i slowly killing my self.

jisoo-noona told me not to, but i didn't listen.

i couldn't sleep which cause me to drink the sleeping pills.

dosoon-hyung scolded me for eating too much sleeping pills, i didn't care.

i didn't have my appetite at all to eat. i starved my self.

jennie-noona also forced me to eat my food, i said i did but i lied

i didn't have any strength to go out of the house even though i need fresh air

yugyeom said he would pick me up so we could go out, i told him i was busy.

jungkook asked me if we could go out-bowling. i told him i need some sleep.

somi told me to stay healthy, i told her i was healthy but i lied

daehwi-was a former trainee in jyp and moved to brand new music ent. told me to always updating him because he was worried but i didn't update him even once

what was i doing to my self?

what were you doing to me?

what have you done to me, rose?