I don't know what I'm do my anymore.

The pain is so unbearable....I hide everything behind a smile. My friends don't know me. I don't even know myself. What am I? What is my purpose in life? Why am I here? To cause pain and sadness? To destroy lives? Who knows. I cry myself to sleep, if I even can sleep. I'm so confused. I can't bare to be in my own skin I hate my face, my speech, my art my everything.  I just don't know anymore. No one cares. I want to leave. I want to be set free I don't know. I wonder sometimes if they knew. Would they care? Would they notice? Idk...anyways I should be back to updating soon