✪14✪

“Hey,” I greeted Jin as enthusiastically as I could and he just gave me a small smile and opened his arms quietly. I wordlessly walked over and hugged him tightly, burying my nose in his shoulder. We stayed like that for some time until Jin cleared his throat and I let go.

"What are you thinking?" he whispered. "Tell me."

"You can read my mind-"

"Talk to me, Joan. I don't want to infiltrate your thoughts all the time. Sometimes I want you to talk to me because you want to." He raised an eyebrow. "You do want to, right?"

"Of course, I do, but I'm not in the mood for speaking right now," I sighed.

"You aren't ever in the mood, Joan. It's better to confide in people than let your feelings consume you until you can bear it no longer."

"I want to," I muttered defensively. "I- just- can't."

"Why can't you? I'm here. You know I am. I'm always here for you and I want to help you! You barely spoke after what happened to Matthew-"

"And that's my fault? The fact that I barely spoke?"

"I can read minds. I can't force minds into submission. So yes, if you didn't talk, then it's pretty much your fault."

I ran a hand through my hair and pushed Jin away. "Leave me alone."

"Joan-"

"No," I snapped. "I didn't speak about how his death affected me, because I had nobody to speak to! You say that I'm to blame, but you left. You left me alone one week after he died and you expect me to open up?"

"I had no choice-"

"If it was that urgent, you should have taken me with you!"

His eyes saddened and he avoided my gaze as they slowly became watery. "I wanted you with me," he muttered miserably and I laughed sarcastically.

"Yeah right," I scoffed.

"I did, Joan, I did! You have to believe me, I wanted to be with you and help you, that's why I called every night!"

"You honestly didn't expect me to cry to you about how I was going crazy over the phone?"

"Please don't be angry," he whimpered. "I'm sorry."

"You left because you wanted to avoid me. You didn't know how to react so you ran away. Again," I silently accused him.

"Again? I didn't-"

"I watched you flee each time I became too much for you to handle, Seokjin and I've watched it happen at least twice a year for the last ten years," I sighed. "Let's just drop this, okay? It's a pointless discussion," I mumbled as he opened his mouth.

"No," he stopped me as I pushed him out of the way and tried to unlock the door. He grabbed me arm and pulled me backwards until I slammed into his chest. Flipping me around, Jin cupped my face and I tried my hardest to ignore the tear trails down his soft cheeks. "This discussion was going to happen, sooner rather than later so let's please finish it now. I don't want to fight with you."

"I don't want to fight either," I whispered, as he traced his thumb over my lower lip, back and forth.

Back and forth.

It was strangely soothing.

"I'm sorry," I said finally, looking sadly into his sweet brown eyes. "I shouldn't have said that. I know you had to find Ingenium before it was too late. I overreacted and I'm sorry."

"Sugar, you don't have to say sorry. It's okay. It's always okay." He pressed his forehead on mine and I grimaced as one of my pimples narrowly avoided being squashed.

"I have acne, Seokjin," I tried wriggling out of his grip but he didn't let go. "Unlike your shining carved diamond stud of a face, I have normal human features, and squishing my pimples is not step one of pimple treatment in any pimple-removing-handbook."

"You and your foolish pimples," he chuckled, giving me a fleeting kiss on my cheek. "Correction, pimple. Singular. You have one fricking invisible pimple on your otherwise highly smooth forehead, you squawking goose. It's not even gross looking."

"So?" I pouted, ignoring my thumping heart as Jin moved closer and closer, gently moving me towards the bathroom wall with each tiny step. "A pimple is a pimple. It doesn't matter if it's one pimple or one dozen pimples-"

"Good God, Joan, stop saying the word 'pimple'!"

"Right," I grinned sheepishly. "Sorry. It's hard to think about anything else after I have already broached this topic and-"

“I could give you something else to think about," he whispered, covering the final stretch of the huge bathroom. He placed his hands on either side of my face, enclosing me in the loving cocoon of his muscly arms.

I stared at his mahogany irises before closing my eyes conveying a silent message. Go on then.

Jin slowly leaned forward and his plump lips landed beneath my ears and I waited.

But he just stopped and stood limply.
Seriously? He thought it was funny to tease me?

I wasn’t going to cave, I wasn’t going to-

Jin’s tongue swiped against my neck. “Seokjin,” I groaned out and I felt him smile cheekily against my skin before kissing my jaw softly and moving upwards until his lips pressed against mine.

And then he stopped again.

I was literally going to kill him, once this was over.

“Seokjin! I swear to God, if you don’t-”
And then his lips attacked mine and I shut up and kissed him back. Without warning I flipped our positions and slammed him against the bathroom tiles and he let out a whine of pain and I stuck my tongue inside his mouth, my hands in his hair.

He gently rubbed his crooked fingers on my waist and I pressed my legs on either side of his before he pushed me off.

‘Joan,” he rasped and I didn’t bother replying. I slung my arms around his neck and rested my forehead against his, my deep breaths fogging the glass behind us.

“Joan,” he tried again and I grunted foolishly in reply, my mind still in disarray after making out with him in my friend's private bathroom. My grip tightened involuntarily.

“Joan, I….”

“Jin stop bleating my name and get on with it.”

“Look at me,” he ordered in a breathy voice and I opened my eyes and glanced up, silvery grey meeting the cinnamon brown hues.

“What?” I whispered finally when he continued gazing at me.

“I love you.”

“I know you do.”

“What?” he snapped. “What kind of dumb reply is that!”

“What am I supposed to say?” I asked bewildered.

“That you love me too!”

“But you know that!”

He grabbed a slipper from the corner of the bathroom and glared at me. “Say it!”

“Say what?” I fluttered my long eyelashes innocently.

He waved his new rubber weapon in front of my face. “Say you love me! Say it! Say it! Say-”

“I love you.”

He exhaled hard and swallowed, glaring at me. “How hard was that? Would it have killed you to say it after I did?”

“It was punishment for teasing me earlier,” I grinned at him.

He tossed the slipper aside and advanced slowly, his eyes narrowed. “Say it again or I’ll dish out a punishment of my own.”

“Say what again, baby?”

“What you just said!”

“Oh, that. It was punishment for teasing me earlier," I smiled brightly.

“Not. That! The loving me bit!” Jin hissed.

I winked at him before opening the door and stepping out. He glared at me, his face stuck in an angry pout.

“I love you, Jin,” I called behind me as I closed the door and walked back to Peter’s living room, ignoring my subconscious telling me ominously that the heated conversation which happened earlier in the bathroom  wasn't over, and would come back to bite me later.

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A/N_

Spotify told me that I spent eight thousand, six hundred and eighty eight minutes listening to BTS music in 2020, which roughly works out to 145 hours.

Best and smartest eight thousand minutes of my whole fricking life.

Lmao it was like two days ago that I was freaking out about 300+ views, now it's 400+!
You guys really are the best aha<3

I made my second Wattpad acc yesterday because wHy NoT
I had to make another gmail account too lmao

The account is called jinius_human_here (and you can say that the name is an effing masterpiece, jUsT like me) and don't bother following it because I won't talk aT aLL from that acc. It's just an outlet for my introverted personality that can't handle all the  love that I get from people on this acc<3 (not that I'm complaining, I've made some amazing friends)

My mom caught me sleeping and thought I was dead and screamed-

Damn I'm so random

Sorry oof byebye cuties

I love you but I love me more♡

Lmao I'm sOrRy oops-

I'll let myself out, yeah?

Byebye =)

Oof almost forgot, Ingenium has a new cover! Check it out ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)