They hate me so much don't they? I'm the reason they're hurting. They say it's not me but.. if that's the case then why do they keep saying it's me? 2:30 am

She won't stop touching me, it's not okay. I don't want her here but I deserve it don't i? 12:20 pm

It's my fault. I know I need to eat but I can't and I'm scared. Why am I panicking? I just want to feel okay. They hate me they hate me. God im so fucking stupid. Why do I keep talking? Everything hurts and I don't want to get up. 8:10 pm