Nia

It's been a few weeks since Jasmine got hurt by that idiot the worst part is he is still nowhere to be found.

I got a message from Leo asking to talk, Rob convinced me to go meet him he said maybe I need closure or whatever he said I needed.

I got ready and went to the coffee shop not too far from Robbies mom's house.

I'm staying with them because Jasmine is staying with her parents till she feels better then we will look for a new apartment.

I got there at 10:00 am and ordered coffee I wanted something stronger but remembered it's a coffee shop, not a bar.

11:00 am

He's an hour late and his phone goes straight to voicemail, this is exactly why I gave up on him I never could rely on him.

I was hurt not for me I gave up a while back that he didn't love me but it broke my heart that he still doesn't value his daughter....what kind of a man says he wants to be part of his daughter's life but his actions say the opposite.

God, please help me...

I paid for my coffee and went back to the house to cry, I hate crying for him but I was crying for Aro, of all the men I could have had a kid with it had to be Leo.

I took a nap and ignored all the calls I got, I just needed to rest.

I was woken up by someone opening the door...

"Baby"

"What the hell Robbie I was dreaming of...."

"Who" looking at me with those eyes that melt my heart...

"You"

I laughed and he joined me I told him about that stupid meeting with Leo and he made me feel better.

"I won't be around for 2 weeks will you be okay with these crazy people"

"You mean your mom and Ava"

"Yes baby  but I'll leave my keys just in case you need space"

"Where are you going again"

"Orlando, LA than Chicago for 2 weeks"

"When?"

"Tomorrow"

"I'm going to miss you," I said...

"I'll miss you too but will be back before you know it"

Then we kissed....he has a way of making me forget all the nonsense just with one kiss.

We had Mexican food that night with his family and had so much fun talking, laughing, and eating...

After that nice dinner, I gave their maid the night off and did the dishes because nothing calmed me down like cleaning especially when I'm stressed.

I found Robbie sleeping and I just looked at him.....how did I get so lucky? I joined him on the bed and he immediately pulled me close then kissed my neck and told me he loves me...then we both fell asleep peacefully...

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The following day I woke up first showered and bathed Aro then woke Robbie up because he needed to get ready, I drove him to the airport, damn I was going to miss him little miss Aro was crying for him, my little drama queen after bribing her with sweets I dropped her off at school.

I didn't have work so I went to finalize a few things at school soon I'll be graduating with my Masters in Psychology and was proud of how far I've come.

A few hours later I got a call from Robbie...

"Oh my God Baby," I said to him he had grills on!!!

"I look good huh"

"Not really but break a leg tonight okay we love you"  I lied he looked sexy like really really fucken sexy...

"Ahhh thanks, baby....hows Aro"

"Had to bribe her with skittles and pink hair which she got after school"

"Oh no you turned my baby into a marshmallow," he said ...

"A very cute marshmallow ill send a pic now wait for it"

After laughing for an hour I was able to hang up it wasn't easy though...

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Jasmine's POV

Healing...

I've heard healing has stages I don't know if my stages are like the rest but mine was hard.

At first, I felt numb a bit dead on the inside I could hear everyone telling me I'll be okay but I didn't believe it.

Then the second phase was intense pain the kind of pain that made you feel like you can't breathe, you know I was like a full glass and he was empty.

I thought I could share, I thought he needed a drop but he needed the whole glass I poured on his glass till I had nothing left.

It was so hard because as he drained the life from me and left scars and nothing more he didn't even care...

He left nothing for me...

Who was I before he came into my life how does a single human being have so much power over me?

Therapy sessions were the worst I sat there in the doctor's office staring at her office trying to understand why I'm here I don't want to be here ,I can't be fixed...

I got there feeling empty and went back home feeling worse not because she's not doing her job because I wasn't playing my part I didn't know how to start dealing with this pain.

You're the lucky one most women don't have the luck you had...why doesn't it feel good why don't I believe them?

I had to move back in with my parents after the incident because Tim is still out there he left me there to die and ran such a coward.

My parents got me a new apartment but I still couldn't move in, I haven't told Nia just told her we would look for one, my excuse was for my mom to take care of me but deep down I was terrified.

I see his face everywhere the nightmares never end.

