"Happy Birthday to you, Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday dear, Aleeza. Happy birthday to you."

Both the parents sing softly to, now, an year old Aleeza, in front of a small birthday cake that Harry baked himself.

Aleeza giggles softly in Harry's arms as Zayn cuts the cake. She looks cute in her light blue pincess dress with her slightly curly hair hanging loose on her shoulder.

"And now, it's the time for the birthday girl to take the first bite." The hazel eyed man smiles as he feeds a small piece of cake to their daughter, who eagerly eats it from Zayn's hand.

They decided to not do anything extravagant for Aleeza's first birthday. They wanted to keep it private and personal. So they talked to their friends and families and to say they were understanding, would be an understatement. Both Zayn and Harry couldn't be more thankful.

"Yummy isn't it Al? Your papa made this after all." Zayn smiles with his toungue stuck between his teeth as Aleeza giggles happily.

Zayn now looks up at Harry who is smiling wide.

He cuts another piece of cake and brings it to Harry's mouth and feeds him.

Zayn smirks before leaning down and stealing a kiss from his lips. He chuckles at Harry's shocked expression.

"What? You just had some frosting on your lips. I just wiped that away." Zayn shrugs innocently.

"You and I both know there was nothing, Z." Harry rolls his eyes at Zayn playfully.

"You don't believe me? I am hurt." Zayn wipes some invisible tears under his eyes making Harry chuckle more.

"Ba-ba?" Aleeza asks with a frown on her face. Zayn smiles at his daughter as his heart melts for the millionth time, hearing that word from Aleeza. He smiles when Aleeza reaches out and rubs the his cheek.

It's been 2months since Aleeza has started saying 'baba' and 'papa'. Her first was 'ba-ba' though. For which Zayn teased Harry for straight 4days, saying Aleeza loves him more. And although nowadays Zayn hears that word on a regular basis, it still melts his heart.

"Baba is okay baby." Zayn says softly and kisses her chubby cheeks.

"It's funny how she is so protective of you." Harry giggles softly before placing a kiss on Aleeza's hair.

"Pa-pa?" Aleeza asks Harry pointing at the cake.

"No baby. We are first gonna have dinner then we'll eat the rest, okay?" Harry says softly to her, seeing it was getting past her dinner time.

"Oh, cut my baby some slacks Haz." Zayn rolls his eyes taking Aleeza from Harry. "It's her birthday. Isn't it baby?" He coos at Aleeza as he cuts a small piece of cake and feeds her, ignoring the glare Harry is giving her.

"Zayn, it's getting past her bed time. If you feed her more sweet, she won't be able to sleep." Harry scolds him but Zayn just shrugs his shoulders.

"So? It's her birthday." Zayn says in a 'duh' tone before eating a piece himself, moaning at the taste after. "God, Haz. The cake is so good."

Aleeza gives him a toothy laugh.

"Now give baba a kiss." Aleeza giggles but kisses his cheek anyway.

"See Haz? She loves me more. Don't you baby?" The hazel eyed man coos at his daughter.

Harry rolls his eyes fondly before walking out of Aleeza's room to the kitchen, muttering to himself.

"God, it feels like there are two kids in the house instead of one."

****

"Do you think she's happy?" Harry asks as he and Zayn is laying in the darkness of their room, in their bed. Harry's head resting on Zayn's chest as Zayn's hand is resting on Harry's waist.

"I think she's very happy, Haz." Zayn tells him honestly before placing a kiss on his curls. Harry sighs but nods nonetheless. Zayn frowns when he feels Harry's heart beating in a rapid speed.

"Haz, your heart-it's beating so fast. Are you okay?" He asks in concern.

"I am-I am just so scared you know. Like, it's been the best 8months of my life, Z. I am so scared that it's just a dream and I will wake up from it someday." Harry whispers as he traces a patter on Zayn's clothed chest.

"What do you mean?" Zayn looks down at him with concerned eyes. He pats the younger lad's back gently, asking him to look  at him. Harry sighs before pulling his face up a bit and reats his chin on the older lad's chest.

"Like us. I never thought I'd get to spend this kinda family times with you. It's like a dream come true. I-I am scared that it's just a dream and I'll wake up from it soon. I don't wanna wake up Zayn. I am-I am happy like this. I-I don't wanna loose you, again."

