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Last episode : Laksh and Ragini's Marriage. Sanskar fighting for his life . Laksh heartbroken in pain due to his brothers state. Trinetra's attempt to talk to swara. Swara's Plan to flea off. Swara allegating sanskar and kavita....

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Swara appeared being obsessed with the fact that sanskar was with someone else. speaking in rage her back was facing kavita.

The person who caught kavita wiped her tears with his thumb made her look into his eyes. He signed her to be strong. He looked smart in formal white shirt tucked into his light chequered patterned dark brown slim fit trousers. 

Swara was still blabbering unaware of the new people who were witnessing her drama. Their eyes dripped anger that would burn her down.

I was his wife but bedding me was a sin but being with her is sanity right.

As she finished bad mouthing kavita and before she said anything against sanskar she was harshly pushed into the room. The person came inside and locked the door asking her to look around once.

It was laksh and he had pushed her into sanskars room. The room which held her memories their memories, the room on seeing which she stepped out as she couldn't proceed further. Her past is still there in that room fresh standing to engulf her. she wished not to face it. 

Flashbacks in parts....

She was seeing herself and sanskar all around . laughing on sofa, he sitting beside her and taking care when she was ill.

She shedding tears while applying ointment on his wound.He was back after some assignment hurt. He was shouting saying the wound is burning while she blowed air on it. Trying to apply ointment as softly as possible. On asking that the ointment doesn't burn he said its the salty water that dropped from her eyes was burning.

His hand was in hers when she was shivering behind him hiding from her fathers wrath. It was because she wanted to go to college after marriage. 

She could see herself standing all decked up wearing a beautiful dress with big spectacles adorning her face. She was brushing rather fighting with her messy curls ready to go to college. Sanskar was looking at her with a smile.

Swara : What is it why are you staring me?

Sanskar : My eyes it can roam anywhere and i was looking at the mirror its just you stood in between. I was just giving my eyes the oppurtunity to see illusion.

Swara : Illusion???

Sanskar : Haan you and looking like a beautiful girl is an illusion right.

Swara : Ha ha ha cheap joke .. She threw a tissue on his face.

Sanskar : Right it was a joke "you look like a chashmish. Beautiful is a jargon with your name. Then how do you expect anyone with blessed eyes to stare at you.

Her eyes were wet and in anger she removed her specs. Tying her hairs in a messy bun she left.

Swara wished to run away from the place. She wished to run into far off space.

She could see swara who was trying to wear a saree reading instruction. Further sanskar entered and in process of staring her he got his leg stuck in the saree that was starting from door and ended with one end tucked in her skirt. He literally fell on her and they both fell on bed a short eye lock happened. He was mesmerised she was looking at him with a lot of hope he will confess his feelings to her. He stood up and giving hand made her stand.

Sanskar : Woh actually everyone is asking if you are ready.

Looking at the saree and making faces as the pleats she had made with much difficulty was again on the ground straight. she looked at the book in which instructions were written was now soggy as water nearby fell on it. While sanskar fell on her. Her hairs were tied in bun with some loose strings hanging.

 She scolded him for spoiling the pleats that she had held in her hand as it was now again lying straight. She was telling him to get her new instruction manual as this one is spoiled by him.

Sanskar smiling walked towards her and holding an end which was in her hand helped her pleat the saree and as he tucked it she closed her eyes sensing his touch. He could see her closed eyes in mirror but he stepped back once he finished laying the pallu on her shoulder.

They were hardly inches apart and how much she felt that he will kiss her or hug her. As she wasn't feeling his coldness she opened her eyes and found him smiling like an idiot standing back.

Then sanskar  sat on his knees she thought finally he will propose her but haaye re kismat.  He adjusted her pleats properly making her angry at his behavior.

As the reflections disappeared she could hear laksh's loud voice asking her something.

Laksh : What do you see around swara? Kavita di or yourself.

Swara was shocked would be an understatement laksh addressing kavita as di.(di means didi thats elder sister)

The lady about whom you were bad mouthing outside is our eldest sister Kavita Durga prasad ghosh. You never saw her as we were in Delhi after our birth as Di did her studies in delhi she never came to kolkata. You had just seen her childhood pics. Still how can you relate her with sanskar bhai in such a bad way . Do you even realise what you said?

Swara was shocked her senses went into the lane of thoughts where she and sanskar had conversation about his elder sister. How much he loved her? He always gave her the liberty and freedom but she misused it. He would have supported her but she choose not to tell him. Still as a brother he cared for her. His emotional confession spoke the pain he had buried somewhere deep. This also got her a realization that captain shared his emotional side only with her.

She was back hearing laksh speaking or mocking her.

Laksh : (mocking her statements) She harassed saahil mentally, for his name and fame she married him wow what a fabulous interpretation and who told you this fairy tale. Of course who else your boyfriend that scoundrel, bastard .

