i feel lost. i feel scared. i am so scared and i want to know what is wrong with me. i'm being cooped up in the damned hospital with nurses checking on me every once in a while and i'm sick of seeing different faces every twenty minutes.

mark had to leave the room before he had another breakdown. i can't blame him, i can't see myself like this either. we are both waiting for results, those stupid results. i don't know what the doctors told mark, they had too say more than just a heart attack.