Zayn looks at him in concern when he sees Harry's eyes becoming teary.

"Har-"

"No. Please-please let me tell this Zayn. I have been thinking about this since yesterday and I-I am having this feeling that if I don't tell you this now, I will-I will never get a chance to say this. You may hate me after this. But-but I just have to tell you this."

Zayn doesn't say anything just nods as he pulls the now teary eyed boy on top of him.

"I-I-" Harry chokes on his words. Zayn rubs a soothing hand on his back to calm him down.

"Calm down, love. Take a deep breath."

Harry nods before doing as Zayn said.

"I-I love you." Harry chokes out. Zayn doesn't say anything. Just keeps on holding him against his chest. Harry is thankful for that.

"I-I have loved you since I was 16. But-but I didn't say anything because I was scared that I'd ruin our friendship. Then-then you left for the University." Zayn wipes away the tears that was running down his pale cheek.

"It was hell. Living without you. Spending days without seeing you."

"Then-then I got into your University the next year and-and I wanted to tell you how much I love you, but I-I never got the courage. I came out to you and my parents aftrr that. All of you were okay with that and I was happy that you accepted me for who I was. But then-then you went out with Elina and I-I lost you."

"Haz-"

"It hurt so bad. To see you with her, to see you laughing with her. I wanted to be the one to make you smile, laugh. I couldn't take it anymore, that's why I distanced myself from you during that time.

"Then you broke up with her. I didn't wanna jump on you right after the break up, so I-I waited. Then you came out as bisexual, I thought this was my chance but then our marriage happened and-and you weren't the same.

"I waited and waited but you never looked at me more than a friend."

Zayn kisses his forehead when Harry starts hiccuping from the crying. He wanted to say so many thing, but he reckons, it's not the right time. So he let Harry finish first.

"Then the night happened. When I got this job and to celebrate, we drank and smoke till we can't process anything around us. When we slept together that night, I thought-I thought maybe somewhere in your heart, you love me too. But I was proven wrong when you left this apartment the next day. You left me."

"Haz-"

"You even stopped being my best friend after that Zayn. Then I got pregnant. I thought maybe this baby will bring us closer but then I found you in the same bed Elina."

Zayn don't think he even wanted to punch someone so bad as he wants to punch his old self. He holds Harry tighter.

"you-you became more distant after hearing about the pregnancy. You-you were never there. You never once-never once looked at Aleeza after she was born. You always looked at me with those hateful eyes and it hurt, Z. It hurt because I didn't know what I did to make you hate me that much."

"Then you accused me of cheating. I don't know why you'd think that I could cheat on you but I swear I didnt. I could never think of anyone except you. I-I love you so much to do that."

"I don't hate you, I could never, Haz." Zayn whispers wiping the tears that fell from his green eyes.

"You did. You said you hate me." Some more tears fell from his cheek.

"Then two months later, I got this call from the hospital saying you got into an accident.
The next thing I know is Louis calling me to tell that you have lost your last 8 years of memory."

"Wh-why didn't you tell me about our marriage?" Zayn asks in a whisper, his own eyes becoming teary.

"Because the doctors said we shouldn't tell you anything that would put pressure on any of your brain nerves. I thought it was the best to not tell you about the marriage that had became a burden to you. That you wanted to get rid of." Harry looks at him with red swollen eyes and trembling lips.

"What-what do you mean?" Zayn whispers.

"They found this-this thing in your car when you met with the accident." Harry rests his head right above Zayn's heart and let his tears fall freely, making the shirt wet.

"What-what was it?" Zayn asks in a trembling voice.

To say Zayn is nervous to hear the answer, would be an understatement. He holds Harry tighter against his chest.

"I-I love you." Harry cries against his chest. "I love you so-so much. I don't wanna lose you. Please don't leave."

If Zayn was nervous about the answer before, he is scared now.

"I won't leave you, Haz. I-I promise." Zayn kisses his forehead, wetting the curls a bit with his own tears.

"What was the thing that they gave you?" Zayn asks shakily despite of him dreading the answer.

"Divorce-divorce papers, signed by you."

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Longest chapter so far 😂

HAPPY NEW YEAR ❤

Hope 2018 brings happiness to your lives. 😊

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