Swara : Laksh mind your tongue you are talking about

Laksh : (loud looking into her eyes):  About a criminal who tried to kill my bhai...Wow swara so much care for that stranger and what about the person who lived for you since the day he saw you. Who fell in love with you when he was just teenager ? yes,swara bhai loved you the day he saw you after which he never saw any other girl. 

He threw a diary on her which fell on the ground with pages which flipped open. She bent and when swara opened the first page name Sanskar Ghosh was written in calligraphy. A sweet smile appeared on her lips touching those alphabets how much had she fought for lying hands on this treasure of his.

The very next page held her photo with a caption "best friend" which was cancelled and  "My dreamgirl" in calligraphy with varied colours was written which made her gasp in shock. Her pics were beautifully designed by him and also glitters were added to it. Yes it was the pic when she was just cute little girl.

She just turned the pages randomly reaching a page where it was written "Chashmish jhalli she thinks she can hide her pain behind those glasses wants to prove that she is a iron lady" 

No she is not but she is indeed very innocent. Gusse mein hi sahi she looks pretty without those huge frames.

Her tears had dissolved the words on it. Laksh's voice got her back in the room.

Laksh : Has been in hope for 6 years waiting for your return. A person who was defamed , humiliated lost his respect, family, friends, because of you, Still took care of you. 

Lived in your world always. He dragged her towards a wall which was decorated with beautiful frames holding her childhood and younger pics.

These were the pics she was trying to locate in bose mansion. Her pics  alone or with arnab,laksh, ragini ,shomi, shekar, dp , trinetra and few with sanskar. There were also pics with her best friend khushi.

She somehow lifted her gaze on a big frame just above his bed which held there marriage pic framed. It was clicked co incidentally while they finished the rituals marking each other .

She was angrily going towards her room. She had forgotten they were tied by nuptial knot as she walked in hurry sanskar saw knot about to slid and fall opening up.He immediately held and pulled it she also got pulled along with it as the dupatta was pinned to her attire. Loosing her balance she fell on sturdy arms of her man who carefully held her near his heart.

When she looked up in anger it evaporated looking into his eyes. That moment was captured by the photographer. The pic looked magical a 6' tall sanskar stood strong like any navy man. while her hands steady on his chest she was looking in to his eyes with  her head slightly tilted up. How fragile she looked with that petite frame carefully enclosed in his arms. Swara ghosh a 4' 6" girl who hardly reached his shoulder. While he was looking at her with head bent .

Flashback

Swara: Sanskar why there are no frames in your room.. it looks so dull...

Sanskar: (stern and no non sense voice)Frames are hung as memories but i have them around me always..

Swara looking confused as always at his sentence.

Sanskar (smiling knowingly) : I would require when my loved one won't be around. You all are near me so this room looks beautiful devoid of pics. Instead of living in past memories i wish to build new memories every moment.

Then he showed her a locket which he pulled out from his locker.  It was like a puzzle on unwinding it he showed her family pics this is my memory i need it when i am away sailing.

Her pic was not their in it she felt pained but didn't say anything.

Swara(understanding) : hmmmm. Then lets hang our marriage pic here...Just above the bed.. Just as a decor at least.

Sanskar: Let this room be as it is it looks good please don't spoil it. It had been spik and span since the time i entered and love it similar way.

Swara: Your rooom,your bed,your vase saying this she just pulled everything on the ground such a pride to claim everything as yours... Why you always forget that now it is our s

Sanskar: It is 'ours' from my end i never even think as 'my' ...You won't need anyone to say it when you will yourself accept it as ours...

Swara (griting her teeth) : I hate you..... (in mind) When will you say me also as "my"

Sanskar (in mind): Angry kiddo.
She left the room as she saw him silently tidying up the mess...

Flashback ends

The day i feel away from you
The day i feel left on the way,
The day i feel you went far away,
I would decorate your memories,
I would cherish our bond,
I would lay in your thoughts all along,

She saw the lines scribbled in sanskars diary.... Few words were now erased as ink drowned in waves of her tears.

Laksh pushed her back on bed getting her back in the room throwing some frames kept on a table nearby.

It was pictures clicked in canada at various events.

you remember this pic your birthday, this your college convocation ceremony, your study tour, Your trips he pulled off each frame scattering it all around the bed. Playing with snow, Jenny and you.

Swara was sitting on bed shocked. He opened the drawer and threw pics on her face. 

Your house, your management college, your workplace,colleagues, your office space which you had rented. He then threw a box towards her which brought tears streaming from her eyes it held every smallest memory of their life. 

Chits which she had passed on with stupid emojis drawn the first night of their marriage as it was kaal ratri they can't talk or see each other so she was passing messages on chits while he replied. Each chit spoke about how childish she was how lovingly had he handled her. Though he appeared stern he had tried to show his love but as a teenager she never understood it. 

For her love was flashy cards, candle light dinner, soft music couple dance basically a show off among friends. For him it was a lone time with his girl, nothing flashy, just talking on random topics. No noise just calmness. She understood later why he required it after his hectic job he wished the warmth and calmness.

