......I've been calling my mom since yesterday and she's not calling me back so I decided after knocking off I'm going to go see her...

Work was too tiring as usual but after my shift, I sent Robbie a message telling him I'm going to go see my mom and he said I should tell him if I need anything.

Sunny was behaving at least so after my shift I drove to my mom's place and parked my car and got out.

I got to her and knocked she opened looking at me like I'm crazy.

We were talking outside...

"Mom what's the point of me buying you a phone if I can't reach you when I need you "

"What do you want "

"How is Aronia and where is she" I looked around no sign of my baby.

"She's playing with other kids in the next street"

"No mama I told you I don't want her playing with those boys"

"Then take her and raise her like you want to I don't have time for this".  

Then she went inside sat down and ignored me why does my mom treat me like this?

Why do I trust her with my daughter?..sometimes I don't understand if she hates me or what, who lets a 5-year-old play with boys in the next street I was so angry I started crying and left looking for her.

I found her sitting in a corner looking sad she ran to me and I hugged her those boys said they won't play with her because she's a girl and girls don't play football, I wanted to go to them but remembered that I need to handle my temper and they are kids.

I went back to my mother and asked her for
Aronia's bag she's staying with me for a while because I get off work earlier ... she was mad but said I can go with her so we left I got home and bathed her and made her chicken nuggets and fries after she was out like I light.

She didn't say anything I hate it when she is sad ... Robbie came and we sat down to talk a bit I told him what happened and he was pissed, it was cute seeing him so worked up I smiled forgetting the fact that I'm annoyed at my mother.

"What's that smile for"

"You"

"What did I do" he made a funny face and I laughed and kissed him thanking him for being so amazing we watched movies and fell asleep I got woken up by a stiff neck when I realized I fell asleep on the couch I checked my phone and it was 3 am shit, I woke him up and he said he's going I felt bad and thought of him driving that late but had no choice it was a 2 bedroom apartment and jasmine was sleeping in her room plus we both didn't want that sleeper couch.

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When he got home he sent a text and I slept peacefully woke up early and took Aro to school and came back home to do my laundry and clean till Mr. Mansoor ruined my day begging me to help him because Kelly is sick AGAIN.

I got ready for work and when I got there jasmine was there smiling somebody got it all this morning she told me about her night and how amazing her new man is all the other information she told me was unnecessary.

She teased me about how cute we looked sleeping and how she left around 2 am but we didn't hear her leave....bitch!

We spoke a bit more and I laughed at all her stories and continued working my smile got bigger when I saw Robbie walk in I quickly went to kiss him and got him food.

We spoke a bit and he saw how busy I was and patiently waited for me, my mom called asking for Aronia so I agreed and after my shift we
Went to drop her off at my mom's and went out for movies I needed that after the shift I had.

Robbie came to fetch me and we went to my apartment I made him the food we ate, then just slept on the couch chatting.

" Your mom"

"She wasn't always like that she was fun and loving my dad died when I was 16 and a part of her died with him it's like she lost all hope and I became a burden "

"I'm sorry baby"

"It's fine he was doing some shady shit and got shot I was a daddy's girl and we were inseparable but he made me promise to always do my best and be my best "

"He was a good dad"

"Sometimes he was but my mom lost herself I think a part of me was scared to love like her, she loved dad more than she loved herself so when he died she died too and she's just a shadow of herself ."

"......"

"Yeah I don't want to love a man like that....that I end up forgetting who I was before him "

"True after the hell I went through with Normani my mom made me promise to be a better man and never let any make me forget who I am"

"I think I love your mom"

He smiled.

"She loves you too"

"Promise me that when I forget who I am you will always remind me "

"I promise, uhmmmm "

"What Robbie" I laughed

"You said you knew you couldn't have kids"

"Oh that " I got up and sat down bringing my knees to my chest it's always so hard talking about it...

"Why did you move," he said

"My dad did ....shady stuff that day I could feel something was wrong but I didn't understand how our intuition is there to help us from danger and stuff so I ignored it"

I kept quiet and one tear fell...I thought I was okay...

"After my dad was killed this man broke down our door and my mom wasn't home I was studying for exams"

I kept quiet again......

"So when he came I thought he was lost but he wasn't he was looking for my dad and said my dad owes him I tried to explain my dad wasn't there but he said it's time he paid"

.......

"I tried to run to my room but he grabbed me and I fell and right near my bedroom floor he raped me over and over and I just lied there I couldn't move I didn't understand what just happened "

"Baby" he pulled me to him and just held me...

"I forced myself to collect my clothes and wore my black dress I cleaned the blood from our floors and went to the clinic but was taken to the hospital and the police were involved I knew I needed help I could do a lot alone but this was too big for me...

"Nia"...

"Wait......so they helped me and spoke to me I told them I don't know the perpetrator so it was easy to walk away I didn't want to find him or know him....after trying to convince me they finally heard me...

Robbie got up and got me some water because I was stuttering from the sobs...

"Miss Rodriguez was my psychologist so I went to see her and she helped me through so much I dont know how I would have survived that trauma if she didn't help me"

"Wait "

"I never told my mom just Jasmine..."

"My mom is the psychologist that helped you"

"You mean to tell me she...."

I got up and went to fetch her card and showed Robbie...I still had it because kind people who care are rare and I hold on tight to those memories through pictures, cards, etc

"Wow I'm happy she helped you," he said

"Wait so...." Robbie had so many questions I wanted to run but there's something about how he wants to know all of me that makes me melt, with him I'm not afraid to be vulnerable ...this is definitely witchcraft...I continued...

"I ended up having PID(Pelvic Inflammatory Disease)and that's why the doctors said I couldn't have kids on the bright side that man was killed "

"I'm so sorry babe " he kissed me did he just kiss me?

"I thought I'd scare you "

"It will take a lot to scare me, babe you were a child and didn't deserve all that, I just wish I was the one who killed that piece of shit though"

I laughed no man has fought for me...

"Thank you for being you, Robbie"

"My mom raised a gem huh"

I slapped him

"Shut up.....but you are one of a kind" then he kissed me ....that kind of kiss that's let's me know I'm safe and loved...

"Robbie I think I love you....."

I looked at him and he was fast asleep I got the blanket, covered us and we slept...

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Sorry for grammar errors and stuff English never loved me😏....this chapter was emotionally draining shucks🥵