a/n : this chapter might be triggering so trigger warning

3rd POV
Luna barges into the Kim household and sees Mrs. Kim along with her husband and Baekhyun on the couch with sad faces on.
Jungkook, Jimin, Hoseok, Jin and Rose walks in as well.
Baekhyun stands up and hugs Luna.

"Where is he?" Luna asks softly.

Glancing over to his parents, Luna's heart clenches.
Tae's mom was so pale with tears in her eyes in the embrace of her husband who was also sad.

"He's upstairs. He doesn't want to come out of his room. The only signs of life was that post on Insta." Baekhyun confesses.

Luna sighs and give him a small smile.
He signals the rest of the boys and Rose to follow her to Tae's room.

Upon reaching, Luna tries to twist the handle.
With no luck, it was locked.
Hoseok knocks on the door.

"Tae? Could you please open the door?" Hoseok asks.

Nothing.

They lean into the door and press their ears against it.
Soft whimpers and sobs were heard from behind the door.
This time Rose knocks.

"Tae bear. Please boo. Open the door." Rose pleads, even using Tae's nicknames.

Soft footsteps were heard approaching the door.
The group sighs in happiness, mentally thanking Rose.
The door opens revealing a messed up Tae.

Hair in all directions.
Eye bags heavy and dark.
Swollen, red eyes that were filled with tears.
His face red from all the crying which was filled with tears.
His lips in a shape of a pout.
An oversized shirt hung from his shoulder revealing his collarbones on his right.

"Rosie..." Tae whispers as he falls into Rose's embrace.

"Tae? Tae?" Rose frantically says.

Luna places her hands on Tae.

"He fainted. Let's put him into bed. He'll wake up soon." Luna sighs sadly.

She hasn't seen Tae like this since...since well, that's the past.
But that was even worst.
This was just the scrape on the ice.

~ time skip to half an hour later ~

Half an hour later, Tae wakes up being surrounded by his friend.
He smiles but soon tears spill out.
Remembering what he had seen from his so called 'precious boyfriend'.

A soft sob escapes his mouth that caught everyone off guard.
Jimin runs to Tae's side and engulfs him in a hug.
The rest of the group walks over and looks at Tae.

"Shhh Tae. Tell us what happened. What's wrong?" Jimin whispers.

Tae sobs even louder.
Luna rubs Tae back as Rose holds his hand for support.
Jin grabs some tissues.
Hoseok and Jungkook nods reassuringly at Tae.

"I-I um..." Tae whimpers.

"Take your time babe." Luna whispers.

~ flashback ~
[from what Tae saw]

Tae was happily walking down town with a bouquet of roses in his hand and a large, beautiful smile plastered on his face.
Yoongi had planned a date with Tae today.
Tae had shooting and Yoongi had to finish up some songs.
So they had agreed to meet up for lunch and go from there.

Excitedly, Tae bounced up and down.
Spotting the cafe at the end of the street, Tae quickened his steps.

He saw Yoongi talking to a man but didn't think much of it.

As soon as he walked into the cafe, his heart shattered into pieces.
He dropped the bouquet and tears started to build up in his eyes.

There, he saw his boyfriend, Yoongi, kissing another man.

"H-hyung..." Tae whimpered loud enough for Yoongi to hear.

Yoongi pushed the man off.
The man smirked.

"T-Tae...Its n-not what you think." Yoongi says softly and steps closer to Tae but Tae backed away.

"N-no hyung. Y-you've made yourself very cl-clear." Tae whimpered even more as the event replayed in his mind.

Tae slowly backed away and ran out of the store leaving a very sad Yoongi.

But the thing that was playing in Yoongi mind was : 'Please forgive me Tae. It's really not what you think.'

Tears dripped down his face knowing that he just lost the one person that gave him light in his darkness.
He lost the one person that could cheer his up.
The one person that would and could tolerate him.
The one person that he could love and show love to.

And with those thoughts he broke down crying in the middle of the cafe.

~ end of flashback ~

Tae ends up sobbing after explaining to them what had happened.

