7/21/16 2:46am
Okay, so before I start this I just wanted to say I wrote this in my journal (which I don't do often at all) when I was having some time away from the Internet and distancing myself, which I'm kind of still doing right now. Anyway, without further a do, let's get started. (Sorry I'm a little weird at times)
I'm writing with my left hand again. I have a thing for doing that lately usually when I'm feeling inspired and relaxed. I also find this as a good stress reliever too :) I feel weightless right now, it's as though I'm drifting through sky, no ropes attached. I feel as though I'm soaring high above the clouds, yet floating on water. I'm in a dream state right now. I feel confident. I feel like I could conquer the world. I feel like doing something totally reckless. I think this state of mind I'm in is dangerous and I don't trust myself but I'm not scared like I should be; instead I'm stoked and happy as fuck. I don't know how long this feeling will last but I don't care, I'm taking this in my stride and I'm loving every second of it. It's nice to feel this way for a change, instead of feeling like I'm sinking with what feels like the weight of the world is pushing down on my shoulders. I feel numb right now but in a euphoric way and not the depressed way. It feels so good, so, so good. I'm loving it! Some people would say I'm crazy right now and that I need help. Maybe I am. Maybe I do. But I also know that at least someone will understand and relate to me, somewhere along the lines.

I feel so inspired, so full of energy yet exhausted at the same time. For once, in what feels like forever I don't have the demons inside me; dragging me down with everything I do and everything I say. It feels so nice. It feels like heaven, like haven; a safe place. I'm in this type of state as I'm reading 'All The Bright Places' by Jenifen Niven. I love this book it's so inspirational, compelling, poetical and perfect. The character Theodore Finch is so powerful. He has a different outlook on everything. He lives in the moment. He's so unpredictable, like you really have no idea what he's going to do next and I love that about him. I've nearly finished this book(I've finished it now btw) and I feel as though it's going to make me see the world in a new light. I feel as though you should live life to the fullest at all times, meaning that you should enjoy every moment because none of us know how much time we have left. No matter what age, people can be took away from our lives so very quickly, whether by choice because it got too much or by an illness or accident.

On the whole, none of know how much time we have left. It could be a day,  a month, a year or years from now. However long we should treasure every moment because that moment may be our last.
I don't know how to end this so I'm going to end it with this last sentence.

Fuck this feeling of euphoria is amazing.

Goodbye, for now <3
                                         -KJx

Omg, thank you if you've gotten to this part as its pretty darn long. Okay so this all over the place, I'm sorry about that.  I think I like it though.    You guys are amazing and I hope you are all doing well. Love you all <3