I can't work for now because I haven't completely healed and every time I go out I have this weird feeling someone is watching me.

I hate Tim for making me feel weak he got inside my head, my mom found me breaking stuff in my room and she just held me.

I broke down....it felt like Id never heal...

I didn't stop therapy but changed the previous one and went to Miss Rodriguez.

"Jasmine," she said

"I honestly don't need help I'm, I'm fine Miss...."

"I know you are "

I looked at her that's when I realized what she was doing I smiled...

"The truth is I'm scared, scared that Tim wanted to kill me and didn't I just feel numb I never wanted a relationship I was fine not being tied down to one person, and he came and changed it all I wanted to be worthy of his love, he made me feel like I can love again till we fought and he would make me feel stupid and small"

"If he was here what would you say to him"

"Honestly I don't know"

"Okay that's fine tell me about the guy who made you fall in love for the first time"

"Antonio was my first everything"

"hmmm"

"He got deported with his family and I never heard anything from him, not once did he try to explain things, I felt stupid and used now he wants us to talk to me I think it's too late for that"

"You were never the problem"

"Should I ?"

"Only you know the answer to that question"

After we wrapped it up I got a message from Antonio and I agreed to meet him.

I got home and got dressed in a dress but remembered that night saw my scars so I changed into my ripped jeans, top, and denim jacket.

I did a high ponytail I didn't want to do anything else my scar was visible and I had to fight back the tears that wanted to spill each time I saw it.

I got to the restaurant and ordered wine I needed wine to get through this and he came in looking hot what the fuck happened in these past 10 years...

We hugged and sat down I was scared I didn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry jazzy"

"You don't get to call me that anymore"

"I'm sorry for everything"

"For what lying to me saying you love me when you didn't?

" I felt like I failed you I didn't know how to fix it so I disappeared and thought it was easier you would get someone else"

"That's stupid of you "

"Yes it was I fought to come back for you the truth is I never got over you I searched for Jasmine in all the women I dated and didn't find her I messed up a lot "

"I'm not the Jasmine you used to date in high school I've grown and changed so No we can't go back or start from scratch, the way you left kind of made me see the truth"

"Which is?"

"We were never meant to be, the old Jasmine would be all over you because you look so fucken hot but for once in my life, I don't want to be that Jasmine anymore so no"

I got up and got ready to leave...

"Wait, Jasmine"

"I am really sorry for everything," he said

"Me too Antonio"

I kissed his cheek and left ...

I didn't want to look back because the Jasmine from high school wanted to run back to him and kiss him telling him how much she missed him but, I couldn't I needed to break this cycle, this mess I'm not the same girl anymore and this was the first step to the right direction, I can't heal these wounds by not learning from why it was there in the first place.

I got home and found my mom...

"Mom"

"How's  my baby"

"I'm better Miss Rodriguez, helped me "

"That's great"

"Mom I'm sorry for putting you all through this okay"

"You don't get to apologize okay you fell in love he's the asshole"

"Thank you mom "

"Finding yourself is messy and full of stupid decisions you just learn from them and never stop because you aren't defined by your weak moments"

I nodded my head and reminded her I love her.

I slept better than the other times I felt much better.

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I got woken up by my mom she had a worried look so I asked her what's up and that's when she said those 3 words I never wanted to hear.

"We found Tim"

"What?where?"

"Dont worry about that if you want closure now it's the time because I'm afraid he won't..." I cut her off

"Okay I'll go shower"

She waited for me while I got ready then we drove to the police station.

We went straight to his cell and I saw him, I was screaming on the inside and just looked at him.

"Tim...."

He just looked at me and didn't say anything, he had bruises on his face his one eye was swollen almost like mine was when he nearly killed me...

Then we sat there looking at each other he still kept quiet, I had questions but I knew I'd never get answers.

So I told him bye and left.

Did I get the closure I'm not sure he couldn't even apologize for nearly killing me, for lying to me and telling me he loves me he couldn't apologize for the emotional scars he's left?

I heard him scream my name my dad was in there probably killing him.

I got in my mom's car and it was a silent drive I was happy she didn't force any conversation I didn't know what to say.

I knew that I had closed that chapter in my life and I need to heal and move on I deserve it...right?