| Daisy |

I was on cloud nine.

I had no idea what the world was on about I had no idea and I didn't care. All I wanted to do was think and over think about him.

About all the hints he dropped all over the place.

That ship has sailed. .

I look forward to seeing that one person. .

I smashed the pillow on my face , screaming in joy.

Yesterday, he had to leave for his class and my heart kinda died a little from inside knowing he was going to break the hug . .he had pulled back but he didn't let me go . Looking down at me he caught my wrist and turned around. . moving towards the building.

He was moving.  . walking.  Pulling a dazed me with himself. .the rain didn't have any affect on him because of his heavy bomber jacket but i. .well I looked like a cat soaked to it's bones .

My shirt was wet. My hair sticky and strangely. .I was loving it! Loving every second of it!

He didn't look back at me while walking.

His hand would slip a little because of the rain drops slipping and sliding on our hands but then he would steady his hold.

He wouldn't let go.

Dean kept going until we entered the empty corridor that led to the backyard of the building.

I was smiling so bad my cheek hurt.

And then suddenly he looked around — his mouth opening like he was about to say something but the second his green eyes fell on me—

"Fuck. . ." He had trailed off.

That kind of made the smile on my face disappear.

He was cursing silently and I could feel the dread in the pit of my stomach. Did I do some stupid crap again? Did I push at him again—

And  why was he trying to avoid looking at me?

Did I look that hideous?

And then he was shrugging off his jacket—

I was dumbstruck I didn't even make a sound . What the heck was happening? and the next second the heavy jacket fell on my shoulders .

"Dean what—"

"Shut up."

But he didn't snap. He said it in a quiet manner.

And then he forced me to wear it .

The jacket made me look like a dwarf. I was engulfed in his scent and warmth.

"Why did you give me —"

"Zip it." He said biting his bottom lip. Looking over the edge . Eyes looking everywhere but me.

Excuse me?

" You want me to zip my mouth? After everything you said to me just ten minutes back? " My eyes widened .

Dean sighed loudly and then he came up on me — his eyes fixed on my face and his hands going to my chest— zipping up the jacket.

Oh.

Oh!

So that's what he meant.

He stepped back . .and gave me one last burning glance before walking away. Leaving me, a confused mess, behind.

Puzzled at his attitude, I don't know what came on me but I unzipped the jacket and take a look at myself.

Then I zipped it right back!

Mortified, I didn't even know my bra was showing through my wet shirt. I didn't have the courage to face Dean ever again in my life.

But that was me being on the verge of embarrassment.

Now that I thought. .yesterday was a dreamy  day.

So dreamy , i wanted to live it for the rest of my life. As Eminem said when it's going good it's going great. The love I had for him was deepening with every minute I spend with him. Around him. Just looking at him.

All the tiny little things would make me fall for him all over again.

Tossing and turning around all night, I dreamed of a green eyed man telling me all his secrets.

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The next day I made sure to notch up my dressing level and the level was a coat of lip gloss and a swipe of mascara.

I was a loser like that.

Cheers to girls who did flawless makeup like Gloria but I didn't like covering my skin at all. Even if I had a pimple I never covered it .  I roll that way.

I decided to do one sneaky little thing and I don't know if that made me a horrible person but I so wasn't returning his jacket. At all..

I slept in his jacket and it made me creepy as hell but I couldn't help myself! I slept with his scent surrounding me all over.

It had me smiling like an idiot!

When I reached school, Jenn looked at me and then did a double take.

"What in the actual— girl is that you?" She gave me a once over again.

"It's the new me." I twirled around for the heck of it.

She had a doubtful look on her face.

"Did you have sex with Dean?"

"What?! No way— what the—Jenn!" I kinda looked horrified and I could feel the heat on my face. I was very much virgin, thank you very much. Just the thought of it was enough to drive me over the fence.

She grinned at me. " Well you have a glow on your face so thought must be orgasm."

"I have a glow because—"

"Did someone say glow?"

