Three months later.

"Everything seems perfectly fine to me. How are you doing Mr Fox?" Henry smiles thinking for the last three months have been perfect for him. His relationship with Alex had grew more intimate now they had sexual intercourse, his and his siblings made peace with their mother's death although Phillip never laid a flower or a glance on her graves each time they'd visit.

"Good, everything's good." Henry replied and the doctor took a deep sigh of relief before he stood up from the chair. "I'll guess this is the end then. It's nice seeing you all healed up. Take care of yourself." He handed out his hand for Henry and he smiled shaking it. "Thank you for everything." Henry says and the doctor nods before he left the room.

Henry took a deep breath feeling a huge wave of relief spreading warmth through his chest. Alex is just outside waiting for him despite his attempt to be with him in the room but he respected Henry's privacy being examined alone without his presence in the room.

A soft knock heard from the door and Henry smiled when Alex peaked his head inside to see if Henry is alright. "Can I come in?" He asks and Henry smiled nodding at him. He sat on the examination table with his legs dangling few inches above the floor when Alex entered and closed the door behind him. He rushed towards Henry on the bed caging him in between his arm before pressing his lips on Henry's lips.

"Hai." He greeted Henry after parted their lips apart leaving Henry's lips swollen and not too mention breathless.

"Hai." Henry replied but laughs when he saw how cheery and playful Alex is being and they both acted like a couple of drunken lover in their youth especially when Alex kissed him over and over by the lips and cheeks. "Wait, what did the doctor said?" Alex pushed himself abruptly from Henry's lips forgotten why he was here in the first place. Henry shrugs licking his lips with a soft smile on his face.

"Nothing. Said I'm good. No more appointments." He says earning Alex a cheered 'yes' before pressing his lips again. "Let's go. I think Bea is done as well." Alex says puling Henry off from the bed by his waist and he giggled at Alex hyper activeness. They ran off towards the other floor of the hospital trying to locate Bea in one of the pediatric clinic. Today Hope got her four months check up and Bea is taking her for her vaccine appointment while Henry had his last appointment for his past surgery.

"There!" Alex yelled pointing at the end of the hallway with Henry's hand still clasped on each other when they saw Bea carrying Hope in her arm talking to the doctor on her way out. Henry noticed how loud Alex's voice was when he yelled out Bea's name and it shocked the rest of the people in the waiting area.

Bea smiles when she sees them both running towards her and Alex immediately holding his arm out reaching for Hope. Henry smiles when Hope didn't even give a second thoughts when Alex reached out his arm for her and she dive in immediately with a toothless smile.

"Hi cutie pie. Did she cry?" Alex asks swaying Hope in his arm while Henry grinning besides him. "She is amazing." Bea replied smiling happily at Hope in Alex's arm laughing at him swaying her side to side.

"Did you cry?" Henry asks and Bea clicked her tongue shoving Henry on his shoulder, "Shut up!" She yells. Both Henry and Alex glanced at each other before breaking into a laughs. "That's a yes." They both laughed at her again and punched her fist against Henry's arm earning him a yelped.

They both waited in the waiting room with Henry peaking his head behind Alex playfully for Hope while Alex held her in his arm. Bea on the other hand is sorting out her next appointment with the nurse at the counter by the registration.

"She's so cute." One of the lady in the waiting room said earning both Henry and Alex attention. "Yeah, she is." Henry says waving Hope's rattles that Phillip had specially made for her. "I assumed she is yours?" The lady asks again and Henry shot up his head towards her with a furrowed eyebrow.

"Uhm-" Henry was too stunned to reply but the lady continued. "Do you think it's wise to have a child at such a young age?" Henry looked up to meet Alex confused gaze with their mouth fell apart speechless. "I don't think that's any of your business lady." Alex told her and he could see it made her furious.

"How would you take care of a child when you can't even get your sexuality straight? Homosexual is a sin." She whispered the last part and Henry could see rage fuming from Alex's eyes when he heard her. "Look, madam-" Henry tried to ease the burnt but Alex cut him off.