Her shaakha paula (shakha is a bangle made of conch shell white in colour while paula is bangle in red colour worn by married bengali women worn as symbol of marriage) which she had left behind while she left the house he had preserved it. A box of vermilion which is carried from the marriage and used in everyday life. It also had pieces of glass bangle which was broken in her hand.She remembered it was in the warehouse when she took those scripted documents and those things. Rather the thing she sold to get some quick money.

She was cursing herself for doing a work she would never think to do in sanity.

He also gave her the jewellery which she had mortgaged which created huge fight between the families. Sanskar got it back and kept it carefully for her. 

Ring which sanskar had gifted her saying he bought it with his first earning for her with love. He had kept it with utmost safety and gifted her on the night when they became one. Her birthday the gift that he gave her was the ring when she expected ring of his arms around her. She remembers how he had kept it open on the table asking her to accept. While she wished he went on his knees and slid it in her finger but then it was the captain who was devoid of chessy love.  She left it in the room with a note "This diamond pierces my heart just like it tears my skin with its sharp edges."

She lifted it and ran her fingers on it finding it smoothened her eyes went glassy. She looked at laksh who was by now standing and showing her something. She quickly slid it in her finger and kissed it.

Laksh (pointing at the wardrobe): He purchased for you because now you won't be comfortable in traditional outfits.

He opened a wardrobe which still held her clothes. She was shocked to find her old dresses  neatly arranged which also included clothes from her maiden house. Her bridal saree and heavy dresses neatly aligned and kept. In additions there was also western outfits. Smart business suits formal wears and casuals.

She smiled thinking about how sanskar being tall would stand behind her choosing his clothes while she messed searching for hers. Even after he got ready she still kept digging for clothes. Finally seeing her sad he would select and then clear the mess while she changed. She came back finding laksh saying something.

Staying away from you he stayed loyal to you loved only you to be awarded by this allegation by you. I agree bhai is stern and disciplined but thats how he is. Then he didn't show his love and care as he felt you will go weak and stop dreaming.

As you both got married he left as he got emergency call due to war. After a year still he couldn't bond as he was busy on emergency work front. When he returned to you, your plans were set. You were looking at path to fullfill your dreams.

When he wished to show he.... Tears betrayed the young man.

Further he pulled her pics with sahil and threw it on her face making her flinch at the intensity of anger .

She was shocked seeing the pics because none of them held reality. She was being used at every step. Agree she was used because she allowed but she was blind with the fake love and care she got. She couldn't recognise it was all fake just to use her.

What you said poor sahil how can a criminal be poor ?

yes but a criminal will think similar about another criminal.

Swara : Laksh what are you talking about?

Laksh : Really , are you so innocent not to understand what i want to say.  Don't pretend i know you knew everything.

You knew bhai was court martialed 

swara : Yes but..

Laksh : Then you also knew the reason.

Swara : yes, for leaking some confidential material and documents. But how does that relate to me.

Laksh :(smiling with pain in his eyes): You needed money to complete your education for which you mortgaged the ornaments and for more money what you did swara?

On seeing she is not responding he spoke a little louder making her flinch at his voice.

What you did swara?

Swara : I just bartered some junk things and scripted documents lying in godown.

She was shocked at the realisation.

Laksh : Did you read it? 

Swara : No i never thought anything at such.  I was just asked the things in black bag which had something scripted in a foreign language. She gasped at the thought

(she remembered how that was guarded and no one except family was allowed in there. There house was of people who served the nation so it was like a fort where only trusted were allowed to roam freely.)

Laksh : You were the reason my bhai was court martialed. Why do you think the place was so guarded with only family members allowed in the premises?..That was secret information which was hided there those people knew and wanted someone from house who can do this work.  They got you bravo to the educated youth to fullfill your dreams you became selfish. 

That was confidential information which bhai had collected while on the war. After they destroyed the enemy base he had kept his life at risk to get those. Then he was blamed for selling respect of his motherland for few bucks.

Yes, you wanted to repay my bhai can you return his respect which was stained because of you? Can you give him the name that you spoiled? His dignity , respect, love,life ,relationships?

Swara :(she stuttered at her own words) I am sorry laksh.. i ...i ..never thought anything at such would happen.

Laksh : Why you always came running to me when you were in problem?

Swara : Because you were my friend.

He dragged her towards a frame which held his swara and sanskars pic. A huge frame hung on wall just opposite to sanskars bed.

Laksh  : No , because you always knew bhai would get that information and your problem would be sorted. You relied on him (softly) i always thought  you also loved him but i was wrong you are not worth his love.

Swara : (angry and raised tone) : I am not worth and what about him ? (dramatically voicing) He slept with his wife and next morning declared it as a sin a mistake.

Now it was laksh's turn to be shocked.

Laksh  : What are you talking about swara he loves you?

