you groaned in annoyance as you had accidentally smudged your eyeliner again. it's been a good three attempts and the fierce make up look was still not up to your liking. it didn't help that sasha was in the restroom with you getting ready as well that made you feel as if she was watching you. after what seemed like another hour of struggling, which in reality was only 10 minutes, you were finally satisfied enough. you completed the look with some inner corner glitter eyeshadow and added some lip tint on your lips.

"y/n, you get hotter by the day." sasha openly flirts as she pulls a brush through her brown locks. "i know we just met a week ago, but i think i'm in love with you."

you laugh, tying up your hair. you wanted to do high pig tails with a couple strands framing your face and it looked good. your outfit consisted of a pair of ripped mom jeans and a cropped tank too with a flannel thrown over. you didn't really feel like dressing up too much like your roommates.

sasha wore a yellow summer dress with a cute flower pattern that she had purchased at the mall earlier. mikasa decided on a little black dress with some fishnets underneath meanwhile annie stuck with a cute denim skirt and cropped white blouse. just the try on at the mall had them looking good so you could only imagine the final product awaiting you in the living room.

you turn to sasha as you helped her style her hair. "i hate to break it you to sasha, but i am taken."

"no way! you have a boyfriend? i knew it was too good to be true that a hottie like you was single."

"it certainly feels that way." you mumble under your breath. the words do not go unnoticed by sasha.

"what do you mean?" you see her eyebrows furrow in the reflection of the mirror.

you shrug, concentrating on the braid you were working on with her hair. "he hasn't spoke to me once since i moved in last week. my messages won't deliver and when i asked my best friend about him, she would dodge the subject."

a frowned fell upon the brunette's lips. something was definitely up but there was no way she could say that to you. especially not before the first college party of the year.

"well, forget him tonight! we're going to dance and have so much fun!" sasha cheered.

"yes we are! are you guys ready?" mikasa poked her head in the bathroom before fulling appearing. "annie! y/n and sasha look so cute!"

it was then the tall blonde girl sauntered in. you looked at her and mikasa as you had placed the last butterfly clip in sasha's braid. they looked really good in their outfits with their make up and hair done. it made you feel super underdressed.

"you guys look really good." you complimented as sasha gasped.

"my hair looks so cute! thank you y/n!" she immediately pulled you in for a hug which you happily returned. "let's take pictures before we all get too drunk to remember!"

the four of you pose in front of the bathroom as sasha pulls her phone out and snaps a bunch of pictures. she doesn't forget to tag the three of you in her story so you could all repost it, which you did. it was then time to take your leave so you all piled into mikasa's car.

"i call aux." annie announces as she slides into the passenger seat.

"no fair! you're always aux."

annie shrugs in response to sasha before playing a song off her playlist. you sheepishly rummage in your bag and pull out your weed pen earning a wide eyed stare from sasha.

"i don't know if you guys smoke but i have a pen if any one wants a hit or two?"

"hell yeah! pass that shit here."

you hand the pen to annie as the other two girls stare at you in shock. "it helps me sleep sometimes because i hate taking my meds. not to mention it relieves any tension for me as well."

"i see. annie! don't hog it all!" mikasa scolds, ripping the pen from her hands. she takes a couple hits herself before passing the pen to sasha and starts the car.

once sasha finishes, you decide to take a couple hits yourself to calm your jittery nerves. you didn't want to admit that this was the first party you were going to attend which made you all the more nervous. you pulled out your phone, seeing you had a couple instagram notifications awaiting you. curious, you clicked on the app icon and went to your messages.

you chuckled a bit at emi's message stating how hot you and your roommates were before crying about how she was being replaced. you then saw multiple messages from armin, hitch, jean and connie saying that they couldn't wait to see you tonight. you gave them all a reply or a like before heading to the notifications. your phone almost fell out of your hand when you saw it.

the.erenjaeger is now following you!

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the party was in full swing as you guys headed towards the entrance. the house was huge and you stared at in awe.

"he lives with his grandpa but no one knows how he came to get a mansion this huge." annie explained.

sasha took your hand in hers and tugged you forward. she gave you an encouraging smile as you all walked inside. the music was obnoxiously loud in a way you couldn't even tell what song was playing. to your surprise, people were still dancing along. red solo cups were in almost everyone's hands as well as littering the floor. you could smell the familiar scent of weed as well. there was almost too much going on that you were sure you had missed a few details.

"welcome to my fiesta!" a guy with pink locks shouted. you assumed he was the host. "booze is in the kitchen, weed is from whoever has it and the dj is taking requests. have fun!"

mikasa led the three of you over to where she spotted some familiar faces. you immediately felt more relieved as you approached the others. there were a couple others there that you didn't really recognize.

