Kilimajaro. I think it's really inspiring to this." "When did you get so smart and grown up?" Amy looked at me. I shrugged and smiled at them.  We did the outro and finished. 

Not even  twenty minutes later we were sitting in the car on the way to the fair. As Amy and I were the smallest we sat in the back. I curled up against her and felt her putting one of her arms around me and holding me. "Love you Ames." I mumbeled. "Love you even more Sweet girl." We sat in silence while the rest of our sisters were singing to some of the songs on the radio. 

"We're here." Christina, who drove us, announced. We all got out of the car and immediatly looked around looked around like kids in a candy store. 

"Well let's go." Together we entered the chaos of people running around and laughing. Having the time of their lifes. And we did the same for the next two hours.

But then I saw him. He was standing a little behind us in the line for the ferris wheel. I knew he had seen me and I started feeling anxious. Luckily we got on that ride so I lost him out od the eye. Still I was scared and couldn't really calm myself down and relax on the next few rides. 

"Guys I'll go to the bathroom quickly." I said and walked the 20 meters to the bathrooms. As soon as I got in I knew it was a mistake. He stood there. 
"Nice of you to join me." He smiled and walked towards me. He put his arm out and stroked my hair. "I heard your famous now. I don't think you deserve this our your sisters attention. But still. You're going to have a relationship with me. You'll make me famous. Understood? If not I could hurt you or one of your sisters if you like that better."  "Yes, I understand" I said quickly not looking him in the eyes. "I'll text you an adress. There's a part on friday we're going there together. Tomorrow you'll nintroduce me to your family."

I nodded again. Not being able to say anything different. "Good girl. Now hurry and use the washroom before one of your sisters truns up." I nodded and shuffled away. When I came I only saw my sisters. He was nowhere to be found. Still I was scared and anxious the rest of our time there and only when I curled up against Amy ob the ride back home, I could feel her hand stroking my back I felt safe again. 

Why me? Why can't I just have once only good things in my life? I hate it

"I love you Lillian. My sweet little birthday twin." Amy whispered in my probably thibking I'm asleep. "Love you too Ames." I mumbeled back before drifting off completly.
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