It was a dismal Saturday morning. The gentle sound of rain hitting the windows and the dark sky made me want to stay in bed. I turned my head to look over at Erwin, who was still fast asleep. I moved closer, letting my body be engulfed by his warmth, my hand resting on his bare chest. He began to stir; rolling onto his side and draping his arm over me. His hand rested on my lower back and my head was now buried in his chest. I smiled to myself, enjoying the moment. It didn't happen often. I was always up early for work during the week and Erwin worked on the weekends so he was usually up by now. I did wonder if I should wake him but, as selfish as it was, I just wanted to stay like this with him. As I laid there, I felt my eyes begin to drift shut again, comfortable in Erwin's arms. As I was almost asleep again, I felt Erwin move, having finally woken up. I heaqrd him chuckle softly, his voice deeper than usual having just woken up. He began to rub my back softly, before taking his hand away and beginning to get out of the bed. I reached out, grabbing his hand in my sleepy state.

"Stay..."

I mumbled, not opening my eyes. He chuckled again, placing his hand on my cheek.

"I have to get ready."

He whispered. I opened my eyes wearily, looking up to Erwin.

"Please."

I said quietly. I wasn't usually this clingy. Maybe it's just because I was still tired... or maybe it was because I missed the mornings like this. When we'd first started moved in together and even into the first couple of years of our marriage, we'd do this all the time; We'd stay in bed and cuddle until we needed to get out of bed. I probably didn't appreciate it the same back then. I didn't realise that it'd stop. I just wanted him to touch me. I wanted him to hold me. I didn't care if I was being selfish or needy. Erwin smiled softly, sitting back down on the bed.

"Okay, just a little while longer."

He said as he laid back down beside me. He placed his hand onto my back, beginning to rub small circles into my skin. I sighed with contemptment. I wish we could stay like this forever.

"Erwin,"

I said quietly, tilting my head up to look at him.

"Yes?"

He questioned, looking down to me. I leant up and pressed my lips to his. His lips were soft as they began to move against mine. My hand slowly found its way onto Erwins cheek, his stubble rough against my fingertips. His hand had found its way to my back once again and was pulling my body closer to his. I wanted more. I pulled away from his lips.

"Erwin."

I repeated, staring up at him with large, lust-filled eyes.

"What is it?"

He asked. I continued to stare, hoping he'd understand. When he didn't, I let out a small sigh of frustration. Did he have no clue what I wanted? I pushed him onto his back and climbed on top of him, seating myself on his stomach. I leant down and locked our lips once more. As my hands traced down his chest, all I could think was how much I wanted him.
No... it wasn't that.
It was how much I wanted him to want me. I wanted his attention. I wanted his affection. I just wanted to know he still felt the same. I know his feelings for me and whether we have sex or not, don't have anything to do with one another. But I couldn't help but to think of the two as one.
Erwin hummed against my lips as he lightly pushed on my chest. I felt my heart sink as I pulled away slowly, savouring the feeling of his lips on mine.

"Not now, Levi."

He sighed, sounding annoyed. He slid his hands down to my hips and shifted me off him. He stood up off the bed as I sat there staring up at him.

"I have to get ready."

He said as he made his way to the bathroom. I sat there, feeling cold and alone. I so desperately wanted him to want me. I covered myself with the blanket once again, curling up and trying to keep myself from being upset. I knew this was going to happen; we hadn't had sex since the night of the Christmas party, so why would he want it now? I knew I shouldn't have placed so much weight on this. This shouldn't be how I need him to show me he loves me. His actions outside of the bedroom spoke so much more. Of course he loved me. But I couldn't help it.

"Okay, I'm going now!"

Erwin called from the door of the bedroom.

"Okay."

I responded quietly from my bundle of blankets. I didn't want to be upset over this. It felt like such a small thing to be emotional over.

"I'll see you when I get home."

He said. I heard his footsteps as he walked away and out of the apartment. I wondered why I couldn't have just told him how I was feeling. Why I didn't just ask him about it. If there was a reason for his lack of interest? If it was something I've done? I sighed, rolling over and reaching for my phone. I stared at the screen for moment for before tapping on Eren's name.

"Hey"

I laid there, just staring at my screen, waiting for his response. A small part of me wished I didn't feel the need to turn to Eren. I thought about Erwin, and what I would do if he ever found out. Just the thought of it made me feel sick. Was I really going to see Eren just because I didn't get my way this morning with Erwin?

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My phone vibrated on the couch next to me, two new messages from Eren popping up on the screen.