Swara : All throughout the life my parents kept me in illusion of love. When i wished to fly they chopped my wings. I wished to be a dancer but baba didn't allowed still when in school i appeared on stage without informing in the house. My bad luck baba was the chief guest for the event i went ahead with  courage that seeing my talent baba would understand. But when he got to know he slapped in the auditorium full of people. He made me scared of coming on stage ever. I was treated so badly that i developed fear of stage and public. 

Baba loved me but i was scared moreover fear was in my heart. He coaxed us for studying not using flashy goods. Even playing of certain games were restricted complete childhood went in do's and dont's whenever i raised the voice i was tagged as a "idiot "

I was tagged as a nerd in college a girl with huge spectacles and zero style sense. Ragini was given responsibilities and i was given tags stupid, non sense, idiot, useless who had birthed this under confident girl. 

 As i grew young suddenly my family wanted to make me independent and left me to do my work on my own. A realisation and lecture was given to me about maturity. I was left by everyone when i got messed up in college i was not responsible but my parents believed outsider more then me. 

Baba raised his hand on me i was locked in the room for days together.They forgot to realise i became a loner. Sanskar was my only friend but after his graduation he went for navy training. I was alone no one of my age talked to me. You and ragini were young to understand the matters but i was compelled to rely on you. You both also tagged me remember "foolish."

Laksh was seeing a crying ragini who had fallen down while playing and he was shouting at swara "You are really useless uncle says correct you are a fool." Can't you see and run.

Swara I couldn't fight neither voice out my pain i always felt someone will understand it through my tears but never did anyone see them.

I was just tagged.

In that instance a boy befriends me he shows me the affection i wish to have from my parents.  I fell for his talks my mistake i agree But the night of farewell nothing happened they drugged me and tried  to molest me but i escaped. I tried telling everyone but no one listened to me. I was caged in the house like a bird. More then me family was concerned about there reputation and respect. I was in depression i made it my life.

 When the time came they turned their back handing me over to the son of an unknown minister. As they wished to get rid of this stain on there name. I was shattered but for my fathers respect i agreed. What happened that boy broke the marriage hearing someone's talk.

I was standing on the alter when he humiliated me. Sanskars entry at the instance was like a blessing for my family. That person i called as a friend betrayed me i asked him to help and he offered my parents a charity. He married me against my wish still i stayed in the relation. Tried my best to be of his calibre but he was never happy he spoke softly with you then why i was always on his anger list.

With time i fell for him. Yes , laksh i love sanskar he became my world. I dreamt of him, wanted to be his wife.  I love him i never allowed saahil to come near me because i could never forget him. He lived with me but i was angry on him because he also didn't understand me. I agree he is the best but am i bad to be blamed always.

  I wished to tell him everything that night. My birthday how happy was i when we took our relationship to next level. What happened between us is dream of every married girl to be of her husband completely. I thought he also loves me and was ready to give me my rights. Waking up i just wished to hear his confession but the next morning broke all my dreams. That man just used me to satisfy himself in that night and i felt he loved me. I wished to stay back with him start my life but he shook me out of the dream. How ashamed he was when he said you both that he committed a sin last night a mistake was it just that not an emotion.  

I saw tears in his eyes in my sanskars eyes. I left him making my dream a story to give him space to live his life.

he remembered the talks between him sanskar and ranjan the morning after swara's birthday. A day before she left for canada.

Laksh : You are so wrong about bhai. He married you because he loved you everyone knew that . Shomi maa spoke  to him and he denied because shekhar uncle didn't want an orphan as his daughters groom. Maa told him that she would take his proposal to your house but he denied as he respected and wished not to spoil any relations. Though he had ghosh's name but he was not established he feared his past. He always felt you deserved the best and he thought he was not the one. 

Fate had different plans bhai had made thorough enquiry about the guy you were getting married. Still on the marriage day that scene occured. It was me who called bhai as he wished not to attend your wedding as he can't see you tying knot with someone else. 

After marriage he was happy but didn't get any time with you. Swara , ever bhai allowed you to get humiliated? Did he leave your hand?

Rather he stood as a strong support fought for you with everyone. Even if it was your mistake he took the thrashing how you forgot that swara.

He had decided he won't marry anyone if its not you. The conversation about which you are talking. He said that because he knew your dreams were high and he didn't wished that his love holds you back. He wanted you to fly and colour the sky he gave you wings to do so. At least you could have talked to me once before leaving.

Flashback.

When bhai said he did a sin he wished he never gave you that feeling. He never wanted you to crave for that desire and throw your ambitions at bay. He had seen that insiatable urge in you that night which might make you suffer later. 

After that sentence he confessed he loves you more then himself. He always dreamt of you and wished you achieve your dreams .

I proudly announced that you were going to canada and now no one can stop you. 

He was very angry on knowing we didn't trust him enough to tell this but as always decided to help us. I saw his anger but never saw the pain which his heart felt.

