Duncan;

After the explosion, the only thing I feel is guilt. I... I didn't mean for it to go off, I locked away the button and threw away the key... So that my crazy alter ego wouldn't press it to spite me. I hope no one was caught in the explosion, I would never be able to forgive myself if someone was. I... Could have killed Rythian, Zoey, Teep, Glibert...

You've killed so many, why do you blame yourself now?

Go away, Lalnable.

No. I want to see blood. Kill something, Duncan, you know you want to~

No. I don't. Now shut up and go away.

Kill her~Kill the lady~

Who?

The ice woman, Reni...

No! Just because she hates me doesn't mean I kill her!

Well, I thought that I might as well make is convenient, she's at the door, dumbass.

What?! Why would she see me?

I'll say one thing: she's super angry. More angry then I am insane, and that's off the charts.

Oh god.

I slowly walk to the door, pressing my ear to the wood to see if there was any noise out there. Even when I strain my ears, I can't hear anything... Strange. I guess Lalnable was lying. There was a hiss, like... A fuse, lighting! Oh crap!

I couldn't back away in time, but luckily I took no damage due to my quantum armour, though I took full impact of the blow. I see the rubble my courtyard had become, due to the TNT. Falling on my back, I sit up to see a angry Reni, and I felt a pang in my heart. A pain I have every time I meet her. As she hates me more, the pain gets worse... I believe it's because I... I... Like h-her.

You're reaaaally stupid, you know.

Shut up! I don't need your advice!

I look towards her, and my heart beats faster. She glares down at me with cold eyes, did I do something wrong?

"Blackrock."She hisses, as guilt builds up inside me."Why did you nuke it? There were people leading a good life there, surviving. Kind hearted, understanding people who respect others' feelings. Why do you try your best to anger me?!"

"I-I-I..."I stutter, I just can't seem to get the words out of my mouth.

She throws a punch at me, and narrowly misses.

"I used to live a life of dreams too, Duncan! Everyone would be kind to me, just because of my status! I was a god, an ice God at that! Notch sealed away my powers because I went crazy, like I am today. I lock away my feelings, because of my fear of bonds being broken. No one apart from you ever figured out who I was if I didn't tell them. How did you do it? I need to know!"Tears form at the corners of her eyes as I gape, still utterly speechless. She's a god?! An ice God?!

"You don't understand, Duncan!"She screams."You always find my weaknesses, the weaknesses I try so hard to hide!"

I don't see a cold hearted woman before me anymore, I see a broken girl crying into my chest, trying to hurt me, and yet failing.

"Duncan, answer me! Why did you blow up Blackrock?! Why did you have to mess up everything I ever wanted! Friends, true bonds... Do you enjoy wrecking my life?!"

"Reni, calm down! I nuked Blackrock because... Because..."

"Having no reason is far worse than having one! Duncan, you have gone too far. I had to use my powers to stop Zoey from dying, Rythian's in pieces and you've forced them to go into hiding. From you. Duncan... You're a monster."

I let the words sink in, as I realise how true they were. I've done terrible things. Horrifying. All because of my devotion to science. I didn't realise what I had done then, but the hollow truth rests inside of me. All the terrible things I've been doing lately are psychotic, bloodthirsty and cruel. I have no right to be called a scientist, if I only life for science. There is still one thing though, one thing that could protect me...

"I'll give you a reason, Reni..."I offer her a small smile."Ever since you left I felt empty, and madness started to take over... I did it over the loss of you...

Because I love you, Serenity."

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AN:

That happened... Rencan!