All my life I've been a coward

That's something I'll admit

I'm weak and vulnerable

I let everyone hurt me

and do nothing about it

I'm afraid of growing up

I don't want to

having to be responsible

mature

stressed

It's to much

in three years I'll be on my own to collage

time is going by to fast

I'm going to be alone and anxious

I don't want to grow up

I can't stop time

I can't hit pause on my clock

very minute tiks by

fears grow

I'm getting older

I can't do this

I'm trying so hard

I really am

you wouldn't believe me though

every step of progress I take

is only a dust speck gone

in my eyes I see improvement and a bit more

but when I take a step back

or when I turn away and look back again

all I see is disappointment and failure

nothing I do makes an impact

the more I try the harder it gets

it'll get 1 pound lighter but 5 more pounds get added on

and as time passes

and I get a minute older

the stress and anxiety gets worse

I'm trying but I can't...

worst of all

I don't know who I am

I know what I like

what I look like

my hobbies

but myself image

and myself as a human

I have no fucking clue

and the fear of not knowing sucks

the anxiety that comes off of this is terrible

I don't know why I just pour my heart and soul out to you guys...

You all have better things to do...

Better lives to live...

But I just do

I'm sorry