I woke up at 5 again I had a morning shift but 10 am so I got up showered made breakfast and Jas came to chat with me.

"How was your date"

"Just okay I had fun we went to the beach and stuff "

"Talk to me Nia"

"It hurts cause I like him but it means I need to let him in "

"So talk to him Nia you can't push him away just because you're scared,.... remember how scared you were when you gave birth and thought you wouldn't be a great mother "

"Yeah

"Now look how great you are "

"Thanks, Jas "

"Tell him the truth open up about Leo and tell him what you expect "

"I can't have my baby have a bond with him then have him leave her, I can handle it but she can't "

I cried a bit...I kind of relived the moment I went to Leo to tell him I'm pregnant, how I went through so many things alone without his help or support.

Sometimes I needed him but had to brush it off and be a mom because my daughter needed it I had to love her for me and Leo because he failed to be a father ...

"Look Nia Robbie is not Leo please don't compare them he's the past and you Shouldn't compare your past to your present"

"I know but I have a child her needs come before my own"

"At least consider yourself too how you matter how you give her the best version of yourself when you're happy "

"Yeah"

"Leo was an asshole who never deserved you at least you know that right?"

"Yes jas"

"And you didn't wake up one day and decide that you're gonna be a single mom"

I laughed

"Of course not "

"Exactly, I know it can be hard but everything will be okay "

"Thanks, Jas "

"Did you tell him about the police officer that chased you saying Aro ain't your daughter "

"Nope not yet"

"Open up to him what's the worst that could happen"

"He could....."

"No no it was a rhetorical question please don't answer "

"Whatever "

"So I need to go meet my man I'll see you later don't rob yourself of happiness,"

"I'll try and how's he?"

"You will meet him one day"

"Cool beans later babe"

She kissed my cheek and left I started thinking about too many things which is never a good thing.

I needed to check if sunny is okay so I got an Uber and went to Marcus.

"Baby girl" Urgh I hate it when he calls me like that

"Marcus is my car okay"

"Let's have breakfast first then we will talk"

"No thank you I just need my car to get to work"

"Well, she's not ready I still need to stick this huge stick in her and make her feel good"  euw....euw euw...I threw up 1000 times.

That's how he flirts....

After he said that I just left I couldn't be near him anymore he gives me the creeps.

I got in the Uber and he drove me to work it was a short drive I was early so I went to our locker room and sat down on one of the benches...

Lisa and Kelly walked in and started asking me a million questions about Robbie their obsession with him remains a mystery to me ...ok maybe I'm lying

"I wonder what he sees in you," Kelly said

"You should ask yourself that Kelly"

"What"

"What does Robbie see in me that you don't have?" I left her standing there and went to the bathroom.

I got my uniform on and fixed my messy bun and got to work it was packed worse than usual because we had buy 1 get 1 free breakfast.

Robbie was here I saw him being served by Kelly I walked to him...

"Robbie"

"Hey babe how are you "

"I'm good can we talk when you're free "

"Cool just send me a message when you're free"

"Thanks "

"Nia"

"Yes"

"Save me from Kelly please shes asking me the weirdest questions " I laughed

"Sorry, buddy you're on your own" I smiled at him not even those puppy eyes are going to save him.

"But....." I blew him a kiss...

Then I left ...Kelly was being extra flirty her big boobs, she kept trying to touch him ...

He looked like he wanted to run but couldn't, him looking that uncomfortable made me feel some type of way like maybe just maybe he might be worth it...

Kelly is a perfect great toned body, big boobs perfect smile amazing blue eyes men go crazy for ....... but not Robbie.....

When Kelly went to print his bill he ran out of the restaurant faster than the flash I couldn't stop laughing and Kelly's reaction, when she found him gone, was PRICELESS...

I had a great day many tips I can finally buy Aro stuff for pre school I've been postponing and Mrs. Ramirez has been patient with me.

The store wasn't too far from us soo went to buy the things today when I go fetch her I need to get them to her and maybe get there on time since Mr. Mansoor told me I can knock off early.

I checked the time and it was 16:30 so I finished my shift and was Infront of the school at 5 pm exactly.

I smiled at Mrs. Ramirez and handed her Aros stuff.

"Mommy"

"Baby let me carry your bag"

"Naah is fine"

"Okay"

After a while she complained about how sore her legs were I carried her to the subway to go back home.

We got home around 6:30 pm and I began cooking some fried rice and chicken with a salad.

"Mommy I hate that" pointing at the veggies.

"I know but it keeps the bugs away"

She ate all her food and veggies ....good trick

"Good girl"

Then we went to bath and brush our teeth and got in bed Jasmine is always out ...

My phone rang and it was Robbie

"Sorry I was quite and missed your calls had to fetch Aro"

"Yes I will thank you "

"You too"

I read her. Her favorite bedtime story and after she was sleeping I left because Robbie was outside.

I opened for him and we sat on the couch ...

"Stop it Rob you're making me uncomfortable "

"Sorry I couldn't help it"

"Yeah so I need to talk to you "

"If it's about....."

"I want to "

He nodded...

"Aros dad left me before she was born I was a student and almost done with my studies and he was a doctor I mean doing his residency...

We fell in love things were great in the beginning and because I was once told I couldn't have kids I never really thought I'd fall pregnant.

So when we made love I never expected that id fall pregnant...after a while I started feeling strange like the things I loved now had an awful smell"

"oh"

"Shhh Robbie let me finish this....so I went to see a doctor and he confirmed I was indeed 8 weeks pregnant I was excited and scared...I went to tell Leo and he immediately acted weird he said we are not ready for a child etc.

I begged him to help me that we will be okay but he started avoiding me a lot and id cry...then told my mom who told me she thought she taught me well that I should always close my legs...

But my child wasn't a mistake she was a gift I chose not to listen to him and my mother and did my stuff, that's when I met Mr. Mansoor and he hired me...Leo came to me at school and I was happy thinking he wanted to fix things but he gave me money and I thought great we are saving for our child...

No, it was for the abortion I threw the money in his face and went back to my classes...I have this theory if you can call it I believe, love, and trust someone wholeheartedly till they give me a reason to give up on them.

After that I gave up on Leo...and I realized he doesn't love me and never did.

So I focused on myself and my child and work...till now it's been 5 years and I Dont regret it I never saw him again only saw posts of him being married a month after our breakup and he has 2 kids now..."

I kept quite a bit and thought of the moment when I hurt, I would stalk him on Facebook and Instagram till I realized how unhealthy it was how happy he looked with his family while my daughter doesn't know her father or would ever do....how I can't run to him and tell him about her "first times "

She was a smart baby she crawled faster teethed faster and called mama when she was almost a year he missed all those milestones and didn't even care...

A thousand apologies for grammar errors and stuff.....❤️