~Wyatt~

I sat in class just staring at the board as the teacher wrote on it but I wasn’t paying attention to anything. I was stuck in my own world once again. It’s been happening to me a lot since Zane got out of the hospital and since Adam and I talked. I was in math class so I instinctually glanced over at Zane’s seat but found it empty like it has been for over two weeks now. He was still recovery at Owens house but I had seen Owen around school.

I was embarrassed to say that I’ve been avoiding him as much as I can. I know I was being a complete coward but I was so confused lastly I could hardly function! It was driving me mad, I swore I was ready to start ripping my hair out.

I had to choose.

I had to choose.

I had to choose.

It was like a broken record repeating over and over in my head.

But how could I? I feel like I’ve been asking myself this question for too long!

From the sad depressed looks I’ve been getting from Owen I knew I had to do something. I was torturing him and myself. Who knows what I’ve been doing to Zane.

The bell rung then and I slowly stood, grabbed my stuff and trudged out of class feeling like a zombie.

Zane or Owen?

Owen or Zane?

How does one choose between two great men as these?

Zane, the bad boy. He had his fault with being a playboy but I knew who he really was under that mask he put on. I knew he truly wanted to help me forget all my troubles and I wanted to do the same for him. And let’s not forget how I feel when I’m around him. How a simple touch from him can turn my body to mush. Or how the feel of his lips on mine started a fire so hot, my insides burned with just the thought. He was sex on legs and it was like he filled a part of me I never knew I had.

Then there was Owen, the angel in disguise, I knew he was a faithful person. He would never betray me, and I could trust him not to hurt me. Being around him made me feel good and calm but when our skin touched it was like an ignition of pure pleasure. I felt so complete with him.

So tell me what I was to do with that?!

 It just wasn’t fair!

I walked down the hall in a daze when I bumped into someone sending me flying backwards.

“Ow” I exclaimed as my ass landed hard on the floor. Glancing up I saw a concerned Owen leaning over to help me up.

“I’m so sorry Wyatt, I didn’t see you.” his deep voice traveled through my body with a delicious shiver down my spine. I smiled shaking my head, well so much for avoiding him.

“No it’s alright.” I reached out for his hand and I bit my lip as he lifted me from the floor with such ease. I stood inches from him now and the strong smell of chlorine was coming off him.

“Were you swimming?” I asked without thinking.

He smiled down at me and my legs turned to water.

“Uh, yeah, I came early to get a couple laps in before school.” He explained. His beautiful brown eyes stared deep in mine never looking away, it was so intense. I noticed that his brown hair was growing out, now resting inches from his eyebrows. I had the sudden urge to reach out and run my fingers through it.

“How’s Zane?” I blurted out trying to change the mood between us as it swiftly become dangerously intimate. He cleared his throat,

“H-he’s good. Healing nicely; you should come visit. I’m sure he’d like that.” he mumbled glancing at the floor.

“I will”

There was an awkward pause as we stood there until I saw him open his mouth to say something.

“Wyatt, how come you’v-”

Brrrriiiiing!

I jumped at the sound of the bell and secretly sighed in relief. I knew what he was going to ask and wasn’t prepared to answer.

“Oh man, I’m late” I cried over dramatically.

“Yeah, I’ll see you late I guess.” Oh god the dejected tone in his voice made me want to hug him.

“For sure” I said waving after him as I power jogged to class.

“See you” I called and turned the corner practically booking it down the hall.

*****

“I hear your boy toy isn’t at school, something about him getting the shit kicked out of him.” a familiar voice assaulted my ears then as I closed my locker for the day. Cringing I turned to see Derek leaning up against the neighboring locker.

Flashbacks to when Zane did that made me smile a bit but is completely lost when Derek reached out and softly caressed my cheek with his finger.

If this would have happened a couple weeks back I would have been all for it, a sucker you can say but now I was disgusted.

“You don’t need him anyway; he was just a man whore.” I narrowed my eyes and swatted his hand away. Just the feel of his touch made me want to vomit.

“The only man whore I see is you.” I growled snatching my backpack off the floor. “And Zane is not my boy toy, jerk.” I marched off down the hall.

“Wow, kitty got claws I see. And I don’t ever remember putting a name to boy toy so it must be true.” He chuckled behind me.

Oh god, was he always this ugly?

I reached the front door when he yanked me back and pulled me into a dark corner to the side.

“Let go!” I demanded trying to yank my arm out of his grip.

“What happened Wyatt, you use to be this cute, little pathetic mouse; I want him back.” he whispered seductively, his face inches from mine.

