so here is the answers to the questions you asked the characters and me! you do not have to read this, it is only optional. it does not progress the story so feel free to skip over, because you won't miss anything.

JACK:

'what would you do if you had two choices between a Klondike Bar or a Markdie Bar'

oh uh, first question, huh? *looks confused* i've never had whatever a Markdie Bar is, but i'm up to trying it?

'what is it like to sleep next to mark?'

well, i wasn't really aware that i had slept next to mark, but i do admit i slept pretty nice. *smiles*

'if you had the choice to live with anyone you want, who would it be?'

hm, i'm pretty content staying with mark, even though i find it pretty hard with the fact i sorta like him. *frowns a bit* besides, even with the choice to live with anyone i want, no one would like me as company.

'if you could write a book on how a person would die and when, what would you write for kevin? yourself? mark? and it would come true.'

i'm not quite keen on the thought of writing someone's death out and it actually happening. i wouldn't be able to stand myself knowing i literally killed someone in my own twisted way. but, if i had to write out kevin's death, i would want him to die naturally. and the same goes for mark and i. i don't wish death upon no one, not even kevin. i rather not know how people will die, including myself.

'can you flap your wings like a majestical butterfly and sing like a majestical grasshopper'

*looks around in confusion* ... is this a trick question?

'do you still have depression?'

*thinks for a moment* uh, well i wouldn't say i'm fully happy and i do still think everyone would be better off without me. so yes?

'what's your favorite spongebob quote?'

i don't watch tv that often and i don't like spongebob, so i couldn't tell you.

'what would you do if your mom realized the error of her ways and asked for your forgiveness?'

i don't even know. *sighs* i highly doubt she would do that. but, if there was a chance she did, i don't think i could forgive her for all she has done. she may be my mother, but i don't need to be her friend.

'what do you like most about mark? also... HUG ATTACK!'

oh uh *blushes* thank you, for that. what do i like most about mark? i, uh, well i like how he makes me feel protected. when i am with him, i feel safe.

MARK:

'what would you do if someone tried to kill jack?'

kill jack? *raises his voice* why would someone want that? if i ever catch someone laying their hand on him, i don't think i would hold back on showing them their place.

'if you were in jack's position what would you do?'

honestly, i wouldn't know what i would do. jack has been through some stuff that i couldn't imagine. *frowns* i mean, being kicked out of your own damn house? what kind of bullshit is that? and having people like kevin who get joy from hurting others is just plain disgusting and i can't say enough how much i feel for jack.

'what do you like most about your smol bean? i'm talking about sean. get your mind out of your pants.'

*acts sheepish* oh, i wasn't really thinking... about that... ok shit i was, but i think the thing i like most is how fragile he is. and i don't mean that in a bad way, he's just so fragile and i want to make sure he doesn't break.

'what would you do for a klondike bar?'

hmm, options vary?

'what is it like to sleep next to jack?'

*smiles while explaining* sleeping next to jack was the best i slept in a while. and it didn't feel weird or wrong, i felt happy and that little flutter feeling lingered in my chest.

KEVIN:

'WHY DON'T YOU KYS?!'

no thanks.

'if you were gay what would you do?'

*laughs* fuck that idea. why should i even think of that? i don't want to be a fucking faggot.

'why do people like you exist?'

i should be asking the same to you.

'hey! fuck off would ya.'

i don't give a shit for what all of you say.

'what would you do if your mom acted like jack's mom?'

i don't know who jack's mom is and i really don't care how she acts.

JACK'S MOM:

'why are you so mean to jack because he is gay? why did that change everything so much?'

*acts disgusted* do you even hear the words coming out of your mouth? i can't stand to hear that my son is gay. *scoffs* that is just some bullshit that someone put in his head. him being gay is wrong and he should realize that him being labeled as 'gay' is wrong. do you understand how i feel? i get drunk every night because of his shitty decision. it breaks my heart to even think of him being the way he is.

'how would you feel if it was the other way around and you were getting abused?'

i don't feel the need to answer this question. the reason i apparently 'abused' him is because of what i said before. he needs to realize he is in the wrong and that he isn't gay.

'why can't you just accept your son and maybe be more involved in his life?'

*raises his voice* do any of you not understand that this is all wrong?! this is all so wrong and here i am being told how to accept the gruesome fact that my son is apparently gay? i don't want to be involved into his life with the way he's heading.