"Just woke up lmao"

"What's up x"

I looked at the time. It was almost 12; How was he still asleep at this time? I wasn't upset over Erwin anymore... did I even want to see Eren?

"Nothing. Sorry"

"Aw thought you might've
been asking for something ;)"

"I want to see you x"

"Come over?"

His message made me smirk. Maybe I would see him? I loved the feeling of being desired. He wanted me. A feeling I hadn't got from Erwin in a while...

"Yeah, alright."

"I'll come over soon"

"Looking forward to it ;)"

Sitting my phone back down, I sighed to myself. Eren reminded me of Erwin at times. Maybe that's why I kept going back? I was craving Erwin and was trying to satisfy that through Eren. It never worked the way I wanted it to. Simply because Eren wasn't Erwin. Erwin was my husband, the man I've loved for years. No one could bring me the same satisfaction as him. No one could replace him or be his substitute; no one could be Erwin. I knew this well. Yet, I still tried. Trying to find what I wanted in Eren.

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I pulled up outside the old, run-down apartment building. The complete opposite to mine and Erwin's building. I slipped off my wedding ring, leaving it my car. I walked up to the building, walking through the open front door. It had an intercom system installed next to the door but apparently had been broken since Eren moved in, so the door was always open. The hallways were dimly lit and dusty. I felt gross just being in there. I knocked on his door, habitually looking down the hall to make sure nobody would see me. He opened it, a smirk appearing on his face.

"Hey,"

He said, as he grabbed my hips, still standing in the doorway

"You kept me waiting..."

He teased. I looked up at him.

"Isn't it worth the wait?"

"Definitely."

He hummed, his fingers finding their way under my shirt. He leant down, his lips pressing to my neck.

"Let me get inside first, idiot."

"Mm why?"

He whispered, his lips close to my ear.

"I'd do it right here."

I pushed his chest, making him step back into the apartment. Shutting the door behind me, I grabbed his shirt, pulling him down and locking our lips. He grabbed my hips once again, pulling my body closer to his. I liked when Eren tried to be in charge. I found it cute. Especially because we both knew I would be the one in charge soon enough. His hands began to roam, slipping his hands under my shirt and pulling it up. He pulled away, removing my shirt over my head and placing his hands onto my chest. I smirked as his fingertips traced over my skin. I reached up, running my fingers through his hair and guiding him back to my lips. His lips moved against mine roughly, unable to hide his hunger. It only made me want this more. My hands travelled down his body, tracing over his shirt, feeling his defined muscles through the fabric. I reached his pants undoing his belt buckle and beginning to undo his zipper. Placing his hands under my thighs, Eren lifted me up as I got them undone. He was stronger than he looked. With my legs around his waist and his lips still on mine, he began to walk toward the bedroom. He threw me down onto the bed, standing above me. He paused for a moment to stare, taking in the sight in front of him.

"Come here."

I said, my tone becoming more demanding. He slowly crawled on top of me until his lips were close to mine and his hips were above mine. I threaded my fingers through his hair, pulling him to me once again, his lips pressing to mine. I let his tongue slide past my lips, exploring the inside of my mouth. I grabbed his hips, pulling him down so he was now sitting on top of my clothed erection. I could feel his smirk against my lips. He began to grind down on me. I couldn't help but moan against his lips. He seemed to enjoy my reaction as he continued to do so, his hips moving seductively. He sat up, running his fingers through his hair to move it out of his face. I bit my lip at the sight, reaching for his shirt. I pulled at the hem, trying to pull it up from where I was laying. Eren seemed to get the hint, removing the shirt and throwing it to the side. I hummed with satisfaction, letting my hands rest on his hips. Eren began to move his hips again. I was enjoying this much more than I usually would. As much as I liked Eren, I usually couldn't help but think about Erwin when I was with him. Today was different, all I could think about was Eren. I couldn't stand his teasing anymore. I wanted him more than anything else right now.

"Eren..."

I tried to talk but all I could manage was his name. I couldn't believe how this boy could make me so desperate. Eren seemed to understand what I was trying to ask. He got off me, pulling down his already undone pants along with his underwear. I did the same, pulling my pants off and tossing them to the side. His cheeks were flushed red as he climbed back on top of me. I watched as he lowered himself onto my throbbing erection. Eren threw his head back as his hips moved lower. I bit my lip, watching him as he did. He began slowly moving up and down, getting comfortable. I couldn't help the frustration that was slowly building the longer he kept his slow pace. I grabbed his hips, my fingers digging into his skin.

"Levi..."