"Who the fuck you think you are?! Telling people that being gay is a sin? Mind your own business!" Alex stood holding Hope in his arm and Henry stops him from exploded further at the unknown lady especially when he came out with more forbidden vocabulary in front of these children.

"Babe, don't." Henry stops him from charging at her with Hope in his arm. "Go with Bea. Please." He whispered pressing his palm over Alex's chest feeling the rage pulsating from his touch. He could see Alex's clenching his jaw tight breathing rapidly with his arms wrapped tightly around Hope. "Go." Henry whispers and Alex turned his glance over to the lady behind Henry.

Alex huffed in anger with his eyes burning holes staring at the lady's face before he stormed out of the waiting room. Henry sighed watching as he walked out and turned on his heels to face the lady again. "Some temper your boyfriend has. Make sure he didn't laid a hand on you or your baby. He's handsome but that's a deal breaker." She adds and Henry sighed further tilting his head up.

"You know what else is a sin?" Henry starts and she retracts herself. "What?" She asks blindly and Henry took a step closer leaving a foot between them before he speaks. "Murder." He whispered leaning into her ear and smiled sheepishly when she widen her eyes in terror.

"Mind your own business. You never knew, maybe someday, one of your brats might ended up on his knees, sucking a black cock and you're hiding behind your Lord wishing you would have done something to make him straight." Henry lowered his gaze towards the boy next to her playing with her phone games. He was relieved when the lady sat back down on the chairs shutting her mouth in silence and Henry smiles. "Have a good day madam." He wishes before turning on his heels and headed to find Alex and Bea.

Henry found Alex by the corner staring at the glass door with Bea behind it signing off the appointments. He came by his side startling him by a soft touches on his arm and he sighed after he saw Henry smiles next to him.

"Don't." He warned and Henry shook his head, "I didn't say anything." He smiles when Alex turned his head sharply at him. "Freaking pisses me off when people think they are entitled at saying sh- stuffs in their head." He corrected himself feeling Hope burning her gaze staring at him in rage before cursing right in front of her.

"Come here sweetheart. We don't want your first word to be sh- stuffs too don't we? Or your mum would hanged us both." Henry says picking Hope from Alex's grip and he could feel him rolling his eyes at him.

"All done, let's go?" Bea asks and she could see how Alex pouting by the corner and Henry had Hope on his waist refused to put her down in the stroller. "Yeah, think we need ice cream when we got home, right babe?" He asks turning his head over to Alex leaning against the wall behind him and he sighed rolling his eyes at him, again.

As soon as they got home, Henry ran off to grab a couple of Cornetto's in his hand from the kitchen before he pulled them towards his room. He pushed Alex into the room locking the door behind him before he pushed him towards the long couch and Alex sighed longly leaning his back against the soft leather cushion.

"Forget about her." Henry says yelling from his bathroom washing his hand off before he walked back to see Alex staring into spaces with his head leaned back against the couch. He stood from behind him caging Alex's head in between his arms before he leaned himself to kiss him on his forehead. "Forget about her." He repeats in whispers stroking his cheek and Alex sighed into his palm.

"I can't get it out of my head." He whispered and Henry stares at his beautiful eyelashes. "Which part bothers you the most? Maybe I could be of help." Henry says folding his elbow over the couch next to him as he leaned his body.

"Everything. The audacity, the sins, the whole sexuality thing." He whispered the last part and Henry sighs straightening his back. "Are you thinking of being- straight?" He asks curiously and Alex lifted his gaze at Henry and noticed how his face dropped at the thought. Henry felt uneasiness settling in the pit of his stomach when Alex didn't reply and do what he did best at the moment. He tried to flee.

But he didn't expect Alex to jump abruptly hooking his arm around Henry's waist from behind the couch and swung him over landing on top of Alex. He gasped at the sudden swift movement especially when Henry tried to fix his posture, Alex pulls him back letting him straddled him on the couch and he caught him blushing by his gesture.

