July 4th 2018 2:02am
Why is it so hard for me to sleep?
Why can't I calm down?
Why do I keep on having anxiety/panic attacks so much lately both in the day and night?
Why can't i stop counting calories?
Why can't i just sleep when i'm tired from working out and walking wherever?
Please don't let this get out of control!
Why can't i sleep anymore, even when i'm chill and feel fine? (maybe that's because i'm numb)
Why can't i just take a break and rest?
I'm pushing myself to hard and i don't know when to stop,
i can't stop,
it's the only thing keeping me going
but i wish i could go to sleep
even freaking sleeping pills don't work all the time.
Why can't I sleep?
Please just let me sleep, i'm tired.
-KJx

Well this is a ranty kind of one, i'm sorry for that guys plus its all over the place too maybe because it was just my thoughts. I dunno and probably the fact i just had an anxiety attack out the blue :( Anyway hope y'all okay, love you dudes xo