'hey, your son is gay, congratulations! why do you care?'

this is the same shit i have been repeating. *huffs* because it is wrong!

'smack mark's smol bean one more time and i'll punch one of your boobs.'

this isn't a question, so i don't feel obliged to respond.

'hon stop being a homophobic and live with it, can you do that?'

...

'why are you such a bitch?'

*rolls eyes* all of you are just plain rude.

MARK'S MOM:

'what made you decide to be so nice and let jack stay at your house?'

well, obviously hearing the news of him being kicked out of his house due to some circumstances... i felt it was necessary and he isn't a bother from what i can tell, so it wasn't a big deal. *smiles* i'm just happy with the fact that he is better living with us than with his mom from the things mark has told me.

'how do you feel about mark and jack being together?'

i've never really thought of them being together, but i do know that mark has an interest in jack. *laughs* either way, i will support mark in his decisions, even though i'm not quite sure what his sexuality may be.

'how do you feel about mark having a (boy)friend?'

oh, well he hasn't quite told me he had a boyfriend, but like i said, i will support him with any decisions he makes.

'moo?'

*looks confused* er, moo to you too?

'what do you think of mark's and jack's relationship?'

i'm glad that mark has found a new friend? *looks away and whispers* but i'm not quite so sure if they are friends from all of these questions...

'do you feel like mark and jack have a strong connection or do you think that it is too strong?'

from what i could tell from them two, they both do have a bond that you have to admire. *saddens a bit* mark doesn't really talk to me about things and so i really don't know what goes on in his life, but all i do know is that jack and him should have a long lasting connection.

ME:

'could you possibly give me an estimate when the next chapter might come out?'

i get asked a lot about when i publish chapters or if i have a schedule for publishing them, and the answer is i don't. i don't have a time or day when publishing, and when i do, it's mostly because i get inspiration to write. trust me, i wish i could publish everyday for you all, but i get writers block a lot and it sucks. what i'm trying to say is, i upload as often as i can and i'll get the next few chapters out either tonight to tomorrow. :)

'how would you feel if your story was real, all of it?'

oh lord, i have no idea. just the thought of jack having a abusive drunk mother and being bullied for being who he is honestly hurts me. and it's sad really because stuff like this happens on a everyday basis. that's what i try to put in this book, is the truth and the reality of what a person like jack may go through; family troubles, bullies, loneliness, feelings for someone who may not have feelings for you.

'what inspired this story?'

i was pretty inspired about writing this from reading "transgender", (which is amazing and you should read it). and from what i said before, just trying to get a point across and maybe some reactions. and maybe, just maybe, i wanted people to have an open mind on things they do or what they have seen.

'MEANING OF LIFE.'

*existential crisis mode activated* what is the meaning of life? is there a meaning of life? do we just imagine a meaning because we can't face the cold hard truth of not having a meaning for living on a sphere in the middle of the galaxy that is just there and we all can be destroyed in the matter of seconds and we wouldn't know and we would just be a past thought? ... sorry.

'WHY DOES POTATO NOT LIFE CORRECTLY?'

WHY DOES CARROT NOT LIFE CORRECTLY? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF THAT? *flips table* CARROT HAS FEELINGS TOO YOU KNOW. CARROT WANTS TO LIFE JUST LIKE YOU POTATO. GESH HAVE SOME OTHers in mind also.

'WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT WRITING? I LOVE THIS STORY.'

AHH PLEASE STOP THE KINDNESS, I SUCK.

'not a question but you amazing.'

:') you all are too sweet.

'what is it like to be straight and write these?'

ahh well you see, i may be straight, but i know people who aren't and i, myself, have experienced some things i write. it's a weird thing, but authors have a hard time writing things they have never experienced, so that is why writers are best at writing things they have experienced or are close too. it's more of a expressive kind of writing and i think those are the stories that make you feel emotion and make you want to hug a nice, fluffy blanket. :')

'was this fanfic based on anything real?'

well, yes and no. i have experienced the pain of loneliness, the sheer thought of not having anyone care for you, and of course, bullies. i guess i put some of those factor into the fanfic, but not only because i have experienced these but others too.

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woo, that was pretty long. i hope you all have a wonderful day and the next chapters should be published soon! :)

erin. xx