“He grew up and saw you for what you are, that’s what happened. Now let me go!” I said through clenched teeth.

“Where were you going anyway, I bet you were off to go whore yourself out to boy toy and lover boy?” I frowned at him.

“Yeah, I’ve heard all about how you’re dating both that Zane guy and Owen dude. Plus I’ve seen you all chummy with one when others not around. One’s not enough for you anymore?” he sneered.

“Look who’s talking! Get out of my face Derek” I was seriously getting pissed. Who did he think he was?!

“I was enough though, huh? I kept you satisfied. How about refreshing my memory with that tight little ass of yours Wyatt… well hopefully it’s still tight” he chuckled nastily to himself.

I had enough, gathering all my strength I pushed him away making him slam his back up against the wall.

“You’re a disgusting pig! I don’t even see what attracted me to you anymore.”

“My dick” he rushed me, “Come on you know you want it” he then made a grabbed at my pants, cupping me painfully.

“Ah” I yelped in discomfort.

“Stop!” I struggled away but he held harder.

“F**k me Wyatt” he whispered in my ear, nipping at the lobe.

Bile rose in my throat,

“What’s wrong with you!” I exclaimed my breath was coming out in terrified gasps. What was he trying to do, rape me and at school no less? Give me a break.

Man he was so strong, was he always this strong? Suddenly I wasn’t so sure.

“Stop, please” I was losing all my confidence as he forced himself on me.

“Oh how I’ve missed you” he breathed in my ear causing my skin to crawl.

There was no one in the halls since it was after four. School let out at three.

Wait there were still teachers right?

“Help!” I screamed at the top of my lungs but it was cut short by the hard punch to my mouth.  I gasped in shock as I turned to stare at Derek, unable to see where the person I cried for, for so many month disappeared to. This wasn’t my childhood friend anymore; he wasn’t my first love either.

He was a complete stranger.

Those familiar green eyes held an expression I never seen before in them.

 Hate and lust.

“Shut up and do what I say, dammit.” he growled at me.

My body was shaking at this point and the strong metallic taste in my mouth wasn’t helping matters either. He then turned me around slamming my already bruised face in the wall.

“Why can’t I stop thinking about you?” he hissed venomously in a tone that made the hairs on my skin stand on end. His hot breath fanned the back of my neck as his hands struggled with my jeans, till I heard a distinctive ripping sound.

“You’re just a whore now, being used by two guys.” His disgust was clear in his voice.

“No, stop Derek, please!” I cried. What was wrong with me, why wouldn’t my body move? Why couldn’t I fight!?

“You haunt me and I can’t take it anymore. I’m going to use you till you’re out of my system, till I don’t see your face in my nightmares anymore!”

The moment his fingers found their way down my pants and skimmed my ass I lost it.

“Nooooo!” I screamed. My frozen body broke from whatever held it had and instinct kicked in. He was really intending to rape me! Why would he do this to me!?

He smashed my face harder in the wall to hold me down but I wouldn’t be restrained. I fought with all my might screaming, kicking pushing myself away from the wall the best I could.

‘Help me’ I cried silently, desperately.

When it all stopped, there was no hand holding me down or in my pants anymore. The low thuds of a fist hitting flesh registered but all I could do was slid down the wall in a heap of nerves.

‘Did that really just happen?’

I turned my head slowly to where I saw two people pounding the crap out of each other, or more like one person pounding the crap out of the other. I watched as the one on the bottom getting the beating finally worked his way free out from under his attacker and ran off.

Then it was quiet, all but the sounds of his short heavy panting and my racing heart; that’s when the water works started with a giant sob.

I can’t believe Derek did that to me?

I can’t believe I actually got assaulted at school.

The reality of the situation just made it worse and I collapsed on the floor curling into the fetal position.

“Wyatt” the soft but deep familiar voice reached my ears as an equally gentle hand touched my shoulder.

“You’re ok, everything’s alright now.” He whispered.

I glanced up and launched myself in his arms, hugging him tightly to me as he repeated that over and over again in my ear, saying he would never let it happen to me again, that he’d protect me. My crying subsided and my body finally relaxed into his.

‘Derek, what happened to you to change you into such a mean and vile person?’ I thought.

He used to be so caring and funny, he might not have been the nicest guy I knew but he would never have pulled such a stunt as he did today.

I didn’t know who that person was, but he wasn’t the Derek I knew.

The soothing circle he made on my back brought me out of my head and all I could think of was getting out of here, away from this spot, away from this school!

“Are you alright?” I shook my head and looked up at him.

“Get me out of here, please Zane.” I pleased, looking into his icy blue eyes. He nodded,

“Ok”