I picked up my phone and realized it had cracked, I heard his voice saying are you still there and wanted to throw my phone away.

I answered him and told him I'll be there when I'm not busy he said to look for Officer Landon Grey.

I put the phone down and went to check on aro she was still sleeping and I can't wake her up, it was like she heard me because she opened her eyes.

"Morning baby"

"Morning mommy"

"Let's go and bath mommy needs to go Uhmmm somewhere fast and I'm taking you to Glammy granny "

"Why"

"Because mommy has school stuff and you won't go to school for a week so can we get ready please"

"Is aunty Ava there I want to play with Dolphy"

"Do----who" I laughed...

"Her dog "

"Aunty Ava is still at school but yes you'll see her"

"Okay"

Then she got out of bed and I bathed her we had our breakfast.

When we were done she looked at me like she wanted to cry...

"I'll be done soon I promise baby.....please don't look at me like that"

"Okay mommy"

We finally left and drove to Robbie's mom's house.

We found his mom waiting outside sitting on the patio with a cup of chai tea then she saw us, greeted us, and hugged us...

Rudolph came running to us and I carried him...

I stayed with them a bit and when I called Jasmine she said she will come with me.

After 30 minutes she was there and we got in my car.

"So are you ready to do this "Jas asked me...

"Nope"

We drove in silence to the station...

We asked for Officer Landon Grey...

He walked in and Jasmine gasped...

"Nia, is he omg that strawberry birthmark makes him look so sexy?"

"Shhh Jass," I said to her...

"Nia Walker"

I nodded and we walked in silence my heart was beating so fast my palms were sweaty and I felt like I was about to pass out.

We walked into the morgue and he went in first I had to take a deep breath...

He opened the cabinet and unzipped the bag Jasmine squeezed my hand.

"It's not her" I saw from her chest that is not her she has a birthmark just above her right breast almost near her collar bone.

I have the same she called them love marks and we both had them for a reason, that's when she was still a mother.

The lady in the morgue was not my mom...

I was relieved because I need her to explain to me a few things like why didn't she help me when I needed her and why she sold her granddaughter.

I smiled and Jasmine still held my hand...

We walked back to the station and I learned my mom has a drinking problem she always had it but it's been better at least that's what I thought.

Then he dropped a bomb she was into drugs too that explains the money she wanted from Leo...

After he told us I thanked him and decided it's time to go back home...

We walked to the car.

"Grey said I should wait for him here," Jasmine said with the biggest smile on her face.

"Jas"

"What Nia everyone says I should move on and that's what I'm doing"

"Not by wanting to sleep with the officer"

"What the fuck is your problem, Nia "

"You need to stop using new relationships to heal something your ex did Jas"

"I forgot you're a psychologist," she said this rolling her eyes...

"Jasmine you don't know him"

"Exactly I want to get to know him, I don't want to have sex with him yet"

"You need to heal from Tim"

"I know, And you need to deal with your shit your mom fucked up, your daughter suffered it wasn't your fault and Leo you need to sort him out and stop taking  your shit out on me and bottling shit up"

"What"

"I'll use an Uber back home"

She walked off angry...

"Jas"

"Fuck you, Nia"

What just happened? Maybe I'm harsh who am I to measure her healing process based on my own experiences.

She got in and left without talking to the officer who I turned around and saw.

"Sorry you had to see that"

"I have 3 sisters it's nothing " he laughed

"She likes you and I'm scared for her....she's been through a lot  "

"I'm sorry to hear that"

"I'm scared she worked so hard to be okay and I was scared that she...."

"She might end up hurt again," he said

I nodded my head...

"She's like my sister we fight but I love her and it hurt me when I couldn't protect her"

"As much as we think our role as the protective ones is to protect our loved ones, they need to learn some things on their own and grow, we can't stop that we can only pray for them and make sure they always know we will be there when they need us"

Then I cried because everything is just too much for me now and she's right I'm taking it out on her because I don't know how to fix myself.

I gave him her numbers and asked him to call her and to take things slow or I will decapitate him, I threatened a cop..I've officially lost it.

I walked around trying to calm myself down Ava sent a message saying she's home and I was happy.

I stopped at the park it looked peaceful hearing the children laughing and running around gave me so much peace.

I took a deep breath and I prayed I knew I needed strength because I was feeling overwhelmed.

There was an ice cream truck so I bought cookie dough which tasted like heaven, sometimes you just need a minute to breathe.

Someone sat next to me and I was busy enjoying the peace and my ice cream to look at who it was.

"I'm sorry Nia"

I looked and it was a crying Jasmine...

"No, I'm sorry I felt bad because I didn't help you with Tim I was wrong you've been through a lot and you deserve to be happy"

"Thanks, Nia I don't want to feel like that anymore, and today I looked at Landon and I just wanted to know him, I can't explain it"

She put her head on my shoulder and we spoke for hours...laughing and crying.

"I love you Nia "

" I love you too Jas "

She went to work and I went to Robbies house...

"Mommy " aro came running and hugged me she was feeling better.

Ava hugged me and we sat there laughing...

We had dinner and Robbie wasn't around I called him but his phone was off...

His mom convinced us to a sleepover I wasn't in the mood to sleep with Aro alone so I stayed.

I walked to the bedroom and showered then slept aro left with ava and probably having a movie night I didn't want to watch tv I was angry at Robbie...

I drifted off to sleep...

Around 2 am he came in and I woke up...

He went to shower then got to bed he tried to pull me close but I moved...

"Baby," he said

"Please don't talk to me now I might say things I'll regret"

"What's the problem Nia"

"What's the problem ? are you fucken asking me that" I never intended on my voice getting loud but it did...

"I was busy babe it got hectic I was at the studio "

"Too busy to text"

"Baby I'm sorry I know I was wrong "

I got off the bed and walked away he tried to hold me I pushed him away...

I was mad at him....or not I'm not sure but my biggest fear was loving him and having him hurt me I'm always waiting for him to fuck up I'm pretty messed up...

I left and went to have water then walked to the guest room and slept.

I woke up early and made breakfast everyone joined and everyone saw how we were not talking...

I didn't want to talk to him...

"Baby can I have some  bacon"

I handed it to him then after eating everyone left us.

"Babe"

"Babe"

I looked at my phone I showed him a picture of him at the party they went to.

"You hate Luke and I didn't know how to tell you we were going to a party after work"

"I'm glad you had fun with that nasty old shirt " we both looked at each other and laughed...

"Babe"

"You are a grown-ass man Robert "

"I'm sorry I promise I won't do that again"

"You made me promise that we wouldn't keep anything from each other, and then you go behind my back and do the same "

I tried to go but he pulled me close and I gave in and hugged him back...

"I'm sorry baby I'd never hurt you I just needed a moment and got lost in it"

"I get that but please be honest with me"

"I'm sorry okay, seeing Aro in the hospital made me feel like I broke my promise to always protect you guys"

"You are always here Rob that's all we need"

"I'm sorry okay "

"Okay"

We had a good day talking and watching movies.

Maybe I overreacted we spoke a bit more and I told him about my mom he made a few calls and found that she was in prison and would be appearing before court the following day.

Maybe she needed this moment to think about everything I'll go see her tomorrow.

With that, we got in bed and slept peacefully.