8/10/16 12:47pm
i feel mentally and physically drained.
i'm that sleep deprived that i don't even feel tired anymore,
just numb
hardly anything interests me nowadays
except for music(only if it's mega loud though, so I can't hear anything but the music)

anxiety is killing me
its ripping me to shreds
i constantly feel like i'm in a panic state
i can't stay clean no more.
I want to throw the damned blade away but I can't.
that and music are my only ways that help me escape,
the only ways that release the tension,
take away a small amount of anxiety
but sadly, not enough to take away all of it.
i'm so fucking drained,
right down to the bone,
it seems.
I don't even know how i'm alive,
To be quite honest.
-KJx