When i and ragini helped you get out of the house shekhar uncle was alerted about it. The plan the escape route was also hatched by bhai only. Bhai handled the police and others as an authority being your husband. When he reached you and ragini he could have dragged you back but he decided to let you go. Your dreams were always lived by him. 

He himself safely dropped you to airport.  It was difficult for bhai to see you going far.He turned back towards you and stood with hands cross on the chest to avoid holding you but ever you noticed his eyes which held the pain. When you hugged ragini and turned you heard the stern voice saying " I think you should go now" but I still remember when you left bhai broke down on the airport i had never seen bhai crying ever before. he spent sleepless nights thinking of just one person that was you.

Back in present

Did you ever think being from such a reknowned family how no one ever got you back to India. The power that aunty uncle hold they could have grounded you but no they had to change there decision because bhai pleaded in front of them.

Today also to keep you safe he pleaded in front of aunty and arnab. You know what you decided to leave everything and kept chasing your dream bhai he kept on clearing the thorns in your way. He placed his hands on the thorns so you don't step on it. Every time you stepped on his hands piercing thorns in it to climb the ladder of prosperity but he never showed you his pain. Even after he was court martialed and knew the reason he didn't allow your name to come in any records.

Maa, you know bhai worships her he didn't even take your name infront of her causing her to go away from him. 

He also knew you are the only witness who can clear the stain on his name. Then you would be proved guilty your  name and record both will be stained. 

The people with whom you dealt were criminals if by any mean they knew Sanskar was contacting you to be witness or getting you back they would surely harm you.

You know what was the first case i handled after joining the post was my bhai's case. I and dad had to interrogate him knowing he was innocent. He was humiliated in court made fun of just because of you. Still he kept loving you. One person who always thought you were innocent was bhai.

Swara was buried in her own guilt and last nail to the coffin got her feeling suffocated. While laksh kept on talking.

He got the data back keeping his life in danger and proved himself innocent but his name was stained. He left navy and prepared for IAS exam after clearing it with merit he joined as CIO. There also his genuinity was questioned but he kept on proving himself. In professional life people kept on asking proof but you made his personal life also a question mark.

He waited for 3 years and decided when you come back after completing your studies he will tell you his feeling. He will make you his forever and keep you safe . He always feared he is an orphan that status should not hamper your life. That was the reason he never proposed you before even after loving from the day he first time saw you . He even denied mom for marriage with you because he thought you deserve the best.

The day you were standing on alter your tears your dignity and respect made him take the decision.He earned love and respect kept the families together preserved your bond just for you.

Then that day arrived he decorated this room and was busy since week after your convocation waiting for you to be back. He kept on waiting but you had decided not to come back. When he knew your visa was expired he was scared thinking your situation. Bhai took help of jenny for this as he knew none of our family members would help in your case.

Swara : Jenny...

Laksh: Yes , jenny an undercover cop and working on an assignment against saahil's illegal activities in canada . Bhai had worked with her on a project and knew about her stay in canada she agreed to help him knowing his nature on his request she got you to her rented house.

He also told her by any means you should not be involved in any lead or the crime investigation league. He feared your innocence and carefree nature will land you in trouble.

Remember the amount paid for your MBA by Jenny that was given to her by bhai. The amount you received as A line funding for your business.He emptied his bank balance so you could fullfill your each dream. 

In the meantime we got information from canadian embassy a girl claiming as our sister had reached them. Dad denied even knowing her but bhai asked for a chance. Dad said he won't help but shomi maa helped us getting kavita di back.  It was the same time when you were thrown out your hostel as your visa expired. Saahil played smart game and getting your information hired you.

Saahil married kavita di also for her name. She being bitten by love bug didn't understand his intention and went with him to canada seeing dreams of a beautiful future. He kept her in illusion of love and made her business partner. She was happy and enjoying being blind until a day she was caught for smuggling diamonds. When she went deep she knew saahil was using her.

Elli and Dan were kept in custody by saahil so that di doesn't run away. When you entered and your concern for kid made di sure he won't harm the kid in your presence. She took Mrs Schultz in confidence asking her to take care of kids she decided to run seek help and get her kids back. 

You told she slept with men on business trips went there to enjoy. Truth is saahil made her go on trips stating different reasons but truth is he was smuggling hiding from her. He kept on drugging her and making her sleep with men for his benefit. Later used those pics and case against her to get kids.She had become an addict he tagged her with filthy names, his advocate humiliated her in front of the whole court staining her dignity . 

Saahil is a illegal trafficking mafia world's don. He used kavita di and then you. 

Swara was shocked at this revelation. 

She was admitted and under treatment. Trinetra maa was seeing her own daughter in the rehabilitation she set up to help victim girls. She was disturbed even tried to commit suicide only thing that could give her reason to live were her kids. 