He felt Alex's finger lifted his chin and their eyes finally locked into one another. "Why would I go for a woman when I had the man of my dreams?" He whispered and Henry's eyebrow soften at his words. Alex leaned his lips closer but barely left an inch before he smiles, "You are by far the best sex I had in my entire life." Henry snorted blushing at his words but pressed his lips deep on Alex's mouth while straddling him on the couch.

Their kiss deepened and Henry felt a rapid growth inside his pants when he grind his hips against Alex. He heard him groaned pressing his palms further into Henry's hips and they're panting in their own breaths with Alex traced his lips down on Henry's neck.

Henry moaned strained his neck further letting Alex do wonders by his lips. He gasped at the feeling of Henry's finger brushes through his curly hair. Henry loves on each tugged made Alex moaned and he bucked his hips higher against Henry. They would have gone further if they weren't startled by a loud knock interrupted them from their heating kisses and Henry yells, "WHAT?!"

"Uhm- sir. Your brother had requested your downstairs, immediately." Charles soft voice bounced from behind the door and Henry sighed apologetically for yelling at him. "Coming." Henry says and he saw the shadow from under the door disappear and turned his gaze back at Alex and saw he was grinning at him.

"What?" Henry asks innocently and Alex gripped his waist closing their hips together. "Are we coming or not?" He asks and Henry rolled his eyes pushing his chest back. "Stop. Phillip's waiting." He says pulling himself off but Alex held him tighter on his lap. "We got time." Alex whispered pulling Henry by his neck sealing their lips again.

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"You guys are unbelievable!" Phillip yells the moment they stepped into the room with messy hair and flushed face. "What? Aren't you the one that told me to enjoy my life as it should?" Henry banter and Phillip sighed turning his gaze towards Alex next to Henry. "WE got some news." He says and they all turned their heads towards Martha sitting next to Bea holding Hope in her arms.

"Oh God, Pip knocked you up too?" Henry asks and Bea laughed at Pip's and Martha's reaction, "NO!" Phillip yelled and Henry retracts behind Alex before he decides to hurt him. "We have decided to do our wedding here. Quiet, family only." Martha continues seeing how infuriated Phillip were at Henry.

"That's awesome. The garden is beautiful for an outdoor wedding. Plus you only need your family to be here and we all set." Alex adds and Henry turned his gaze next to him, "We could invite yours. If it's alright with Pip of course." He says glancing at his brother and Alex smiles next to him. "I don't think it's appropriate. It's not my wedding, it's-" Bea stood abruptly carrying Hope in her arm and she held out for Alex. He smiled when she did and grabbed her from Bea's grip.

"You are family. Your parents are the closest thing we have for ours. They cared more than our mum ever did Alex. Right Pip?" They all turned to watch Phillip standing next to Martha on the couch. He smiled placing his palm over her shoulder and she palm hers over his.

"Of course. Who do you think marrying us if it wasn't Oscar?" Alex smiled grew when he heard Phillip. "They're coming here?" He asks and Phillip nods. "In few days, we need to get this place arranged for a wedding. You'll help us right?" He asks and he smiled nodding at him happily. "Happy too." Alex says smiling.

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"Can we talk about earlier?" Henry asks later that night when he saw Alex walking in from his bathroom drying his curly wet hair with his towel and he look fresh coming out of shower. Henry sat on the edge of the bed in his shorts and his plain shirt while Alex still has his towel hanged low on his waist revealing his sculpted abs. "About what?" He asks tossing the towel from his head on the bed next to him.

"The lady at the clinic?" Henry starts and he could hear Alex groaned in frustration headed towards his mirror table and applied his face cream for the night. Alex routine had become mundane to Henry watching how he manages himself each morning or night bathing in those sunscreen or facial oils and moisturizer. Alex didn't say anything except staring at the mirror before him.

Henry watches how the light from the mirror bounced on his skin brightened up his brown eyes and his eyelashes creates shadows on his cheek when he lowered his gaze. "There's nothing to talk about Hen." He continued and Henry sighed before he walked towards Alex and stood behind him, facing their reflection on the mirror ahead of them.

