Our talk took longer then I expected he listened while I poured my heart to him and he didn't judge me.

"I understand babe"

"I did date after I gave birth I wanted to feel desired and good enough not like I was  "damaged goods" like some people named me so I dated him and the more I gave him the more he wanted....he competed with a baby, I realized he wanted more then I could give him and broke it off and made a vow that I'd never date again because I'd never choose a man over my daughter "

"What kind of a man makes you choose "

"Asshole"

"You got that right"

He smiled and looked at me and came closer and closer till there was nothing between us and he kissed me ....I didn't know it could feel this good damn...there goes my body and my heart betraying me again....

When he was done seducing me with his perfect lips he looked at me and I couldn't help but blush ....

He held me and I just put my head on his chest as we laid on the couch ....it felt so good .....Maybe I can open my heart again....

"You have a beautiful daughter"

"Thanks.... I'm sorry about last time when you asked about her dad I'm just used to that question a lot "

"What"

"Yeap i was late for work and sunny wasn't working again so we ran to the subway she was crying because she didn't want to go to school I turned around and the police officer asked me to stand still, I was shocked he asked if I had abducted the child because she was crying, Aro ran to me and held me tight because she was scared.... then they called Mrs Ramirez who told the guy off and he apologized for accusing me"

"So there are still ignorant people"

"Aros classmates mom asked why I have darker skin then hers and asked if she was adopted"

"People are weird huh "

"I gave her a piece of my mind "

"I know you did"

"I'm not that bad"

"Huh"

We spoke a lot more it was actually nice to talk to him he felt like home....whatever home is..

I lied on his chest after we had our tea and I thought of what I've been through Leo really hurt me and I was not aware till Robbie wanted to love me..

I mean it was hard to make peace with him not loving me I accepted but when he rejected Aro too ,it was worse it took years to heal from the anger, bitterness and resentment I had towards him.

After accepting that I started healing and now Robbie doesn't only want to love me but to love my daughter too...

Leo scarred me a bit made me feel I was hard to love and my baby too it's gonna take time for Robbie to change it though it's not his responsibility but I'm happy it's him I never thought in a million years a man could love me with my child.

Having Aro taught me a lot and I'm grateful because now I Dont even remember how life was before her.......

That day I decided to not look at my past for it had no room in my future and if I wanted to be happy I had to let go of the baggage .

I decided to give Robbie a chance, a real one without looking back don't get me wrong it's very hard but I have to try right....

After a few weeks of dating we met him at the park and Aro was busy playing, laughing and running around....he was so gentle with her it was like he has been waiting he's life for us...

He explained "my flower" his song was for his child I mean the child he thought he's ex was having, she lied it wasn't his child and him finding out was devastating.

He chose to love me even though he was broken too, he has scars too that he doesn't show but I'm happy we get to heal each other I wouldn't have it any other way...

Aro and Robbie gang up against me all the time and it's annoying, we had a date at the beach My God this man looks amazing what makes him more amazing is his heart...I'm supposed to meet his mom and sister and I'm scared but excited.

Our beach day was amazing..

Being with these 2 really makes me happy he carried her on his back and made horse sounds running around and she was laughing, she fell and it was like he's having a heart attack...

I told him it's normal and I brought band aids but Lil missy was tough she plated and still had fun...

That moment my daughter taught me something about life, that is not all fun you fall but get up again and enjoy it the falling doesn't define how your life would go it just makes you stronger  and no matter how hard it is you keep going...

When we were done we went to my apartment and while ronia slept on my bed me and Robbie slept on the couch, then in the morning we made pancakes together this was all I wanted for me and my baby someone who will show us we are worth it....

The tabloid got our pictures we have been spending so much time together I really loved it..

He was gentle in his love both with me and Aronia I pray he doesn't change what would I say to Aronia how would I explain it? Let me stop being negative just this once and enjoy this chapter in my life called learning to love again...

I've seen too many pictures of us and my face on magazines they don't harass me that much but it's still a bit overwhelming...

Everytime we are together we have these steamy sessions how am I going to tell him I'm saving myself  for marriage ?

I apologize for any grammar errors I blame my phone😏