Then bhai on her behalf filed the case and fought to get Elli and Dan back in India. His main concern was you but he knew you won't understand as you were not in contact with any of us. In this time saahil was getting more closer to you making you an emotional fool. Bhai was informed this by jenny . she was about to tell you everything but saahil killed her and when you got caught with his smuggled drugs. He got you free getting in your good books and removing jenny from his way he blamed the drug case on her name.

He had planned after jenny went missing you will be thrown out of the rented apartment as your name will be joined in illegal activity. It happened and he took you home you were also racing against time to quickly fullfill your dreams you took him as a ladder.

Then with god's grace some intelligence was kicked in you and you shifted from his house to your own. Further you set up your business still his work was going on smoothly Bhai secretly kept on supporting you just so you are not trapped.

Bhai made sure your name doesn't appear in criminal record as you kept travelling dropping his parcels.

Swara : I never did anything at such.

laksh (smiling at her foolishness): Bhai rightly says you are very innocent still a kid. Those parcels which you gave in charitable trusts as goodies. It consisted of smuggled products.

Luckily he would never get custody of kids because bhai proved his crimes. Kids don't know about him we don't want to hurt them.

Swara :: He said we would have the custody of kids soon.

Laksh (smiling at her stupidity): Sending you here was also a full proof plan. He showed her pics of parcel which she was suppose to deliver .It held diamonds which were smuggled through you. He knew you won't be caught as you had  respectable names attached with you. He knew ever since he trapped you that someone was protecting you he used it for his benefit.

He would get profit either way if you were not caught consignment would be delivered and he gets money. If you get caught he will kill you and get every one's name associated with you stained.

Bhai saved you by getting parcel from you which confirmed the news that we had received through intelligence that you are helping saahil in his criminal work. You remember bhai dashed you on the airport she had a flash how she felt him near. We knew it and seeked help from shomi maa as bhai was sure you are innocent he always believed you rather the only person who believed you.

Shomi maa gave him orders to retain you even if it meant to kill you. 

Bhai and arnab bhai had planned in the afternoon that you will be kept here for next two days without letting you know the reason.

As the smuggled diamond didn't reach the right place they got to know that you are under radar and they tried to kill you. There also bhai saved you.

He will be here in next 2 days as there is a big mafia conference to be held . He doesn't know theres a huge trap laid for him he has been hiding in burrows since long now its pay back time. This time i would encounter him for sure he dared to touch my bhai.

With this line he remembered he was here to get sanskars medical file. He felt his phone vibrating he saw his mother calling.

Laksh :  sorry mom I am coming in sometime.

Ignoring swara he went to the wardrobe opening the locker pulled out few files. As he harshly banged wardrobes door it was wide open with a bag peeping out while few cds kept on it were scattered on the floor.

Swara : What about that girl whom sanskar was staring in the farewell party?

Laksh : My god swara so much of misconception bhai was not seeing her but he was unable to cope up from you.

Swara : Me

Laksh : yes he was lost in your dance. He was amazed at your talent when he provoked you fought with you for getting you out of stage and public fear he thought you would sing song or give some speech but you left him shock with dance on two item numbers... 

Swara : That drunk girl with whom i saw him in the room...

Laksh removed his phone are you talking about her. Swara was looking at the girl wide eyes she nodded in yes.

Laksh : She is our bhabhi ranjan's then girl friend and now wife Shruti.

Swara : What if the consignment was delivered? They would have still killed me

Laksh : Hmm... Bhai, won't have allowed this to happen ever. There fore he had sent Hari sir to be your guard. He is senior person well trained and efficient to take down 6 persons at a time.

Swara : what if there were more then 6?

 Laksh: Bhai alone would have handled the rest.

Swara : He was around.

Laksh : Always.

Saahil didn't knew as his men who was suppose to be with you was banged by us. We kept you in hotel which they booked we knew next day you will surely come home.He would have killed you after the parcel was delivered or may be after you returned . 

Either ways we were to keep you back for 2 days so you were safe. After we arrest saahil you were free to be back to canada.

Swara saw him walking off.

Swara: Laksh, I want to meet captain once.

Laksh : I am sorry you can't..

Swara was pleading 

Swara : "just once please. Only once i know whatever i did it can't be forgiven but one chance. I would not disturb anyone just look at him from far Please laksh "

Laksh: It's dangerous for you to step out of the house

Swara: You still can't say a proper lie.

laksh: There is security around sanskar. Shomi and trinetra maa have given strict orders not to let you meet bhai. Yes, shekhar uncle and baba don't even want your shadow around bhai they are personally monitoring the CCTV cameras. You know there calibre well.

Laksh was on the door when he replied not looking at her " Even i don't wish you meet bhai stay for two days and leave to your world forever"

As laksh opened the door he saw all the tensed faces outside ragini, kavita,Ranjan, shruti and arnab. 

Swara walked towards kavita and mouthed a genuine sorry. Kavita wiped her tears and gave a warm hug. She knew what pain swara must be going through as she was been through that phase. Swara was lucky enough that she was safe rather always kept safe.