"well, well, well, look who it is." annie shouted over the music. she clapped her hands around two guys shoulder. one seemed to blush under her touch. "reiner, bertholdt, the hell have you been? just because your frat boys now doesn't mean you get to ignore me."

"annie, ignoring you is on the bottom of bertholdt's list." spoke the blonde. "who is your friend?"

annie turned to you and gestured you forward. you disentangled your hand from sasha's and stood before them. "this is y/n, our roommate. y/n, i'm sorry you have the misfortune to meet my best friends bertholdt and reiner."

you stared up at the two of them. "reiner do you have trouble growing a beard like jean too? or is speckled stubble just the thing now?"

connie and sasha began cackling behind you. mikasa even let out a giggle causing jean to send her a small glare.

"ok, y/n is my new best friend. i don't need you guys anymore." annie managed to get out after coming down from her laughing fit. she just about lost it after seeing the look on reiner's face after you spoke.

you couldn't even believe what you had said. maybe it was the weed or the anxiousness of being there but you were never one to blurt random things like that. before you could apologize, sasha pulled you away and left the trio to bicker.

"y/n meet niccolo. niccolo, this is my soon to be gf." sasha waggled her eyebrows at him.

"not if i beat her to it. it's nice to meet you y/n." he stuck his hand for you to shake.

"niccolo, we're 19, not 29. we don't need to shake hands." you laughed at the tall dirty blond. he sheepishly pulled his hand back and nodded. "you're right."

"anyone seen eren?" armin asked. you took in your group and realized that pretty much everyone was gathered together.

"last i saw, he was going upstairs with some girl." connie blurted. "ow!"

marco had jabbed him in the ribs with his elbow. all eyes fell on mikasa who looked at them all confused while sipping at her own solo red cup. all besides her roommates and armin, who were already aware of the break up.

"what? we broke up."

"mikasa, don't tell me you didn't tell anyone!" armin scolded.

"i was going to! it just slipped my mind."

"so who broke up with who?" marco asked.

you turned your attention to your hands, picking at your cuticles. it was still a bit awkward to hear them all talk together since they were all so close and you were just a new addition.

"it was a mutual agreement. like i said before, we love each other but we aren't in love with each other. if he finds a new girl, all the better." she spoke. mikasa downed the rest of the contents in her cup before walking towards you and grabbing your wrist. "enough talk, let's dance."

before you could protest, everyone hollered in agreement. the living was made into a make shift dance floor as bodies were grinding together. you didn't think it was possible but the music sounded even louder in here.

"i promised not to leave your side, didn't i?" mikasa grinned at you as she started to dance. "c'mon y/n, dance with me!"

you chuckle and shake your head before allowing yourself to feel the music and dance. mikasa, annie and sasha kept their promise by staying with you. you dance for what felt like hours before excusing yourself to grab a water. there was no way you were going to drink alcohol right now.

tw: anxiety/panic attack.

after chugging an entire bottle of water in one go, you head back to the area where you left your friends. only to find that they had completely vanished. you felt a build up of panic as your eyes flickered every area in the house and still did not meet any of the familiar faces.

so much for sticking together you thought to yourself as you felt your panic begin to rise more and more. it didn't help that it seemed as though the population of the party had double since your arrival. your hands began to shake as you continued your search, breathing becoming frantic. you needed space before you had a full blown panic attack in the middle of the party.

"y/n, are you okay?" the familiar blond from the school's starbucks asked.

you were too busy trying to calm yourself down that you had no idea she was in front of you. "um, yeah. do you know where the bathroom is?"

"upstairs, to the left. want me to take you? you don't look so good." lucy's eyes were filled with worry before she heard a glass bottle shatter from behind her.

"gramps! get off the table!" the pinkette yelled. if you weren't about to completely freak the hell out, you would've laughed.

"i should probably help my boyfriend with his grandpa. he can be a real handful when he drinks too much." lucy chuckles, "will you be okay?"

"um, yeah. thanks, lucy." you turn towards the staircase and head up. you appreciated the kindness lucy had shown you but still being alone and surrounded by bodies made the anxiousness grow. where the hell did everyone go?

your breaths came out in short pants as you finally made it up the stairs. with wobbly hands, you entered the first door on the right. after switching on the light, you closed and locked the door, leaning against it before sliding down to sit on the floor. you pulled your knees to your chest and hugged them, trying to calm yourself down.

the shower curtain before you slid to the side and you just about had a heart attack before your eyes met with the familiar emerald green ones.