He breathed before I began to guide him, making his hips move faster, watching as his cheeks got redder and his moans got louder. With the feeling of Eren's tight hole and the sight of his composure slowly coming undone, I couldn't help but moan. I took one of my hands off his hip and wrapped it around his shaft. I began to stroke him as he continued to bounce on my dick.

"Le-Levi! Ah!"

He moaned out breathlessly. I smirked as he did. I moved my hand faster, causing Eren's hips to halt, unable to focus. I continued, making the boy squirm, moans falling from his lips effortlessly. I could see that he was getting close. I let go of his dick and grabbed onto his hips once again. I held him in place as I began to thrust up into him. His open-mouthed expression showing how his mind had gone blank, unable to think about anything except the pleasure. He fell forward onto his hands, leaning over me, unable to keep himself sitting up any longer. I didn't slow down. I continued to pound into him, the sounds of skin against skin filling the room. His eyes were watery and his cheeks were red as he looked at me, trying to get his words out.

"Levi -ah!- Levi! I'm gonna - fuck - I'm going to -mmm Levi!- Cum! I'm gonna cum!"

I smirked at him, I found the way he could barely get a sentence out unbearably hot. I placed my hand around his shaft once again, my hand moving in time with my hips.

"Levi~"

He whined as he released onto my stomach and chest. I removed my hands as he collapsed on top of me, breathing heavily beside my ear.

"Get up brat. I'm not done."

I demanded, whispering into his ear. My teeth grazing along his lobe. I felt him shiver as he pushed himself back up, his hips struggling to stay still with my dick still inside him. I thrusted up into him once again, rougher this time, watching as he struggled to hold himself together.

"Levi, I- I- I can't..."

Pushing myself up on the bed, I grabbed his chin. Pulling his face close to mine.

"Yes, you can, slut."

I smirked as I felt him quiver at my words. Holding his hips, I lifted him off me and threw him beside me on the bed. I moved between his legs, grabbing them and lifting them onto my shoulders. I watched him bite his lip, his bright eyes watching me as I lined myself up with his hole. I entered him slowly, letting out a low moan as I did. I was already so close. I held his legs as I began to thrust my hips. Eren was barely holding himself together, unable to do anything but moan, his eyes becoming teary as I started to pick up my pace.

"Fuck, you're so hot..."

I mumbled, watching as his cheeks turned redder and his dick became semi-erect, once again. He was already so sensitive, I knew he couldn't take much more. But I couldn't help myself. I grabbed his dick once more, not even moving my hand yet.

"No Levi~ Oh my God! I can't! I can't!"

He couldn't keep his hips still.

"Fuck."

I swore again, as my hips moved faster and my hand began to stroke up and down his shaft. Eren looked like he was about to cry, but his moans begged me to keep going. I thrusted into him roughly, barely being able to think myself. I could feel droplets of sweat beginning to form on my skin. My rhythm became slower as I felt myself nearing my edge. I let go of Eren's dick, instead holding onto his thighs. I thrusted once more before I released inside of him. Eren letting out a loud, choked out moan as I did. We stayed as we were for a moment before I pulled out slowly, trying to catch my breath and letting go of Eren's legs. Eren laid there with a dazed expression, panting heavily. He looked to me and held his hand out, his eyes still glassy and his face still flushed red. I took his hand and let him guide me to him. He pressed his lips against mine. The kiss was different to how we'd kissed before. It's was gentle and soft. A contrast to our usually rough and needy kisses. I pulled away, leaving Eren with a confused expression. I'd come to the realisation that maybe this wasn't just sex to him. Maybe he wanted more?

"Do you mind if I shower?"

I asked, trying to steer away from conversation that clearly needed to be had.

"Yeah, of course."

Eren replied. I could see in his face that wasn't thrilled with my reaction. I felt bad for him; I knew we hadn't ever actually discussed what this was... But I had just thought he wanted the same as me. Mine and Eren's relationship was already much more complicated than he even knew. I couldn't give him more than what we had now, but I wasn't sure I could explain that to him without telling him why. I wasn't ready to tell Eren that I was married; That he was just a side piece. Especially now if it turns out he wants more.

"Thanks."

I said, pulling my hand away from him and getting off the bed. Picking up my clothes from the floor, I headed to the small ensuite bathroom, closing the door behind me. I reached into my pant pocket pulling out my phone. Two new messages from Erwin sitting there; I mustn't of heard it.

"Hey? I'm home..."

"Did you go out?"

I didn't think he'd be home so early.

"Yeah. Be back soon"