Swara looked at ranjan standing with shruti seems as they heard the misunderstanding that swara had. They were looking at her with pity. She deserved it anyways such a fool she had been away from family and friend under the shadow of a fake love. 

Kavita left with ragini and shruti towards  the room. Arnab asked laksh to go ahead he wished to exchange a word with swara. Laksh went off as he had already been late.

Swara was in the room looking at the scattered room trying to gather herself. Arnab and Ranjan entered the room and stood trying to put words in sentence looking at her state.

Arnab: Swara

She went and hugged arnab crying to her wits.

Swara : Bhai, i am sorry bhai for everything but i intentionally didn't do anything.

Arnab: I know pakhi( pakhi means bird in Bengali) ... But you have hurt sanskar a lot still that man loves you. I agree baba was always strict with you we never realised your pains or state of mind. Swara your anger has ruined your life.

Ranjan : Maybe you don't deserve him but he deserves you because he have fought with the fate and world to keep  you safe.

Arnab:  You know i always thought no one can love family or wife like i do. I had a pride of my own.

Sanskar is different you knew he was always that strict, disciplined person who is perfectionist but he never tried to change you. He accepted the way you are loved you likewise. He kept you away so you be safe. Those people would have killed you after their work was done. As you were prime witness in sanskars case. He preferred getting humiliated then putting your name in any criminal record.

There were also some political rivals from dads party who wished to get dad down. Thats why that trick of drugging you in farewell party was done. Sanskar was worried about it. When he returned from war he knew your life was in danger and also your plan to achieve your dream. He decided to support you by hook or crook.

Ranjan : Swara , (swara lifted her eyes in his direction): I just know one thing the only women captain ever loved was you. The night of your birthday was set up so he could profess his love. I still remember his frown when you teased him on his song selection for such a romantic date but he had sung from heart swara. Each word replicated his emotions.

Swara remembered sanskar singing "Naino ki jo baat naina jaane hain ankhiyon ke raaz toh raina jaane hain" 

whereas she always wished him to sing some romantic number from shahrukh or salman flick. She had scolded him for singing such an outdated song infront of her friends.

 Then she got drunk in anger but sanskar smiled and pacified her with them consumating there marriage finally. 

She was shaken by arnab seeing her lost as ranjan was still talking ....

Now you won't have any complaint with him.I have seen him seeing romantic movies just so he can tell you those cheesy lines. My friend was chunni babu not even devdas though he never drank he immersed himself in work. He was intoxicated by work his chandramukhi we missed him a lot and hope he would return with you his paro.

I have heard him singing romantic numbers because you love it and some day he will express his love with some song for you.

Yes, He had also rehearsed to propose you in all those gaga lines praising your beauty, eyes etc etc. You might find his recordings some day.... 

(His eyes turned moist)I wish my friend is able to get the love he craved for...

Arnab : I have seen pakhi the extent of his love. His eyes sparkled when your name was taken.

That man was in my arms with bullet in his chest.  unable to move all he was worried was that you are kept safe. You know what he wispered in my ears

" Take care of my life she can't stand blood... Keep her in house she hates the smell of hospital.. Please don't scold her for messing up she is innocent."

So true na pakhi being your brother at that instant i forgot about you but his mind was still wandering around you.

Just one request swara its matter of 1 week max please don't move from your security zone. Once this chaos end i will personally send you back to canada. I have promised him..

Saying this arnab left the room. Swara was not even able to say anything. She looked around the messed up room. She got up talking to herself tidying the room.

Swara : Captain hates messy room i will clean it. When he comes home he will feel bad seeing the room. 

She cleared the room  in this time she was restless. She carefully cleared the bed of all the photos and frame and put a clean sheet nicely tucking it. Tears kept on spilling out of her eyes.

Ranjan saw her blabbering to herself he felt bad for her and left the room not able to see her condition.

After tidying the room she reached the wardrobe which was scattered by laksh. She saw the CD's scattered she picked and looked at CD's wide moist eyes. Similar one which was sent to her by the unknown well wisher. As she got up her head dashed into a bag which she carefully held it was having laptop. Of course sanskars laptop she kept it on bed with the diary and arranging the cupboard sat on the bed staring at the treasure she had found.

A diary and the laptop. The diary was filled with content of his heart.Not a single page turned without her thought. She kept on getting buried in her own guilt. Then she searched and got other diaries she read about their first encounter how he fell for her innocence. He understood that being in pampered environment she was scared to face the world. Later he realised that it was more of psycological pain that she had because of continues beating and scolding from her parents.

Suddenly she was left alone to become responsible which made her lonely and scared. To hide it she became stubborn but she was still a innocent little girl.  Her anger was ruining her she didn't knew what problems she may face because she is not able to voice out her felings. She wishes people to understand her i fear she may loose her sanity some day.

