The anger is back again I have to say
I'm angry at them mostly
Angry at them always leaving
When they get bored
Angry at the excuses they all gave
Angry for letting myself trust them
Only to remember why I forbid myself
From trusting yet another person
Somehow this keeps happening
Yet I'm not doing this again
I can't do things like this anymore
Sure I give my advice or comfort
I ask for nothing in return
Besides I never let them return the favor
They take it and leave
They might feel better
I only feel emptier
Because I know it won't last
Nothing ever seems to
I never had much faith in others
I mentally prepare myself for everything
So all I feel is numbness when they leave
Of course I'll be mad a few days after
But it only fades to being numb again
No sadness
No guilt
No nothing
I guess because I already expected what
They would say and do because
Nothing ever lasts forever

7/12/17