We glanced at the person who just joined us and of course I knew who it was. Her perfume announced her arrival. Always.

Jenn leaned against the locker, a sly look on her face.

"Our sister just had sex with the devil."

Gloria clapped a manicured hand to her mouth, the ring on her finger glinting under the lights.

I sighed softly.

"You did not!  I raised you better than this!" I could see the accusation in her emerald eyes. She looked so serious and she was rarely that. Serious.

Jenn laughed when I gave her the stink eye.

"She's shitting you. " I said glumly.

Gloria breathed with relief and I nearly rolled my eyes. Did she really think I would jump in bed at the first invite?

Gloria looked at me with worry.

"Rule #1 never make yourself look easy to the man of your life. That's a big no no. It's how you give him the ticket to slack land."

I raised my hands in surrender.

"I know I know. I would never go against what you taught me, Yoda."

Gloria stunned us with a smile .

"Smart girl. So tell me why are you glowing so hard? " she whispered.

"Because she had a—"

Jenn zipped her lips when I glared daggers at her.

Gloria looked between us. Back and forth.

"Well?"

Ah, hell.

There just wasn't any way of hiding from her.

"Nothing special. We, " I cleared my throat ," Dean and I. . .we are friends again. Sort of." I shrugged.

She nodded thoughtful.

Then she crossed her arms, her index finger going up . . tapping her chin.

Tap tap tap.

"That sounds like a good news and . .a bad news."

What?

"Bad news?" Jenn asked looking  curious now.

"Let me just say. . .be careful. The ground you're threading is not trusting. Dean obviously have some issues and if you're not ready to be at his side when things hit rock bottom then don't . If you don't want to get your heart trampled on then don't be with him . Seems like he has given you a clear pass. Be with him or don't . .it's up to you."

To say Jenn looked impressed would be an understatement of the century.

Even I was. . more surprised than impressed. Because Gloria . .just break down everything.

"How do you know all this?" I breathed out in sheer disbelief.

She flipped her golden locks.

"Observation, my friend. "

"Has to be one of the best advice I heard lately." Jenn said , her face had the obvious hero worship look.

What she said made me think. .hard.

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I did something I never ever thought I would do.

Or can do.

It just happened.

I have zero explanation for that.

Jenn and I, we were just chilling at the cafeteria. .she was fiercely copying my assignment and trying not to be obvious about it so she was busy brainstorming and I was sitting . .just staring around at nothing particular. But in my heart I knew what I wanted.

And it was to see him.

See , all I wanted to do was stand by the gate of our school and wait for him to step out of that ridiculously fancy car. That's how desperate I was.

But then I had to control the urge to be everywhere he was.

So like a decent human being, I was waiting patiently for him to make an appearance.

And he did of course.

Dean arrived with Logan , Logan chatting away and him looking bored . He didn't see me.

I had straightened up and the beat beat of my heart wouldn't allow me to think about anything but him. It was natural right. To feel nervous and jittery and . . .it was beautiful.

Seeing him listening to Logan and nodding his head in answer had to be the best thing I had seen today.

The both of them went to the window side table and as usual he occupied the seat closest to the window.

Everyone's neck had turned in his direction . Trying to sneak at him without being obvious. The slight giggles and whisperings made me want to laugh . .guess I wasn't the only one being a nervous mess.

I could spot Jessica eyeing him from afar and somehow . someway it made me glower. Her friend whispered to her while looking at Dean and then they laughed .

Logan stood up , his cellphone stuck to his ear as he made his way out of the cafeteria.

And Jessica too stood up, ruffling her blonde hair .

"Good luck!" Her friend cheered.

And then I heard that.

The snap in me.

It was written on the wall.

She was going to talk to Dean.

I could see that.

And then I said ," I'll be right back. " To Jenn.

She nodded, still writing.

Pushing the chair back I stood up and I could feel his eyes snapping on me. Like he just noticed me . Jessica too stopped right where she was . . .her cat eyes turning in to slits because she knew what I was about to do.

I was going to ruin her plan.

And that I did.

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