Her self confidence was shaken she was scared that if she shares her dreams they will kill her. She never met there ideologies hence was always tagged. She couldn't trust even the ones she wished to because whoever she trusted broke it. Love was a word which was not fated for her she believed in this.

She has loads of misunderstanding some day he wishes to resolve them sitting across. 

Whenever her father got strict she rebelled to get the things done her own way.

There was a beautiful memory stuck in the dairy which belonged to their marriage. A beautiful pic and below it was written " New Life begins with Insiatable desires to be fullfilled".

She traced each letter his pic with utmost love filled eyes.

When he got strict she took it as challenge. He was happiest seeing her on stage dancing just to prove him wrong.

He loved the song she danced on "Leja leja re chura ke saare rang leja" I am writing it because i never want to forget that image of you swaying on the stage. I would always cherish when you looked in your smirk look dancing on " aankhiyon se likhe love letter" Oh my girlie i couldn't get over you i don't know anything after you dance. That moment when you said that dance was just for your husband.

 He knew she hated lucky and everyone around him thinking he loved them more. Just because he never showed her love the way he showered on others. He also hated the fact but he didn't knew how to be with a girl. Specially someone so special he was scared he might not be what she wishes for.

Truth would never change even if she thought so, he loved her a lot and would keep on loving her. 

She also knew about his secret visits to Canada. How he loved to see her from far. He knows she felt him around he trusts her and knows she loves him whatever she says.

He hated saahil whenever he tried to touch her. He had immense trust she won't allow anyone to take advantage of herself. Every little memory of her he had preserved in his words. She got her few old pics which were sent to him by laksh or his mom when he was away sailing.

His hardships,failures, love,pain everything tore her apart. She even read the pain he went through when he was court martialed how he was interrogated like a criminal. How he almost died retrieving those evidences.

She kept on reading when she saw kavita entering the room with a plate filled with food.

Swara: Di

Kavita looked at her trying to register what she called.

Swara: I think i can call you that

Kavita smiled and nodded.

Swara: Di, captain...

Kavita: His condition is critical. May be he won't....

Kavitas sentence remained incomplete as Swara at once closed her mouth.

Swara: No di he is very strong. Nothing would happen to him.

Kavita: (smiling in pain) Yes nothing would happen to him

She said caressing her confident gloomy face.

Swara: I just don't wish to eat please

Kavita knew this would be her reply even after repeated pleas she didn't eat.

Kavita : You love him

Swara : DI, i always did may be i always thought it as my anger for thinking he was not loyal to me (holding her hand) but i always loved him unknowingly. I know i don't deserve him but for sure i am not leaving without expressing my feeling. Also, i am not allowing him to leave so soon if he wants to punish he needs to be healthy for it. I am ready to bear everyone's punishment but not leaving the space.

Kavita : It is said wife's have fought god's to get there husband back i believe it . You surely would get your husband back.

As kavita was about to go with the plate swara read something in the diary and immediately calling her took the plate and started eating.

She looked vulnerable tear stained face swollen eyes hairs held up in a messy bun... The room looked spic and span just the way her brother liked. Kavita smiled at the thought how much swara knew him because everything was placed like he would do it.

Kavitas eyes fell on the diary which laid open beside her she smiled reading it with moist eyes.

" Jonaki doesn't take care of her health i feel starved when she skips her food in pain."

Jonaki means firefly in Bengali thats what Sanskar calls swara her secret petname. She saw it written everywhere in his dairy.

Swara's condition was vulnerable she was not in her senses. Rather she was guilty or pained right at that moment she just wanted warmth of someone's arms. She remembered how he consoled her when she was scolded. When he was sailing she kept calling him for hearing those soothing words. 

How even that strangers passed on the soothing words therefore she liked it because it was his words. he knew her but she kept on misunderstanding him not any more. She would leave him if he wants but won't allow him to go far away.

Everytime when world said she was wrong he stood against entire clan saying she is right he believes her. 

She wished to be with him ask him why he did that to her.Why he loved her so much...

It was already 2 in the afternoon she kept on reading his diary. She opened his laptop as she got the password from his dairy a little brain applied. 

Her petname Jonaki alongwith the date of their consumation or her birthday....

She looked at her and sanskars pic which was from the time they were not married. She smiled caressing sanskars face on it.

Your Jonaki is there with you she will be with you always. I will fight everything even if it means to deserve humilation i will face everyone's anger. I won't leave you for anything.

He loved her but she didn't see it many times people love us and show it through there small action. We don't feel it because we are very busy dreaming about love then accepting the way it is in our life....

Misunderstanding a small word but sometimes makes a huge impact on life. 

May be she has to live all throughout her life in same guilt.

Will she be able to talk to sanskar?

Will he survive his condition?

 will Saahil allow them to be together ever?

Some ends are not complete but just the beginnings to something different. we can complete or either leave it just with the question do tell me what the readers prefer... Also, if they want it to be happy or sad reasons for your approach.