| Daisy |

I didn't have the heart to read her scathing voice messages.

Fresh out of shower ,wearing a comfy set of PJs ,I was combing my wet hair but every time I pulled the comb down , it would get  stuck in my hair and after one minute of battle , the twig stuck in my hair fell out.

Right. .

Must have been in the swimming pool.

My date got cancelled because I couldn't make it on time. Because I got dripping wet from head to toe and I smelled liked chlorinated water. Jenn kept calling and sending fiery messages but deep down she knew what and why happened.

As I said it wasn't the first time.

It didn't even bother me now.

Dean.

The brooding man everyone wanted to be close to , everyone wanted to befriend . The man everyone let path for . .i was in love with him.

I sighed, tying my hair . .

This wasn't a revelation. This was not something I didn't know or I was in denial of. A one sided love that was threatening to take over my life and I was complete helpless . My love made me helpless when it came to him. I had been in love with him when I set my sight on him.

For the very first time.

I wish i could say he seemed like the exact version of prince charming who had charmed my pants off. I wish I could say he smiled at me and my heart slipped but it wasn't anything like that.

Not even close.

It was one fine day of November.

I had gotten b+ on my english assignment and I had no idea where I was heading to. I was fretting over the paper in my hands with the big fat +b when a hard shoulder slammed into me.

The shot of pain made me wince , lifting my hand over to my throbbing shoulder.

Angrily, I had looked around. .seeing his wide back. He was walking away. I was not an angry person. I was not someone who would go out of her way to fire back but that moment . .I have no idea what happened. . furiously I had moved towards him .

My hands fisted.

He was walking way too fast for my short legs.

Huffing, I moved right into his path. And that stopped him in his tracks.

"You—,"

But then I forgot what I had to say.

His eyes hit me in the heart.

Just seeing him from the front was enough to dumbfound me. Because. .I was an ordinary girl and men like him . .I had never seen a guy like him. Up close. Personal. Face to face.

The golden flecks in his  green eyes had glinted in arrogance as if he couldn't believe who had stopped him.

And I didn't say anything.

Anything at all.

He just looked at me like he was looking past through me. Seeing me freeze and just  straight out staring at him, his lips had pursed in a line and the forest green eyes looked away from me. . I thought I heard him say  "Not another one ." And leaving me behind he had walked away . .

While I stood there.

Rooted to the spot.

Not believing what I just saw.

He was the first and the last handsome man I had seen. I had only heard the phrase drop dead gorgeous from Jenn and I knew what that meant because he was the impersonation of it. There was just something about him. .his aura was intimidating. .almost alluring. .where you couldn't help but want to know more about him . .want to get close to him. .know his secrets.

And that's how I fell.

No words spoken. . nothing said. .just one glance. .

After that I looked out for him . At school. Then I got  to know he's friend with Logan. My brother would often talk about how loaded he is and how . .careless he is about everything.

Even his life.

He rarely occupied the cafeteria with his friends. And when he did , he would get the seat by the window and just stare out. No food. No eating.

Like a beautiful Roman sculpture he would sit rigidly . His friends would laugh and goof around but he would brood. A guy who looked like that and was rich enough to buy anything he wanted always attracted attention.

From females.

And males .

Equally.

Girls would buzz around the place he was at. Giggling and whispering to each other if he passed by or sat in the cafe and may be that was too much for him because he stopped coming to cafeteria. Girl still didn't give up. They would come in his way intentionally. Drop books and bend down.

And it was such a sight to see when he would step around the scattered books .

I had seen him kicking away a book, it had skidded past the pale girl and he had stormed away leaving the girl in tears.

I would be a liar if I didn't accept it make me happy. Seeing her tearful made me happy in a sick twisted way. But one sided love is like that.

Sick and twisted.

And just like that Dean Harrison took our school and my heart by storm. Only Jenn knew about it and she had warned me .

"If you don't watch it, you will end up hurting yourself. You know his reputation. Didn't Logan say he was dating a girl older than him?" She had whispered during chemistry class.

What she said. .stung a little.

"So? "

"So?" Her black eyes widened at my careless manner. "Girl you need to pull  your head outta your ass! I don't want you chasing after some asshole."

"I'm not chasing him. .," Jenn gave me the stink eye. "Okay okay I'm. But that's about it. Technically he doesn't know I'm chasing him so I'm safe. I love him in a harmless sort of way."

Jenn had looked at me like I had lost my marbles.

And maybe I had. .

After our countless arguments she had given up on my case and I loved her for that. She was my best friend and she knew . .knew that no matter what she said I couldn't wouldn't stop loving him.

And then something happened.

I had a date.

Not date date but a hangout kinda date.

Jenn had arranged that for me so I could come out of this haze I was stuck in and start to actually have a life and obsess over boys rather than his facebook profile pictures.

I had agreed only because of her.

Also the guy was paying so. .a win win situation. He was my senior. And Logan was pretty much cool with my barely there dating life.

In fact he had actually encouraged me to go out and have fun. I shouldn't just rot in my room, that's what Gloria had said  before disappearing in my brother's room.

So I had accepted his invite.

We decided to meet on Saturday night at cafe crunch . For some reason Jenn had been more excited than I was.

She wouldn't stop talking about how she would dress me up and enhance my gray eyes with dark liner.

The next morning when I came to school, a seriously freaked out senior had stopped me in the parking lot.

He kept looking over his shoulder as if afraid he might get attacked any second.

"Ben? Are you alright?" I had asked , worried at his erratic behavior.

"Yeah yeah. Fine—," he wiped off the droplets of sweat from his forehead, " fine. About the date , Daisy. I'm sorry but I wouldn't be able to make it."

He had said it all in a rushed way. In a forced manner. Like he had said the words so many times it sounded mechanical.

"What? But. .but why?" I had asked, puzzled and feeling let down.

"Because. . because—you're not my type." He blurted out . And before I could say anything , he literally ran  like his tail caught fire.

What he said really . .I don't know. .hurt a little. Even though I didn't know him at all. .but it still hurt . .

Not his type?

Maybe I should have told him he was neither mine! I was doing it all for my friend! But deep down I knew I was looking forward to my first ever date and . .it went down the drain. .

Then it was a string of failed dates.

Failed attempts.

At the last minute the guy would leave. Every guy had looked afraid and that's when I knew something was wrong.

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