"TaeTae hyung?Do you really think Yoongi hyung would do such a thing? I'm pretty sure that he loves you with all his heart." Jungkook asks Tae softly worried that he'll hurt the poor boy.

Tae stops sobbing and stands up.
The group is alarmed by this and looks at Tae.
Tae walks to the bathroom and closes the door softly.
He slowly sits down as thinks about what Jungkook had said.

But you're probably not worth it.

You're probably a burden to him.

I mean, you've always need him.

It's time he moved on.

Useless child.

Tears stream down his face at the toxic thoughts.
He rummages through the drawers and grabs the one thing he need to clears his mind of off things.

A shiny silver blade.

He presses the blade into his right wrist.
Applying more pressure onto the blade to create a cut.
Blood seeps out from inside as the first 3 cuts were made.

Tears falling from his eyes.
Because of the pain of the cute that he hadn't done in a long time.
Because of his toxic thoughts.
Because of the thoughts that Yoongi doesn't need him anymore.
Because of him just thinking why on earth he was doing this.

Another 2 cuts were made.
Suddenly there was banging on the bathroom door.

"Taehyung. Open this door right now. I know what you're doing so don't lie to me." Luna sharply says scaring the brunette.

"He doesn't n-need me Luna. I'm n-nothing to him." Tae whimpers.

"Please open this door Tae. I can help. We can help." Luna softens her tone.

Tae reluctantly opens the door.
Luna walks in with the rest behind her.
She kneels down and takes a hold on Tae right wrist.

The boys and Rose gasp in shock.
They never thought that Tae would go to an extent of cutting.
They would never have guessed that he was one to cut.

"Can you guys shut the door and wait in Tae's bedroom. I'll clean this and be right back." Luna speaks softly to the group.

The boys and Rose nods and backs away slowly shutting the door.

"Why Tae? Why are you doing this?" Luna whimpers as she runs water on Tae's wrist.

Tae hisses as the water caresses his bloody wrist.

"I'm g-getting t-the thoughts a-again Luna. I b-believed it. B-but I really do t-think that Y-Yoongi hyung doesn't w-want or n-need me anymore." Tae whispers sadly.

Luna listens as she wraps bandages around Tae cuts and giving him a pill to take with water.

Tae takes the pill and gulps it down with water.
Luna guides Tae to the bed and almost immediately he shuts down into dreamland.

Luna caresses his hair as the group watches carefully.
Suddenly tears run down her face.
Rose hugs her from behind.

"What's wrong Luna?"

"It's a-about Tae. He's done this before but worst." Luna whispers.

The rest cover their mouths in horror.
What could be worst?

"This is just the starting or barely the beginning. He has these thoughts. Bad ones that criticises him. He managed to push them off long ago. But when ever he's sad, they'll just come and ruin everything. He found out that cutting was a way to make them stop. He could also just talk them out but Tae is one to bottle up his emotions." Luna let's out a weak whimper.

"W-what caused a-all th-these thought?" Hoseok asks reluctantly.

"A really bad experience in the past. I ra-rather not tell. He should tell you. Not me." Luna says as she wipes her tears.

Soft snores exited Tae's lips.
The rest smile at the cuteness.

"What do you think we should do to fix this?" Jungkook asks.

Rose, who is sitting beside Jimin with her head on his shoulder, holding his hand perked up.

"How about we bring them to a cafe and let them talk about it. That way they can clear the air." Rose suggests.

"Great idea sweetie. But how?" Jin asks.

"I'll bring Tae out for some coffee and we'll go to that cafe that he loves. Someone can bring Yoongi." Luna responds.

"I'll bring him." Hoseok smiles.

"We'll meet each other and say hi and then we'll go disappear. They'll be alone so they're bound to talk about what happened." Luna smiles.

The rest smiles at the idea.

"You think that'll work?" Jimin asks.

"I'm sure. Me and Hoseok will be there in case something goes wrong." Luna assures.

"I hope you're right." Jimin says.

Their gaze falls onto the sleeping Tae.
Luna leans down and kisses his forehead.

"It'll all be better soon, I promise." Luna whispers into Tae ear.

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