"Rage is an ugly thing. Keep bottling it up, it will explode." Henry leaned next to Alex's ear with his arm wrapped around his bare chest. He could feel Alex sighed in relief upon his touch and when he kissed his neck, he moaned leaning his head back against Henry's chest.

"I'm just frustrated that people can seem to think that everything they said is valid and simply annoys me that she thinks she knows our lives. One glanced and she thought she knew us by the tip of her finger. What makes she thinks that she is entitled to what she had said about us?" Alex clenched his jaw tight squeezing the bottle into his palm angrily but Henry grabbed it instead.

"Hen, I don't want to talk about this anymore. Please." He pleads but Henry decides to circle around the chair and sat on Alex's lap instead. He groaned since he's still in his towel when Henry pressed his hips closer but sighed resting his arm around Henry's waist.

Henry squeezed the bottle into his palm before rubbed it together and starts massaging it over Alex's face. He sighed relaxing in Henry's soft warm palm as he stroked his fingers all over his face.

"I know you're upset. I was too before remember? People took advantage on me, taking the one thing that was supposed to be my choice. My own mother drugged me in my sleep cause she thought I needed it." Henry whispered and Alex could hint a break in his voice.

"But you didn't." He continued. "You stood by me, every step of the way. No matter what I did. You respected my choice. You listened to everything I said. So let me be here for you." Henry whisper cupping Alex's cheek in his palm. He sighed leaning against Henry forehead and their nose curved fits perfectly into each other.

"I wished I could do something to change the world." He whispered and Henry smiles before leaning his lips. "You will babe. One day." Their breaths hitched and their lips sealed into a kiss. Alex moaned when Henry reached his hand cupping the growing member from underneath his soft cotton towel. "Ahh.." He gasped when Henry stroked his member in his hand firmly letting Alex moaned in his lips.

Alex exhaled a breaths feeling Henry's hand sped up on his length before he pushed his wrist away. Henry was surprised but later Alex grabbed his legs and stood abruptly carrying Henry towards their bed, still straddling Alex with his legs locked around Alex's waist. He pulled his own shirt off while Alex sat himself on the edge of Henry's bed with Henry on his lap but his towel is long forgotten and his hard member is pressing against their collides body.

He pulled Henry's shorts off and Henry stood up abruptly from Alex's lap and later he walked around naked to the side of his bed opening his drawer. He came around straddling Alex again with condom in between his finger before he ripped it opened. Alex leaned back stretching his arms out on the mattress letting Henry rolled on the condom over his shaft.

Henry had became an expert on this and Alex won't deny how proud he is at thriving at his life. Few months ago he thought he would have lost him. Henry being depressed and his life is literally on the line and he would never thought how their lives would have turned out this way.

Henry spat on his forefinger before he guides Alex's wet slippery tip into his entrance and Alex watched how his shaft disappear into Henry's and they both moaned feeling the pleasure into each other. Henry exhaled out his breaths as he lowered himself feeling Alex's cock filling him on the inside. He leaned forward holding on to Alex's neck with their forehead collides.

"You are good." Henry whispered in each thrust and Alex locked his gaze deep into Henry's hazel one. "You are enough, for me. For us." Henry says again stroking his thumb over his cheek. Alex gaze into Henry's eyes and felt his own eyes flooded with tears. He exhaled feeling Henry's thrust became sloppier and he flipped them both laying Henry on his back and he slides deeper into him.

Henry wrapped his legs over Alex's waist feeling him thrusting himself deeper into Henry. Alex felt the urge to come soon when he thrust faster into Henry and the way Henry look writhing underneath him with his eyes pleading, his mouth fell apart with his thick lips flushed from their kisses, it brought him to his own release.

"I love you." Henry says before pulling Alex by his waist deepening his thrust and Alex felt him coming by Henry's bucking his hips closing his thrust.

