So confused

What has happened to me?

I used to be a person

Living free full happy

Then something happened

The world turned upside down

I turned it upside down

Because he would have anyways

And not just upside down but black

Empty

Here it's empty but at least it's white

What am I saying?

I know longer know

I remember a moon ago more than today

And yesterday not at all

Waking I am in a dream

Dreaming I am awake

Am I even real anymore?