I gave up

I finally gave up

After an entire year of me trying over and over again to try and get her to like me nothing worked. Flirting, giving gifts, remembering the little things about her, being there for her, and etc. nothing worked.

10 times I've asked her out. 11 times she broke my heart. 10 times I put it back together to try again. Every time she broke my heart, I sobbed a bit then got back up.

I've never turned my back on her, I've always complemented her looks when she said she was ugly. She called it lies... I called it her toned down descriptions.

I've always blushed when ever she talked to me. She called me a weirdo, a cute one... whenever she said cute to me I would blush more. She called me a cute weirdo I called it being in love.

You'd think after she broke my heart so many times that I'd stop blushing whenever I talked to her and stopped getting butterflies in my stomach because of her. But no... they just got stronger each time.

Even right now I still love her. There's an empty hole in my heart that I want her to fill.

But she doesn't want me... she just wants to be friends.

I'm okay with that, I think?