1/27/16 11:46pm
*TRIGGER WARNING*
I really fucked up today
School was way too much
and when I got home,
I nearly lost control
I thought I wasn't going to be  able to stop.
I was thinking way too much about suicide.
I actually thought that I was going to end it all
But the pain and the blood got a little too much
They weren't deep enough to need stitches though but they were probably close to needing them.
I want to end it all but at the same time I don't.
I'm so petrified
What if next time I can't stop?
What if I cut too deep?

I can't escape this hell
I don't know how to
I manage to escape for a little while but it just comes back for more.
-KJx
I'm sorry
Love you all so much xoxo