"F-Fuck. I love you." Alex whispered before sealing his lips into Henry and released inside the condom feeling the same warmth on his torso from Henry's released. They both pants in their breaths with Alex still laid weak on top of Henry and whole night, Henry had assured him that he is a good and worthy enough for him, especially for him.

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Three days later.

"Mum!" Alex screamed from the top of the stairs running down to greet his mum and Oscar walking into the mansion with Shan arranging the staffs to grab their bags. Their old room they stayed before still available for them and Phillip had the staff cleaned up for their arrival.

Alex run towards Ellen hugs feeling almost as if they haven't met in weeks but truth is, they didn't. The last time Ellen was here, he was all over the place, worrying about Henry coming out of surgery and not too mentioned his depressive behavior after he got home.

"I miss you baby. June send her regards and she's sorry she couldn't come. She need to cover her work place but she promised she'll visit soon enough." Ellen says after he kissed him on his cheek and he could see her eyes glistened before he pulls away to hug Oscar next to him. "We miss you so much mijo. Don't get too comfortable living here or you won't want to come home." He warned him and Alex chuckles at his words. "I won't! I miss Texas, I miss Mexican food so much." He says with his face reminisce the time he had back when he was home.

"We know." She says tapping on Oscar's arm and he grabbed a piece of paper from his coat pocket. "What's that?" Alex asks and Oscar smiled turning his head towards Ellen next to him. "Let's make tonight's dinner a little festive shall we?" He says handing the list to him and he read through the list. His eyes widen before he turned his gaze back at Oscar and wrapped himself around him abruptly almost knocked him off from the ground.

"Thank you!" He gripped the paper in his hand and Ellen smiled widely at his reaction. "It was Henry's idea." She says and Alex eyes lifted from the paper towards his mum. "Where is he?" She asks and Alex shrugs, "Garden probably, with Hope." He answered before stealing the list from them and find Charles to handed it to him. The list contained everything they need to make Mexican food and Barbecue including which part of the meat he needed from the market. Alex trust that Charles will have this by lunch time so they would have time to prepare it and remembering their last horrible Thanksgiving, Alex knew Oscar is a great cook.

Oscar followed Alex to meet with Charles and Ellen decides she wants to see Henry and Hope hopefully. Bea is at work and so does Phillip so she assumed Henry and Alex were alone with Hope in this mansion with the servants.

She stepped out from the mansion east side door when she spotted Henry sitting underneath the big willow tree raising his arm with Hope in the air. She cackled each time Henry lifted her up and kissed her on her cheeks.

"Gosh look how fast she grew." Ellen words startled Henry from his playtime with Hope and he smiled widely at her walking towards him. "Ellen, hai." He greeted her before she took a seat on the ground next to him leaning against the bark. Henry wanted to say something, maybe apologizing to her for a start but his throat froze and he couldn't find the correct word to say it so he remained silent.

"How are you my dear?" She asks after a while sitting in silence and Henry turned to finally look at her face. "Fine. I'm good." He answered simply turning his head back to Hope on his lap facing them both. "How's Alex doing?" She asks pinching Hope on her cheek and she smiles at her.

"He's great. Amazing as always." Henry smiles when she leaned towards her and she grabbed Hope from Henry's lap. "You both had that same effect on her." Henry says and Ellen turned to look at him with a furrowed gaze. "What do you mean?" She asks bouncing her on her lap. Her chubby legs won't stop squirming on Ellen's thigh as she held her by her arms.

"Whenever Alex near, she would go for him rather than me or her own mother. She chose him over everyone else." Henry smiles when she wrapped her chubby fist into her mouth and drool covered all over her chin and neck. Ellen smiles wiping her soaking chin with her thumb and didn't utter any other words.

"I'm sorry." Henry whispered softly next to her without a glance and she smiles, "I was being selfish the way I treated you, after everything you did for me." Ellen sighed resting Hope on her lap before raising her arm over Henry's shoulder. He stiffed by her sudden affection but soon relaxed when he knew Ellen won't let him go easily. He exhaled his breaths leaning his head over her shoulder inhaling her scent feeling his own rapid heartbeat slowed in paced. "Listen here Hen." She starts with her gaze forward on the wild dandelion covered ground.

