wow. it's almost here. in a month and a half, i will be a high school graduate.

it's strange and sad.

and also exciting and alluring.

in the fall i will be attending college, and for the first time i have wondered if it is time for me to "retire" my Wattpad.

i sincerely enjoy writing, and wish to pursue a career path that will allow me to continue doing so, but I feel alone in this community.

my friends have long since gone and having no companions is an icy death for me.

this place is lonely now, every time i open the app i feel sinking disappointment.

if all goes well, i will finish my books this summer.

after that, i may go on a permanent hiatus, only returning to complete edits, reply to comments and inboxes and see how things are going.

this isn't 100% certain, but this is most likely what will happen. this thing i want to write—hell, the way i want to write isn't supported. at least within the community in which i somehow stumbled upon popularity.

it still baffles me to this day.

but alas, i may find it within myself to continue writing fan fiction. it just may not be fairy tail, as it is an old love and i have long since found new things to love.

anyway, sorry for the ramble but i felt like putting things down.

not like anyone ever reads these kinds of things from me.

Kelsey, 9:00pm, 3/18/18