"what the hell... are you doing... in the bathtub?" you asked eren in between breaths.

"considering that all the rooms are being occupied by people hooking up, this was the only place to take a quick nap. i thought no one would hook up in here but then i heard pants and opened the curtain to make my presence known but here you are."

he gives you a look. "hey, are you okay?"

"peachy." you toss him a fake smile. suddenly your phone begins to vibrate with a phone call in your pocket.

hands still shaking and breathing still not stabilized, you fumble to get the device out of your pocket. your eyes widen a bit when you read the caller id. god, why now?

after a week of no contact, kris was calling you. and it couldn't have been worse timing. kris hated when you had panic attacks. they were always something he didn't know how to deal with so he chose not to. you still remember the first time you had one in front of him and he left emi with you to take care of it. he called it an inconvenience. emi glared at him as he walked away from you before turning back to you to help you to calm down. since then, you tried your best not to panic in front of him but of course, you had slip ups. anxiety is an ugly thing and the attacks can come at any given moment.

you gave yourself a couple of seconds to calm your breathing and answered the call. you give eren a look to not say anything but he's already laying back down in the tub with his eyes closed.

"hey." you greet as his face fills the screen.

"y/n, sorry for not replying or anything. we need to talk."

"oh, sure. what's up? was your service out or something?"

kris sighs, his eyes looking anywhere but at you. "no, actually. honestly, i blocked your number for a bit."

"what? mad i left or something?" you joke.

"y/n listen, this isn't gonna work out. long distance and all. i thought i could do it but i can't."

your breathing hitches and you feel a second wave of anxiousness hit you. "kris, you're joking right? we talked about this before i left."

"you're right. we did." he nodded, finally looking at you.

"is there something else? something i did? i can change. i can fix things. please." you're practically begging at this point, tears filling your eyes.

"look, call me an asshole. but we've been dating for what? all of high school? and you still never wanted to sleep with me."

you gave a heartless laugh. "is that all? you never even made moves indicating you ever wanted to have sex."

kris glares at you through the phone screen. you were so focused on your call with kris, you didn't even notice eren had sat up and was looking at you.

"take a look in the mirror, babe. it's kind of hard to make a move when you look like that." kris spat.

eren watches as a look of hurt crosses your face. in all the years you and kris dated, he has never been so heartless to you. he always did anything and everything to make you happy. why the sudden change?

"y/n, i don't love you. i never have. you were just a high school fling."

"you don't mean that." a tear finally escapes and cascades down your cheeks. more following, racing down to drip off your chin. "who the fuck carries a fling on all throughout high school?!"

kris runs his hand through his hair. "you want the truth? there's someone else. there's always been someone else. you were just a distraction from the person i wanted but could never get."

"y/n, hang up the phone." eren speaks. he had left the bathtub and was now standing before you. out of all the people to witness you in this state, it had to be him.

kris' eyes widen before another glare is given. "sounds like there was someone else for you too. goodbye y/n. we're through."

kris hangs up and your phone falls to your home screen which just so happened to be a picture of the two of you. you didn't know what to do as the tears kept falling down your face. you hiccuped in between your sobs, feeling as though you needed to hurl.

what did he mean by there being someone else? was everything in your relationship a lie? did he ever even love you? there was no way he led you on for four years. four years! you threw your phone where it ricocheted off the edge of the bathtub and landed by eren's foot. he sighs and takes a seat next to you.

your first college party and you're crying in the bathroom over your break up with your boyfriend with a boy who had predicted that something like this was bound to happen. you could still here the obnoxious music and felt it vibrant through the walls of the house. everyone downstairs having the time of their lives while you're up here feeling like it was the end of yours.

you hugged your knees tighter to your chest, your forehead resting on your knees as your body racked with sobs. you felt an arm wrap around your shoulder from your left and yourself lean against him.

"guess i'll be your shoulder to cry." eren said. in that moment, you were grateful to stumble into the restroom. sure it was weird to see him sleeping in a bathtub of all places, but you were glad he was here and you weren't as alone as you had thought you were. though, you were a bit embarrassed that he had witness your break up and practically begging kris to stay together.

one thing you were most thankful for was that he didn't pry. he let you cry to your hearts content and that's exactly what you did.

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hi hi author here.

this is somewhat of a long chapter?? idk haha but like i said the story is gonna start developing from here on out more 😎

also besties, i got a bit bored and made out what i think y/n's instagram would look like so here it is!:

i was thinking abt making ones for the other characters but i got lazy and it took me so long to do y/n's 😭😭 but i can do more if yall want just lmk who you'd be interested in seeing.

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