"I know you missed her. I know you're also were angry at her for taking your life like that. I can see the longing for mother's touch in Phillip's eyes whenever he sees me. But that hatred he had for her, I saw it when he sees you." Ellen gaze turned to Henry next to her and he looked up to meet her eyes. "I know it's been hard to come back to the last place where you hurt your love one. Which is why I know why you keep hiding yourself in your room." Henry lowered his gaze down staring at Hope played with Ellen's ring on her finger.

"Alex told you?" He asks and she hummed in respond. "I didn't tell anyone this before but the day after our Thanksgiving dinner is ruined, I was at my kitchen for hours trying to figure out what went wrong." Henry remembered that day, the day Alex came back to the dorm. He was devastated. Henry remembers hearing him crying himself to sleep which is the reason why he annoyed him more to make him forgets but somehow deep down Alex cured his own broken heart by tending to Henry's broken one and they both healed each other, until-

"Alex gone in the middle of the night, I was so worried and I had to call his father and finally he told me that he went back to Stanford. I remembered cleaning up the kitchen with Oscar trying to put all the pieces back together but nothing will ever be the same. You can put the broken glass back together but you can't ever healed the crack that happened. You'll still see them."

Henry felt a tear dropped down on his cheek remembering each time he enters the music room the only thing he would be reminded of was the look on Bea's and Martha's face. He knew they both forgave him months ago but still his words came flooded his mind, haunting him in his dream. Then he remembers the way he pushed Alex on the ground and the way he screamed for pain makes his heart hurts thousand times more.

He was startled when Hope reached her small chubby hands on his cheek. Henry saw her pleading big blue eyes staring at him as she stares at Henry in tears. "I'm fine darling." He says wiping his tears and Ellen smiles. "See? Even Hope knows that you're trying too hard. Maybe tried to give yourself some slack. You earned it." Henry laughs nodding at her before they both were interrupted.

"Mum, you are here not more than an hour and already making my boyfriend upset?" Alex voice startled them and Henry immediately wiped his tears hiding it from Alex but he knew he seen enough. "I did no such thing!" Ellen defends while Alex laid himself on the ground with his head on Henry's lap. Henry laughs when he pucker his lips for his kiss but Henry smacked his palm over Alex's mouth.

"Stop! Give me a kiss." He pulled Henry's palm off from his mouth and Henry leaned down to pack his lips over Alex's. "Are you okay?" Alex asks still had his hand over Henry's neck and he smiled nodding at him softly. "I'm fine." He whispered before he leaned for another kiss.

They were both interrupted when suddenly Hope slapped Alex's forehead with her chubby palms and he groaned in pain. "Ow!" He yelped but Hope laughs when she heard Alex screamed. "Oops, sorry." Ellen grabbed her away from smacking Alex forehead again and he turned abruptly to face her. "You little misfit aren't ya!" Alex grabbed her before he blew his lips over her stomach and her neck making her laughs hysterically being ticklish by his gesture.

Henry and Ellen smiles, laughing at Alex tickling Hope in his arm before he laid back on Henry's lap with Hope sitting on his stomach. Today was a good day for him and especially for Henry. He can see his eyes brightened each day and he counted his blessing for more good day to come.

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in between the stiffness of the wrist, the words created. 

in each headaches, the story is written.

in between those blurry visions, error and misspells were missed. 

for that I'm sorry. But...

in each breath took, the tightness grew.

in each sleepless night, dream worsen.

I accept the reality is bad but does dream have to be horrible too?

where else can I escape if both is a nightmare?

in each awake, resentment creates.

in each regret of waking up, there's guilt. 

each breath that we took became heavier with the burden of holding on.

If only we could see how many breaths we could have last..

maybe then we would appreciate more waking up each day. 

or maybe holding on to hope to see the sequel created would last us longer. 

but the thought of living that long made me go back to my first thought. 

just fucking die already.