07/26/17 5:46am

People ask me;
"What's wrong with you?"
"Why are you depressed as fxck one minute then hyper the next?"
"Why do you keep making up crazy fantasies that are never going to happen?"
"Why do you stare off into what i would call space and shut out the world for while,zone out and look like you're a statue?

The answer is...
maybe i don't know
maybe because i feel numb and staring off into 'space' is because my mind is  blank and i'm trying to think of ways to calm down before i freak out because i can't think of anything.
Maybe i'm hyper because i'm trying to make myself believe that i'm actually okay and nothing is wrong also to make others around me believe it too.
Maybe because i'm bipolar??!!
I don't know,who knows? If only i knew what was going on, what is wrong, that would be great.
-KJx